My Journey

Blog dedicated to my WLS journey

[fromfluffy2fly]

The smiling pic was prior to the surgery and the second pic was at the beginning of my third day in the hospital. Everything went amazing. Although the first night and beginning of the second day, I was nauseated, vomiting and in a good deal of pain. My surgeon was right on top of it and it was worked out immediately. One thing I will suggest and cannot stress enough is WALK,WALk, WALK! It will help your gas move and help you get on the road to recovery. I was finally discharged Friday afternoon and was not home long before the adhesive came off of one of my incisions. So now I have to deal with that draining profusely. I called my care team and they said it should be ok but I’m tired of having wet shirts and pants.

Eating has been so weird as well, I’m currently on full liquids and can only eat half of a cup of yogurt in one setting that takes almost 30 minutes or more. I’m learning what to do to prevent pain or discomfort rather. Cold drinks are an absolute no! Everything has to be room temperature or more. I also feel like I feel every part of the digestive process. Super weird. I think that’s all of my update for now.

[fromfluffy2fly]

It’s day 5 of my 2 week long, liver shrinking diet. Basically I have three protein shakes, broth, sugar free popsicles and jello. Then two meals out of the week I can have low carb high protein. I’m starving and I don’t know if I can do this. It’s weird because usually I could skip meals and go all day without eating but right now I’m ravished. I think it’s mental but geesh.. almost to the finish line

[thepowerwithin]

Don’t wait for someone else to bring you flowers. Instead, respect yourself enough to be able to do so. Everyday. Why? Because you only deserve the most beautiful bouquets.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[fromfluffy2fly]

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I got my date! June 4th at 730 am

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Waiting to hear back from insurance is like watching paint dry..that’s all....

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The end of the beginning.. my psych evaluation was a success this morning and my case manager told me she would email the scheduling coordinator to have my file submitted to insurance today. I’m nervous because of what happened last time and excited because I’m almost there.

[fromfluffy2fly]

I’m sooooo sleepy. I had my Upper GI Endoscopy this morning. My arrival time to the hospital was 6:15am so that means I had to get up at 5 am. Geesh Louise! Arrived at the hospital and everything was easy peasy until they checked my blood pressure and it was 158/105 ( it was nerves or my mom.. take your pick ). The staff was super sweet and turned on a calming station on the television and my pressure lowered. A whole buttload of people came in and talked to me and an hour and half later it was showtime. While giving me the anesthesia they were talking to me and next thing I knew I was waking up in recovery. It was so simple but I cannot stay awake right now to save my life. I almost forgot I got home and a little voice said double check your clearances. Lo and behold my cardiologist has not submitted their part. I swear I’ve made 6 calls to their office today and cannot reach anyone at the nurses desk. If I was allowed to drive, I would so go over there and jump on the desk.

[slim-within-blog]

My Reasons for Losing Weight

For My Health

To have better skin

So I don’t sweat profusely

So I can walk up a flight of stairs and not feel out of breath

So my back won’t hurt

So my knee won’t hurt 

So my doctor will never say, “you really need to lose some weight” to me ever again

So I don’t have to worry about arthritis or other illnesses that accompany obesity

For Vanity

To feel better about myself

To look good in tight clothes

To be able to wear shorts in the summer

To be able to go into any store, and buy the clothes I like, not just the ones that fit

To not feel awkward about going clothes shopping or shoe shopping

To be able to order clothes from a catalogue without worrying if they will fit

To be able to wear something that doesn’t say PLUS on it

So my pants won’t wear out between my legs while the rest of them are still in good shape

So I can look in the mirror from the neck down and like what I see

So I can wear tight jeans

I want to wear underwear that looks sexy

So I can show off my legs

So I can go into public and not feel like people are judging me

So I can wear tops without worrying about the dents from my bra showing trough

So that my boobs stick out more than my stomach – not the other way around

For a Better Quality of Life

To be able to use a public toilets comfortably

I want to be able to read the scale by just looking down, straight down

So I don’t get those indents on my thighs from the arms of the chair I’m sitting in

So I can cross my legs

So I can get up from the floor in one smooth move and not a grab and hold on to something move

So I can sit on a bar stool and I’m actually sitting ON it, not on it and around it too

So a regular towel goes all the way around me 

So my socks pull all the way up

So I can hug my knees to my chest again, and it’s comfortable

So I can fit into the cinema/stadium/airplane seats comfortably

So I can bend over comfortably to tie my shoes

For My Self-esteem

So I can go swimming without being self-conscious

So I don’t worry about chairs breaking

So I don’t have to ask for the additional seat belt on an airplane

So I can dance without being self-conscious

So I can go on rides at amusement parks again and not have to experience the embarrassment of having to get off because I don’t fit

So I don’t have to worry about the maximum weight before I using things

So I don’t feel awkward when people start talking about losing weight

So no one can ever call me “a big girl” ever again

So I’m not embarrassed to have my picture taken

So I can say my weight out loud

So furniture doesn’t groan when I sit on it, or wear out long before it should because I’m too heavy

[fromfluffy2fly]

I wrote a whole post and tumblr ate it... dafuq?!?

