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[fubukiiisss]

hi, this is just a personal diary of mine, kind of, just silly rambles nothing too serious. that’s about it 🧍🏻‍♀️

the reason i left loa was, it was/ is tiring, mentally. persist? in what? sats? void? 3D/4D?. what i hated the most was persisting, that word alone makes sigh 🧍🏻‍♀️. at some point i wanted peace, i came across vesora’s post i guess, and i was interested.

but the best thing to happen after finding out ND/ AV/ awareness, whatever you want to call it is, is peace? even that is an understatement, i mean i can experience whatever i want but knowing it’s all you? it’s all “ ” its a silly illusion is so freeing. at first it did make me feel like my whole life ended when i read koda’s asks and posts😭. then i dug a little deeper found bry’s (@iamthat-iam <3 ) blog, it was godsend. i actually got an understanding after reading her posts and asks, then i actually understood what infinite.ko’s, illuminated mystic, iam-you’s posts 👍.

ask yourself, right now “what’s my next thought?” what happened? let’s stop the algorithm of thoughts for a second. that brief silence, what is that?

best piece of advice is, just read, ponder, experience.

a big thank you, and a whole lot of appreciation and love for my favorite blogs that helped me so much:

@infiniteko

@iamthat-iam

@i-amyou

@vesora

@onlyhere-onlynow

@eternallyilluminated

[iamthat-iam]

I want to point out a contradiction with some anons I've seen on other blogs.

"How can you say we're limitless but then agree that even if it's only in imagination it's a legitimate experience?"

I don't understand this logic because wouldn't the definition of 'limiting' be to claim that an experience can only be "real" if experienced in the "physical world with senses," a concept that doesn't even exist fr?

Wouldn't it be limiting to say "I was aware of XYZ but I don't see it? It didn't 'happen?'"

Wouldn't it be limiting to say "This person claims they had an experience, but I don't see it so they must be lying?"

Wouldn't it be limiting to say "I feel delusional because I am indeed a single person with solid, permanent circumstances that I need TECHNIQUES TO CHANGE??"

When we're telling you that you are intentionally putting limits on yourself, this is what we mean. If you truly understood that you are limitless and omnipotent, you wouldn't be using those arguments.

[fubukiiisss]

How will I get to know that I'm " "

Like yeah NOTICE IT but like a lil yk direction?

🥹🫡

there’s nothing to know. stop searching. before you proceeded to send this ask, you became aware of it. what is always there? what is always impermanent despite the so called changes like day/night, old/new, today/yesterday? what’s the difference between last night’s dream and now? what is always there?.. what’s the common denominator for all? what’s everything but it’s all no-thing? what’s the silence when you ask “what’s my next thought?” ?

go deeper. go within.

[fubukiiisss]

How did you got to know that you are " " ?

just like how you asked this ask, kidding. no fr it was just some pointers from koda, some posts from bry’s to understand and voila 😭

btw you’re always that, you just realize it. it’s like how you’re always breathing, but just stop for a second be like “oh i’m breathing” and go on. that’s all. rn you’re “ ” but you’re still thinking you’re not.

[beautiful-basque-country]

Bye boops

[onlyhere-onlynow]

I have a doubt: people say this “life” is like a “lucid dream” so we can do whatever we want but at the same time say that and is not loa and that “we can’t manifest” like we can’t “change things” like a lucid dream??

“Manifesting” implies a process.

LOA is a method to get desires.

There’s nothing to change, it is all " ".

Blogs can say a lot of things, only you can notice by yourself what is.

[onlyhere-onlynow]

I'm sorry for the question, but how do I just stop wishing for good, stop wanting to change the apparent circumstance for a better one? I try, but things have gotten worse and I can't stand the house I live in anymore, I just want to escape and live better. (I used the translator)

[fubukiiisss]

someone posted abt loa x nd mixed together, the stroke i got 😃.

[fubukiiisss]

one of the epiphanies i’ve had is that when i catch myself saying “i intellectually understand but…” that right there is misidentification, trying to understand ……… is just crazy. because when you watch yourself you’ll find yourself saying “i try…” “i be aware but then….” you find yourself trying to understand “ ” through this seeming human. whenever you feel like you’re complicating it, step back. back it up, fall into the silence. everything is effortless like the way you’re aware of reading this right now, the way i’m writing it, do you even think much? no you just do, effortlessly. just be, don’t try. don’t ever go tell someone you’re “trying” to understand. for me, i watch my thoughts like i watch tiktok, scroll, scroll, but the “hmm where?…” “why ?…” “can’t see….” i don’t overreact nor panic, it’s just part of the algorithm, i simply watch or scroll away.

don’t just read, it’ll never help, ponder, take away what you resonate, leave the rest.

it’s just cute a little dream, with seeming circumstances, seeming beautiful things, just look at how beautiful you orchestrated everything. it’s okay, it’s always is, just be, dive into the silence, it’ll hold you.

