I say a lot of things that dont make sense

she/him

[delusionalanddown-deactivated20]

I honestly shoulda just killed myself the day I first thought about it. Would have saved me a lot of trouble and mental breakdowns

[mo0nygirl]

ed tumblr is literally my double life. like my friends and family have no idea that i come on here to look for motivation to literally starve myself. i feel like hannah montana but with an eating disorder.

[skeletonpunkboy]

this is actually so real omg

[ang3ltearsxo]

been telling myself "just gotta get through the day" every day since i was 8

[fuckthisandthatsposts]

vent//cw csa

i hate how mean it is. and i hate that sometimes that’s all i can think about it. how mean and awful it all is. i hate how old he was. i hate how young i was. i see so many kids at work and i always forget how small i was. what a baby i was. how could you do that. why would you do that. i trusted you. i trusted your wife. i was just a kid dealing with family problems, and was comforted by yours. i thought i was safe. and you waited. you waited. you knew and welcomed this child in your home for years knowing and waiting. that’s so fucking mean. how could you do that. how.

[fuckthisandthatsposts]

repressed memories are so fucking hard to deal with. i mean obviously but fuck. sometimes everything hits me, just one horrible thing after another. like when i remember one bad thing my brain has to remember all the other bad stuff it can. like i have an apple orchard and all the apples fall off so i have to pick up rotting fruit after another, inspecting how disgusting it is, mourning what could’ve been a delicious treat is now dead and it has bugs. so i throw it in my basket and do the same thing. hating myself and apples and trees the more i have to do this. the more i have to look and mourn and regret and be disgusted.

[chaos-kittens]

If I think about it, there’s so many little signs saying that it did indeed happen, but I still don’t know if I can accept it.

[fuckthisandthatsposts]

i spend a lot of my time watching cartoons to try and not think about how sad i am. some things don’t change.

[fuckthisandthatsposts]

it’s like i have this thing inside me that makes me make horrible decisions and hate myself. like i have a parasite that just makes my want to kill myself and ruin my life over and over. or maybe it’s just me idk

[bpdshithole]

[fuckthisandthatsposts]

if anyone knows how to cope with the fear that comes with living everyday in this hell i’d loooove some tips!!

[reallyndacarter]

It's June 1. It's time.

Go be gay.

[corvophobia]

humbled

[cassie-lmao]

lmao look at this stupid bitch hurting the people she loves and cares about then wanting to run into their arms for comfort because she feels bad for hurting them

[bennygesserit]

[angular-annular]

this episode could fix me

[apocalypse-journal]

"Forgive and forget"

I can forgive in a heartbeat. But forget? Na

[lild3m0nsworld]

“i really need someone to comfort me”, i say as i continue to isolate myself and push away all my friends