INACTIVE

i see people occasionally liking my posts /lh play cats are liquid 👍

[fromthedeepblue]

This may not make a whole lotta sense, but eh. I thought I should say something before I really do go entirey inactive here.

I kinda stepped away from this blog mainly because it was draining. Not even because of syscourse, but just because of how popular a few of my posts got, which made me feel like I needed that attention again.

(Addition: i also got extremely aggressive whenever someone on my dni interacted, and I always felt like the people who followed me stopped interacting for that, which made me feel bad. Pretty sure thats how another acct of mine died)

The other reason I stepped away is just because.. I don't really know if I am 100% pro-endo, and I feel awful to all the people that follow me for not knowing. I'm not saying I'm becoming anti-endo. I'd never do that, I was an anti-endo a long time ago and that was extremely draining mentally.

Also if I'm being honest.. willogenics rub me the wrong way.. not the people themself, just the idea that you can will alters into existance just because. Its always felt a bit strange to me. And i know people tend to get very hostile about it, but while I'm not a big fan of it, if you can do it and it works for you, thats cool. So I guess I'm neutral on it? And thats why I'm so confused on if I should say I'm endo neutral, but even that feels.. mean?

I really hope I'm not boiled alive for this. I do not mean anyone any harm. I honestly do not care what your origin is or anything. And while this blog has been pretty much abandoned, if I do decide to come back or make a new one, I will still be safe for all origins to int.

I reallyreally hope this all made sense. Anyway uh.. play Cats are Liquid, its a good game series and I recommend it 👍

[fromthedeepblue]

Here is r/systemscringe admitting that if you have a disorder and aren't miserable 24/7, you're faking. That your entire life must be unhappy. You can never laugh, smile, have fun. Every second of your life must be awful, and if you show any bit of joy, you're faking.

I can't imagine being this miserable with my life that I have to claim that disordered people can never be happy.

[fromthedeepblue]

Hi, what the fuck.

[fromthedeepblue]

just a friendly reminder, encouraging someone to commit is not a joke, and claiming it's satire is not a defense. this goes for both sides.

[fromthedeepblue]

Here is r/systemscringe admitting that if you have a disorder and aren't miserable 24/7, you're faking. That your entire life must be unhappy. You can never laugh, smile, have fun. Every second of your life must be awful, and if you show any bit of joy, you're faking.

I can't imagine being this miserable with my life that I have to claim that disordered people can never be happy.

[x147]

i'm in shock that there's still system discourse happening while the us government is demolishing mental health programs and cutting medicaid and section 504. like they are LITERALLY taking away our rights and we're still wasting our time on this???

you are wasting your energy. you are not going to change any minds. i have watched this community fight about this for a fucking decade. if you are under 18, i forgive you, this might even be a new topic for you. but seriously, there are better ways to spend your time.

get a hobby. i like to crochet, because i get a physical item at the end of my effort. when you discourse online you get nothing except stress and strife. do some arts and crafts. if you like to draw, go practice anatomy or do some studies from life. life drawing is one of the best ways to improve basic art skills like proportion, composition, and value.

put your energy towards meaningful activism instead. join a real life community. get involved in a book club, or a community garden, or see what's up at your local library. with summer starting, many libraries will have more activities, especially for those of you who are minors.

stay safe online. don't give out your personal information. i think you really shouldn't be sharing every label you identify with / every member of your system / etc with the whole internet, especially if you have trauma or are a minor. people online can and will try to hurt you, and it's up to you to keep yourself safe. do not keep a list of your triggers public and easily accessible.

[fromthedeepblue]

You know how some communities use emojis as codes to show their stances and all that? Well, I was just thinking. Endos dont have codes for that, do they? (If they do, my bad.) Well I made some. This is all I have so far, but maybe I'll add more later. And if anyone has some ideas, lmk. 🐏🪢 (AntiEndo) 🐑🪡 (ProEndo) 🐐🧵 (NeuEndo)

[angelic-oath]

ideas for more emoji combos: endo apathetic, endo curious (you're curious to know more because you don't know enough about them to form an opinion), endo complex, and maybe add a combo to just show that you're an endogenic system (maybe with umbrella stuff like tulpa/willo/median/etc)? /nf also i rly love this idea!

[thekovenofkrakens]

not the og poster but-

🐐⚖️ - Neu Endo Apathetic

🐑🔍 - Endo curious leaning pro

🐏🔍 - Endo curious leaning anti

🐐🔍 - Neu Endo curious

🐑🧶 - Endo complex leaning pro

🐏🧶 - Endo complex leaning anti

🐐🧶 - Neu Endo complex

[fromthedeepblue]

You know how some communities use emojis as codes to show their stances and all that? Well, I was just thinking. Endos dont have codes for that, do they? (If they do, my bad.) Well I made some. This is all I have so far, but maybe I'll add more later. And if anyone has some ideas, lmk. 🐏🪢 (AntiEndo) 🐑🪡 (ProEndo) 🐐🧵 (NeuEndo)

[fromthedeepblue]

Hey, what exactly IS an endo? I’ve seen plenty of post about them but none that actually tell me what it is…

endo is just a system that didnt form from trauma. sorrt if this isnt a good answer, i myself am still learning about some stuff

[eclipsen-smiles]

Huh.

