BE GOOD FOR YOURSELF

N/x/S/x/F/x/W. Vent and aesthetic blog. DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE UNDER 18. Mentally ill with no chill. BPD and PTSD.

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God... Music like sex while high

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I loveeee ****** myself and putting myself into subspace 👍 it's fun to play pretend

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Solo kink is kinda funnn

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Thought too hard about domming my best friend via puppyplay. Wuh oh. Who's a good dog and all that jazz. Woof wuf. Poor little dog just wants to hump legs? Okay. Here you go, you poor poor boy.

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Had a dream about fucking Hasan in the ass in the middle of a streamer party. It was amazing

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Had multiple dreams about Hasan going on the run from the govt and becoming this folksy outdoors cult-like Messianic figure. I doubt that'd happen but going on the run from the govt felt so real. The cult-ish stuff might just be the parasocial aspect bc half the people with him wanted to screw him.

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I miss being desirable (within myself) and being desired (actively, with the right glaze to stroke my ego). Maaaan...

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Playing into what you know the expected response is when you just want to say "no thanks I like existing as my own person instead of a cancerous tumor inextricably growing within you" is so fucking frustrating hahahahahahaha

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this was the first time in years that I've felt attractive n I wanted to get fucking railed to within an inch of my life so badly hflhdhkdhg I miss sucking n fucking theo so bad but it's like honestly I'll take anyone atp I just need it feral n sweaty n desperate fuuuuck

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Yeah man, like. In the bathroom? Behind a counter? Over every available surface? In the windows so someone might see? In the middle of the night, full moon so that it's all monotone? Leather, bondage, quiet and loud? Coming so hard I regress? Cock in my mouth, holes? Hands good for wanking? Please. Jesus, fuck. Please.

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I am in desperate need of cock in my mouth

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ngl lie there is sooooooo much kink shit I would never be caught doing unless RMH asked for it. Exception to every rule and I am completely unnormal about it.

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You know there's some kinks I just could never do. That being said I would absolutely let RMH piss on me in a sexual context... and that's the only time I'd ever engage in w/s

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Kinda wish I liked anal more. It would make banging a cis dude easier I think

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it is very weird becoming such a low maintenance person in a relationship. Sometimes I'm like "why don't you want me to, like, try more?" Like. I could be perfectly content to just sit and play video games together for 5 hours and do not much else. But I simultaneously wish I could like. Go and do interesting and novel things. That there's just a TINY bit more spontaneity. But it's so fucking obnoxious to have to sit there and go "what do YOU wanna do" back and forth for half an hour. Cause then we end up doing nothing. I think I miss my independence. I think I miss actual romance. But I love them, so like 🤷

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I need to get fucked by a RMH lookalike STAT

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I need to sit on grim's face gfdi. I am so down bad for that pos