Finding My Niche

Chase | 28 | Libra | Non-binary American in Scotland | Is this a diary? Is this my ADHD brain thoughts? Who even knows anymore 🤪

[zephyrdawn]

I crave anons and asks. I need new friends. Flock to me (please)

[zephyrdawn]

Life recently has felt very autistic with a healthy dose of crazy gender dysphoria. Also loving my recent new thoughts about not feeling "queer enough" to exist in queer spaces. Also feeling weirdly alone despite having friends? Idk feel like I'm isolating recently.

[zephyrdawn]

I forgot I had Tumblr for a hot second. Wassup party people

[zephyrdawn]

wait why cant u come to the event w them

Because they "deserve a night out alone with their friends" which like, fair on a high level, but seems to forget I asked before her friends were even involved, it's literally the first time I've ever asked to come on a thing with her friends so it's not like I regularly prevent her from it, and it is a kink event 😅

[zephyrdawn]

Question for the ether cause I feel like I'm going crazy. If I told my partner I really wanted to go to a thing and we had talked about going to the thing, then they said no, but turned around a few weeks later and said "I'm going with my friends but you're not allowed to come" would you be considered controlling for getting upset at that?

[zephyrdawn]

that’s crazy im sorry man idk why tha t sht happened

It's alright x

To be fair the inciting incident of the fight was my fault, but fights with her just escalate so much and as fast and no attempts at diffusion ever work and I always just end up cornered and scared and it's not fun

[zephyrdawn]

what happpened?

Drove an hour with her for date day. Massive argument erupted within seconds of us arriving. 2 hours later she storms out of my car saying she never wants to see me again. By that point I had been pushed into such a corner that I was having an almost non-verbal panic attack and crying begging for the fight to stop.

[zephyrdawn]

Worst valentine's day in years

[zephyrdawn]

ADHD meds update. I now have no emotions. Or drive. But at least I'm focused?

[viktor-the-leshen]

[kira-serialfaggot]

[7kqe3j9fzdwm-deactivated2025110]

he would not say that.

[alexiaroselikethewine]

I was there when he said it actually

[7kqe3j9fzdwm-deactivated2025110]

"oh yeah even if your opponent has an unexpected advantage that completely turns the tides of battle (you thought they were unarmed when they aren't) you shook totally just keep going with your current plan, otherwise you're a coward"

he would not say that.

[alexiaroselikethewine]

you're just afraid of a big thick girlcock

[gnilliam]

[abalidoth]

Whether Sun Tzu would be into girldick is completely orthogonal to whether he would give bullshit bravado advice that will get you killed. He's the "logistics win wars" guy.

His ladycock advice would be more like "The wise general chooses an adversary who uses familiar techniques."

[fallenangelvictorious]

there is a lot we will forgive for girlcock on this site but misconstruing Sun Tzu is NOT on that list

[anarchistmemedistro]

[clowndensation]

he has 2 electrons... who? the boy reading this...

[shocked--kwarrtz]

[zephyrdawn]

In the most non-emo way possible, can I PLEASE STOP MAKING MYSELF BLEED IM LEAVING SO MANY SCARS FFS

[zephyrdawn]

Oh ADHD meds are ... weird

I feel like Im wearing a weighted blanket, and I can suddenly hear really well?

Not really focusing any better but baby steps I guess 😂

[battleguitar]

insp

[zephyrdawn]

My therapist thinks I desperately need to leave Glasgow, and honestly really wrestling and coming to terms with how toxic moving and living here has been for me. Know it's defenitely not the time to be going to the US, but also feart I'll try to kill myself again if I stay in Glasgow

[suites]

halmarut+buceelyx doodle

[styxxsyringe]

trollgurls