I've been feeling really good for the past week or so - kept myself positive and surfed on high vibrations, but today, even though it's my day off and I should feel more excited (than my usual fabulous self), I don't feel so.
I'm sure you know what I mean - kind of lethargic, little sad, waiting for someone else to give me an energy shake with some motivation-boosting caffeine (just realised how weird this might be).
Even though I very well know that I'm the only one who can make myself feel better.
I've been meticulously keeping up with my meditation sessions - twice a day, in the morning with the beautiful sun (that greets me as soon as I open my blinds) and in the evening to unwind in the comfort of the dark. And it was going really well until yesterday evening when I chose a different guided meditation for my evening routine and for some reason, now thinking back on it, it just didn't sit well with me.
And I can definitely feel it. Maybe it was because I fell asleep during the meditation and I didn’t properly ground myself, who knows. The only thing I do know is that I woke up 3 times during that night, thirsty as if I hadn't had water for days.
Anyway, lately I've been loving Aaron Doughty's meditations (especially the Parallel Reality meditation and Raise Vibration MP3). For me, using guided meditations is a really good way to keep myself on track in times when I find it hard to sit down and meditate.
Sometimes we all have too many thoughts which we find hard to stop from ransacking our mind - which at the same time is only an opportunity for us to ease into it, to observe instead of trying to relentlessly control.
I'm also currently reading Ask and It's Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks which (by the way) is an excellent book and a must-read for everyone. It explains exactly what to do when you feel down or when you feel hopeless, angry, guilty or depressed. And it’s not in the way of think good thoughts and all will be fine, it actually gives you 22 processes what to do based on your emotional scale.
Where has this book been for all my life?
Note to myself - get a hard copy!
I will keep it on my nightstand for times when I feel like I start self-sabotaging myself with all kinds of thoughts.
This book made me realise that my emotions are not just there and mine, but that I can also choose what to feel in a way that agrees with me and with my current vibration.
And how to build myself up from there - this is the key.
For me, as my daily emotional rollercoaster is no surprise and I can feel hundreds of emotions in a day (but rarely show it which is something I need to work on), I now feel more in charge of.. myself.
Understanding your emotions and knowing that you can choose what to feel helps a lot, and the book provides very helpful processes depending on your current spot on the emotional scale, to help you build your way to the emotion where you start giving out positive vibrations (and thus attracting the same vibrations back).
And talking about attraction, I'm sure you know how it goes - let's say that you have a client who comes in and you know (you can feel it!) that they’re going to be trouble. The second you dare to ask some clarification of their order or on any details, they snap at you like it should've been obvious.
What's the first thought you have? Especially if they're being quite difficult?
You wish to snap back. You wish to ask what's their problem (which you usually don't as I know you’re smart, but nevertheless this gets you down)- and that's how vibrations work.
If you're not feeling good, that's the type of people you will attract. They attract you and you attract them.
And that's not to say that you should smile sweetly at anyone cussing at you - I just wish you to know that everyone has their own reality that they're projecting into the world, and that just happens to be theirs.
Don't let their reality affect yours.
And if you let this one person drag your vibration down without doing anything to get it back up, then that's why you may get more unhappy customers than yesterday when you were prancing around all happy with a jolly cheerful tune on your lips.
I can certainly vouch it's true - and I've been working in customer service for almost years now.
Anyway, I'll leave it here.
I didn't manage to arrange my daily scribbles but as I'm finishing this up in the evening, I actually have to say I'm feeling pretty good compared to my morning grumpy self (and this is coming from a morning person).
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