friends-fan-16

had my ed for 13 years, so yeah I'm an adult with anorex1a

[friends-fan-16]

Getting off this site for good probably.

Just found out a few weeks ago I’m pregnant. 🤰

I am completely surprised. I mean I’m married but, still surprised haha.

So its time to take care of this little life inside me.

Here’s to hoping this helps me find recovery from my an0rexia so I can be the best mom possible for my child. I’m absolutely terrified I won’t be good enough, but I’m really hoping to get better and have a normal life.

I wish recovery for all of you as well!! 💕💕💕

[friends-fan-16]

Made a doctor’s appointment for next week… Not excited about it, but I’m really concerned about my hair loss. I’m losing probably 50 - 60 strands a day. It’s making me really nervous that I’ll be bald soon. I bet she’ll say there’s nothing I can do but eat more, but I’m not ready yet.

[troiantroian]

feedthemovie via insta

[elegiacspencer]

[lonewillowitch]

[60-5kg]

[rosesfromthedeep]

It is 2020 and I want to say that “Feed” starring Troian Bellisario and Tom Felton (2017) is still one of the most emotional, deep, raw, true and relatable movies I’ve ever seen. It represents eating disorder really realistically and it was beyond amazing and brave of Troian to make this movie based on her experiences with it. Many times it has helped me - and many, many others, I imagine - through my worst times. Thank you, Troian. I find it really underrated and it is such a huge injustice that this masterpiece is not available on DVD in my country. 

[friends-fan-16]

Anyone ever done IOP? I’m considering recovery… maybe. I don’t think I can pause my whole life for residential, but IOP sounds like it could be helpful.

[becherdireinen]

When people think you’re getting better but you’re just getting better at hiding it.

[typiing-deactivated20240430]

half of adulting is basically you trying not to cry

[friends-fan-16]

I don’t know what’s going on with my body, but I think the 13+ years of restriction is finally catching up with me. I feel weak all the time, my hair is falling out in clumps, it’s incredibly difficult to use the bathroom most of the time and I’m constantly in a brain fog…

Today at the grocery I bought some boost shakes because I’m scared I’m going to die I guess? I don’t know, my body just feels like it could give out anytime. I’m not doing well.

[friends-fan-16]

I guess maintaining is better than gaining, but damn this is annoying.

[friends-fan-16]

I don’t think I’ve weighed myself in like a week and a half. I’m too scared. I’m so sure I’ve gained between working out less and being on vacation. 🙄🙄🙄

[lesbianrey]

big fan of polite and minimal explanations when you need to get out of work, school, plans etc. just a definitive ‘sorry but I can’t make it today.’ and then if they press for details or are rude about it say ‘sorry, something came up. thanks for understanding’ i’m over the idea that you have to exaggerate/overexplain your situation even when you don’t want to do that to be worthy of flexibility and grace in your life

[friends-fan-16]

I ate so much yesterday. Like probably around 2,500 calories. I don’t even remember the last time I did that. When I tired to go to bed last night my stomach was cramping and yelling at me for eating that much.

still kind of hurting today. 😭😭😭 why did I eat that much?

[m0ldys0cks]

i love the shirt im wearing but i fucking hate my boobs they are ruining my whole life rn

[friends-fan-16]

I keep getting this weird sponsored ad for a “shared diagnosis” app and I’m like, b***h I already have this app. It’s called Tumblr.