I’m like. Half that? I. Is there a term for that..?

Semi-endo??

[fromthedeepblue]

I think the term you're thinking of is mixed origins /nm

[eclipsen-smiles]

Wh. Wuh that mean.

Like.. in my case, I have a second guy and they’re. KINDA trauma based but that. That developed. AFTER they appeared…

[fromthedeepblue]

Afaik, mixed origins is having multiple system origins. Like being both traumagenic and endogenic

I do know there is information on all this stuff on pluralpedia, so if theres anything you are curious about, you can probably find it there

I hope i was able to help you /gen

[pikoeatsglue32]

if there were a normal person competition I would win

[mowerenergexsoph]

Shout-out to the plurals who went through the "I am, like, genderfluid, but only between a few very specific genders" phase.

[fromthedeepblue]

wonder if the person who called me a radqueer and "gaslighting ableist cunt" because i screenshot one of their posts (with any identifiable information gone) is happy.

because now im anxious, wondering if any of this is worth it, and if i should just become anti endo so people dont hate me. im now even considering unmooting someone simply because me and the anti endo share the same moot, and i dont want to make anyone madder.

idk what to do. i talk a big game, but in reality, i turn into a crying mess at the slightest of cruel words. i try to be nice, but whats the point if people think im an awful person just because i support endos..

[fromthedeepblue]

well this is a nice thing to wake up to. was sent to me about 13 times i think. along with the lyrics to never gonna give you up

the only other person they were reblog harassing was editedantiendoposts. at least from what i saw

[fromthedeepblue]

I think its funny (sarcastically) how anti endos prove their hypocrisy while they try and "prove" endos are deplorable people. "I refuse to look at any 'sources' endos send, because I know it'll be bullshit." but you'll demand endos look at your sources? "Endos are constantly trying to shove their ways into safe spaces meant for trauma victims!!" where?? i follow both #anti endo and #pro endo, so how have i not seen that? "Endos love screaming about how oppressed they are and how we should all cater to them." again, where?? where are endos screaming that everyone needs to cater to them? "Endos are stealing our resources!!" you cant steal resources by using a free app that anyone can download "Endos keep saying we're privileged for being traumatized!" w h e r e ? i know i say this a lot, but anti endos just seem.. very miserable. theyre so miserable that the idea of someone being plural in a "different" way, or even beinv happy about being plural makes them angry. a 15yo claiming to be an endogenic system is not hurting you. fakeclaimers do that. the average person (especially someone who doesn't frequent tumblr) will not be able to tell the difference between someone who is traumagenic or endogenic. so theres no need to even fight. if you (anti endos) hate ableists so much, attacking a very small, very obscure community on the internet isn't going to do anything. im gonna stop before this gets extremely long. i tend to ramble a lot when im tired, and i havent slept since 5pm yesterday. sorry if this didnt make a whole lot of sense.

[radendocringe]

Reminder not to engage with radendos, post-endos or endoqueers! They'll never be valid, don't bother arguing with them!!!

[fromthedeepblue]

fun fact. youre not pro endo if you dont support willos or created systems, you're just a jerk :)

[radendocringe]

Nope, you're actually just on the road to become a pedophilic radqueer who preys on kids if you support radendos!!

[fromthedeepblue]

have you ever played cats are liquid or fast like a fox? theyre little mobile games that dont get enough attention, i think

i also like virtual families, but mostly the 2nd. they look weird in #1 and in #3, they're 3d and i don't like that.

I'm saying this because you need to get a hobby instead of making very false accusations like that.

[radendocringe]

I have hobbies! I crochet and play soccer in my free time! You're a radqueer, please go the fuck away!!!

[fromthedeepblue]

no im not. never have been radqueer, and never will be.

[fromthedeepblue]

does this count as hate asks?

also ironic thing is, i have been trying to get a job. but when youre nearly 21 with an 8th grade education, no license, and live 7 miles from town, you dont have many options.

alsoalso.. ive never claimed to be a system??? just that i suspect it..

[fromthedeepblue]

Saw the Skyrim related stuff on here and it activated the autism immediately. Cicero says hi.

- ⛓️🎭

oh hi!! skyrim has been a special interest of mine for a long time, especially the brotherhood, so its nice to meet others who enjoy it as well!!

tell cicero i said hi as well :)

[fromthedeepblue]

yes, anti-endos are allowed to talk about their experiences, be anti-endo, and have endos on their dni.

but you also have to realize that people you do not like will have very similar experiences to you. and when people find a post that they relate to, they will most likely reblog or like it.

but when the post is tagged with anti-endo tags, or telling endos they are disgusting and deserve awful things, they will probably do the next best thing. they take the post, and put it on their own blog, so they and other people who also resonated with the post, dont have to worry about upsetting someone who thinks they're delusional by reblogging it.

you cannot make something, and then get mad when a group of people you do not like also like it or feel the same way. and the this goes for everything. flags, terms, pngs, memes, everything. there have been dozens of xenogenders that i really like, but have been forced not to use because the post says that endos are not allowed use it. what do you expect me to do about that?

once its posted on the internet, its for everyone. and this includes people you dont like.

now.. would you rather endos break anti-endos dni by reblogging or liking posts that they relate to, or posting it on their own blog so other endos can interact with it freely and not break the anti-endos dni?