UnicornBeast

They/Them/Fae - fuckingawesomeevil

[sggk]

U may be fooled by my constant melancholia and generally pathetic state of being but take heart in knowing that i am trying unfathomably hard to live

[arthur-lesters-right-arm]

Someone: How are you doing?

The fractured piece of an eldritch deity that I keep in my head at all times: lie.

[freelance-philosopher]

Anaïs Nin, Henry and June: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin (1931-1932)

[bookishjules]

im obsessed with the anarchy of these boops. like i dont know you but im booping you. none of the urls in my boops notifs are familiar. but we're all on the same page here. and that page is boop!

[oh-munda-kukkad-kamaal-da]

Reblog if its ok to spam you with boops

[ispyspookymansion]

[stlamb]

nooo not the weight of it all lol

[cosmogenous]

*leaves 'for a smoke' and comes back speckled with blood*

[zegalba]

[emotionalwords]

everytime i addressed something that bothered me, i became the problem

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[incvmplete-deactivated20241129]

unfortunately i am displaying behaviours and acting in ways

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[pathologising]

thinking about becoming a missing person

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[kosmogrl]

I love doing nothing, what I don't love is the inevitable overthinking that comes with doing nothing

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.