[kyxworld]

You're alright

there’s nothing much to say here, at least on “ ” side. i completely empathize with everyone who wants to “change” whatever circumstance they’re going through, to everyone who’s “suffering”, to the ones who just want things to be easier, to people who had enough about everything, i’m here to tell you it’s okay. just take a deep breath, and let go. yes, let’s leave all this ND/AV/ desires whatever, all that aside for a moment?

just for a minute, calm down, slow down. there’s no rushing, there’s no time, there’s no future no past. there’s only the eternal now. so for the sake of yourself and your peace, drop all desires, drop all wanting, trying, “to be aware”, getting, changing, just leave it be. when you take a step back, and assess the situation; in complete silence, there’s nothing to do. you’ll see how at end everything is just “ ” or the so called silence when you go within. so no one can hurt you, you’re safe, you’re alright. how can you be scared? when you’re all there is? yes, we are different illusions to each other, but at the core, we are one, we are just “ ”, experiencing itself.

what i’m trying to tell is, you’re okay. everything is.

i wish each and everyone of you, the most beautiful dream ever.

[vesora]

A Dream Within a Dream

BY EDGAR ALLAN POE

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow —

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone? 

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand —

How few! yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep — while I weep!

O God! Can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream?

[kyxworld]

i remember some anon told me i wrote sigh, or my wrist hurts and they went off. but seriously that’s how i talk, that’s how most ppl on tumblr speak ngl 😭💀. i mean this side, plus loa and such everyone talks pretty much normally. yet other “normal” side of fandoms and such. every writer you’d see screams in the tags. very expressive ppl generally. even ppl tell me that the way i talk is quite animated 💀. i’m sorry for being too expressive, anon.

[fubukiiisss]

ppl usually think, after getting to know all this, you have some sort of disassociation, feel lonely, don’t feel much emotions, it feels bland or something. but really, is it like that? i get over the moon when someone compliments my work, tbh i feel more appreciate of everything around me.

[iamthat-iam]

EMPTY APPEARANCES 🙈

There's no PAST that has led up to the current moment. There is no sequence of events that caused anything that appears.

Whatever is appearing is NOT an indication of the absence of something else. That is a baseless thought.

Can there really be an absence of something if everything is you, and everything is now?

The thought- "I am a person with a past, and these present appearances are proof of that and my circumstances," is tricking you into thinking something is wrong or that something is missing.

Instead of listening to baseless thoughts, start listening to the silence that you are. The silence where no problems exist. Problems including "I am a person that doesn't understand these concepts, I am a person who is stuck living a life I don't want to live"

[nothingandeverythingsworld-deac]

FROM YOU TO YOU

Everything I have ever learned, I have dropped

Everything I thought i knew , I have dropped

Everything I thought I was , I have dropped

I have removed every label I have given myself and saw what remains.

This is not a journey or a path I have taken, the thing is there was never an “I” to begin with , so all those words I have written on the top is just nothing.

Don’t be obsessed with progress because there is none, there is nothing to understand, there is nothing to learn, there is nothing to overcome.

The thing is you never went through anything, because the YOU I’m talking about is Never changing, ever lasting, indescribable, unaffected, beyond all concepts and unexplainable. IT CANNOT BE PUT INTO WORDS.

It is always there, just listen to it.

Go within.

The more I went within the more I found nothing- @cassandra-xx

It’s stupid to explain the unexplainable

So experience it yourself.

[onlyhere-onlynow]

Give it all up (nothing).

I mean, if you’re all there is, if you think there’s something stopping you or holding you back, it must be you, right? Because you know that, doesn’t matter what it seems to be, it still is " "; YOU.

But you know what’s funny? You’re just aware of trying, of suffering, of this seeming “holding back”. What does this mean? That none of that is actually happening, see how you remain unaffected? You must be fed up with all of that, so… Why do you still decide that? Why do you still decide to think you have limits? To settle to this seeming life? To desire? To have to wait? To think you’re bounded to suffering and get more and more tired…? You’re the one deciding.

If everything is equal, does it take some effort to seemingly suffer? No, right? Then why you refuse to see things as they are? Oh, but there is NO-thing to see. What do you have to do, then? NOTHING.

" ". YOU ARE LIMITLESS AND OMNIPOTENT BY NATURE.

It’s all about noticing it, not embodying, becoming… NO, you already are. You’re the only one that can notice, so what’s stopping you? :)

[kyxworld]

and obv yes why would i use senses as a means of validation? it doesn’t have power over me. i do not be a slave to something as illusory/unreal as that, to validate my experience. do you need senses to tell you exist? if so explain how your dreams feel real to you?

i think i get what you’re saying but maybe i don’t? you talk as if you don’t even experience the illusion of things seeming to be, just an eternal nothingness with no space/time/world/things.

nope, you’re focused on having, wanting and i don’t 🧍🏻‍♀️. plus i don’t really “want” “need” anything. if i’m limitless, do i need to do/ have/want anything?