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It’s official

I guess I should have waited until my nutritionist appointment to post today. She was sooo happy with my results today. Being my curious self I asked when would they submit to insurance, she said after my psych evaluation next week and then I would get a date. This is really happening. Today’s class was about pre op diet, vitamins and how we will eat for the rest of our lives. I met some really cool ladies today too. One has my exact stats and the other has my same birthday but her year is 1969.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Note to self: You gotta do this for you. This is for you. This isn’t about anybody. Live for you. Honor you. Never lose sight of that.”

— Brittany Josephina

[fromfluffy2fly]

Y’all I’m a bundle of nerves! I literally have 2 more appointments before I’m given a surgery date. Since my last check in, I’ve also done more research on the duodenal switch surgery and am pretty sold on having that one. With duodenal switch, the surgeon sleeves your stomach and also redirects your intestine. Yes it’s more invasive buttttt the chances for keeping the weight off are higher and you also lose more weight. It’s more one and done instead of having possibilities of having a revision.

Well that’s all I have for now. I must go get ready for my 3 hour final nutrition class today.

[fromfluffy2fly]

Check in

This literally describes my life right now. I’ve started substitute teaching and the babies are so sweet. The great part about that is they keep me so busy, I’m meeting fitness goals and closing rings on my Apple Watch. Wooot.. my pulmonologist appointment is this week as well and my EGD next week. I’m really considering duodenal switch now due to weight loss rate and the likelihood of regain being so low. We’ll see.

[fromfluffy2fly]

It’s April! I’m super excited about this month because it’s when I have my pulmonary clearance, EGD, psych evaluation, last nutrition class, and my final pre op visit with my surgeon. Dang, that’s a lot but after waiting almost 3 years to get to this point, it’s worth it. After all of this is completed my file is submitted to insurance and I get my surgery date. On top of all this going on, my baby girl turns 10. Yay for double digits!

[fromfattytobaddie]

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FAT GIRL PROBLEMS

1. chub rub 2. people who see us as a fetish 3. cute clothes are never in our size 4. when clothes are our size, they never fit right  5. boobs, belly, hip, but, ratio 6. people regularly call you “fat,” as if you never knew 7. “you can have the front seat” when traveling with friends & family 8. you can never find a towel that goes all the way around you  9. people are surprised when you order a salad instead of a burger  10. “oh honey, you’re not fat, you’re beautiful” 11. painting your toe nails 12. doing up shoes with the buckle on the sides 13. people who think fat girls don’t have sex 14. cute bra’s and panties in your size are impossible to find  15. public transport at rush hour 16. fat girl clothes prices  17. judged if you eat too much, judged if you eat too little 18. the crotch/in between the thighs if your trousers rip too often 19. “sore throat?” .. “Yeah…” …. “It’s because of your weight"  20.  squeezing past people and still rubbing your body against them 21. body hair in places you never knew existed 22. “you’re so soft can i use you as a pillow?” 23. the stare of death you receive from other fat girls in public 24. “you’re so pretty for a fat girl” 25. no matter who you’re with in public you both get dirty looks 26. shopping with thin friends and only trying on shoes and jewellry 27. “would you like that meal as a large?” 28. stairs 29. the fact that it’s socially acceptable to make fun of fat people 30. booths in restaurants 31. your family automatically plate up XL portions of food for you 32. “have you put on weight?” at every family gathering 33. you can never find pretty bangles or rings that fit you 34. “you should go to the gym with me” 35. “you’d be so much prettier if you lost 100lbs” 36. irregular periods 37. we’re treated worse than murderers/rapists/pedophiles by society 38. people are shocked when they see you eat fruit 39. “fat girls have to try more with their personalities” 40. we’re made to feel like shit by society, and it’s fucking wrong. We are fucking beautiful. We have as much right to love ourselves and feel great, just like every other human being. Rock on fat girls.  Fat girls, I love you. 

[slim-within-blog]

I don’t mind no. 7 tbh lol