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Things I have to do before I’m allowed to self harm...

• Take a deep breath

• Make myself a cup of tea

• Take my meds

• Eat something nutritious

• Take a shower

• Put on clean clothes

• Do my makeup

• Practice yoga for 15 minutes

• Say a prayer

• Get a hug from someone who loves me

• Take some time to chill, (nap, music, netflix, tumblr, etc.)

The idea is that self harm is 100% against the rules just isn’t working for me. When I’m depressed and anxious enough that I literally want to hurt myself, I could care less about relapsing or the consequences of self harm. So I’ve devised a new system; self harm is allowed as long as I complete EVERY SINGLE THING on this self care list before I do it. The sneaky thing about it is that by the time I finish everything on the list I’ve usually pulled myself together enough that I no longer want to hurt myself. Not only that, but the desire to harm myself actually motivates me to practice self care. I usually wouldn’t do any of these things, but the urge to harm actually drives me to get through the list as fast as I can. Is it crazy? Sure. But does it work? For me, yeah. It does. Fighting insanity with insanity. Boom, son.

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