Horror Writer / Author Gothic
You make a character you love. You almost feel bad for having to kill them.
The plot consumes your time. The plot consumes your thoughts. The plot consumes your existence whole.
Your like the colour red. You make sure there’s always some seeping from your characters flesh.
The outline is clean- so very clean. So structured. But the manuscript drips. Bleeds. Veers. The rules do not apply. The genre does not obey. The horror is not on the page- the horror is in the gaps.
No matter where you are, you always feel as if you’re being watched. Perhaps it is the characters you’ve killed. Perhaps it is the monsters you’ve made. Perhaps it is both. You are not so sure they are separate anymore.
There is blood on your hands. You have committed horrible atrocities. You will not be punished for them. They were not real. The guilt is.
Each monster you create always has a piece of you in it. Your anger. Your jealousy. Your pain.
You create a character based off of someone you hate. You spend hours thinking of how to kill them off. You find that justice enough.
Your heart aches knowing you will be buried with hundreds of ideas you will never bring to life.





















