Bullshit

Bag of bones

[fruitcake27]

Anyone else fucking zooted rn

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The morning after I killed myself

I made myself breakfast

A piece of toast and an egg

I added salt and pepper and buttered the bread

The morning after I killed myself I walked to school

I saw everyone’s pitiful faces

I saw how pathetic everyone was

Seeing how they pretend to care after I die

Hearing them say I could have reached out

They say I’m selfish

That I don’t think about others

And all I ever did was inflict pain on others

I tried

I tried to love

But what’s the point when no one loves you back

The morning after I killed myself I fell in love

I didn’t fall in love with an ordinary person

Not your everyday jogger

Or a classmate from school

Or a person I worked with

But with my mother

My mother as she sat at the kitchen table

With her sunken eyes

Refusing to eat

Refusing to talk

Refusing to move

I fell in love with me father

The way he sat in my room

Looking through my pictures

Through my packed sketchbooks

I fell in love with the way a tear streaked his cheek

I fell in love with my brother

The way he closed his door

And would never come out

He didn’t permit anyone to come in

He sat on his bed

Staring into space

Not sure what to think of me

Was he disappointed?

Did he miss me already?

I fell in love with my best friend

The way she got the phone call late at night

The way sat on her bed

Defeated and broken

The way she didn’t even cry

How she didn’t know how to feel

She didn’t know what to do

The morning after I killed my self

I went down to the morgue

And tried to talk some sense into the girl who lay there

Her lifeless body refusing to respond

Why did you have to be so stupid? I shout to her face

How could you think that no one cares?

Why?

Why’d you do it?

The Morning After I Killed Myself

i can’t remember if i was inspired by someone else’s work to write this or not. if you know someone who has done this let me know and i’d be happy to give them credit but it’s been a couple of years since i originally wrote this

[distinguishedbaloney]

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i need this cassette

[disc80s]

https://instagram.com/p/BeiLhaNlR6T/

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i will move right now don’t test me

[bobdylansgayguitar]

When will I enter my girlfriend era

[machineryangel]

images that make me go straight up insane moodboard

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the things i would do for a gf or an enby s.o. 😞

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i can’t wait to decorate my house like this

[animatedtext]

[nothingbutmeme]

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hell yes

[ex0skeletal-undead]

Brillian commission by Chris Haas

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i want one

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~Life brings us as many joyful moments as it does downfalls, and although there are days we wish there was a manual to follow, it simply wouldn’t be the same without the spontaneity.~

- unknown

[nemralam]

"So much more was said in the unsaid."

_Bridgett Devoue

[fruitcake27]

jurist had a lovely convo with my very conservative and christian parents

so i go by they/them pronouns for starters and i’m not out to them and don’t know that i will ever be. anyways my moms a theatre teacher and a lot of her students come out to her because they trust her (she gives off an open minded energy). one of her students is struggling with gender identity and came out to their mom as non binary (they/them pronouns) and my lovely father says “they and them are plural pronouns so if that’s what you want to be called i’m gonna call you an it and if you’re born a man and decide you want to be a woman you are now an it to me i will not refer to you as a she”. i didn’t really put up much argument just because i don’t want them to suspect anything from me but i’m just so exhausted from hiding myself and not standing up for what i believe in. i’m not trying to argue but i feel like my parents are supposed to respect me and i just don’t feel like i’m getting that.

[queenmoriarty]

waking up on a chilly autumn morning

with the rain and leaves dancing on your bedroom window

the smell of freshly brewed coffee in the air

getting lost in daydreams about halloween

[fruitcake27]

finding a decent plant store in birmingham is so freaking hard

[cosettefauchelevente]

🥀🍂🍁 easy autumn recipes 🍁🍂🥀

beverages

butterbeer

caramel apple hocus latte

chai, cider and caramel fall drink

dates hot chocolate

deluxe hot chocolate with marshmallows

homemade hot chocolate

hot apple pie punch

lemon and ginger tea

moroccan style white hot chocolate

mulled apple juice

mulled tea

pumpkin juice

pumpkin nutella hot chocolate

pumpkin spice latte

desserts

apple and cinnamon loaf cake

apple crumble cake

apple hand pies

apple and honey challah

apple pancakes

apple turnovers

autumn cheesecake

butterbeer cupcakes

caramel apple bars

carrot cake balls

carrot and sultana cake with creamy orange frosting

chewy oat cookies

chocolate pistachio fudge

cinnamon roll pancakes

date and walnut cake

honey cake

maple sugar pie

mini apple and almond cakes

mushroom meringues

patterned pumpkin swiss roll

perfect apple pie

pryaniki

pumpkin spice cupcakes

pumpkin spice muffins with cream cheese filling

pumpkin spice scones

soft pumpkin cookies with cream cheese frosting

toffee apple muffins

vanilla and nutmeg baked rice pudding

dinners

aubergine and mozzarella bake

beef cheek and butternut squash broth in sourdough bread bowls

butternut squash curry with cauliflower rice

chicken, leek, and mushroom pies

coddle with pearl barley

irish stew

kiki's delivery service fish pie

lamb casserole with aubergine

leg of lamb m'hammar

mushroom omelette

one pot creamy mushroom pasta

pumpkin risotto

sausage and bean casserole

sicilian pasta with tomatoes, garlic, and almonds

spicy root and lentil casserole

stuffed eggplants

vegetable pizza

veggie pot pie

dips, preserves and sauces

apple and blackberry jam

apple sauce

aubergine hummus

bessara

blueberry butter

country apple sauce

date jam

jumbo chilli sauce

plum jam

soups

borlotti bean, tomato, and spinach soup

chicken and barley stew

chicken and brown rice soup

chicken soup

chicken wild rice soup

curried carrot soup

garlic broth

good vegetable soup

harira

hearty irish veg soup

hearty white bean soup

lentil, chickpea, and paprika soup

minestrone in minutes

pumpkin soup

potato leek soup

speedy seafood supper

stuffed pepper soup

sweet potato soup

starters, sides, etc

butternut squash, sage, and crème fraîche mash

champ

chinese dumplings with mushrooms and butternut squash

creole aubergines

colcannon

mhencha with spicy ground beef (you can get the kiri cheese from any middle-eastern run store).

moroccan potato salad

mushroom hand pies

naan bread

polish mushroom pasties

sweet potato wedges

tuna and beans

vegetable cigars

[fruitcake27]

i very much like fall

[keepingitneutral]

‘Dark Night’ Series, 

Sophia Ahamed Photography