as a kid i would do this thing that i would now call “stretching my eyes”. essentially just looking as hard as i can in any and all directions. it felt good, it gave a nice sensation akin to rubbing them. the only problem was that it freaked my parents out.
i would do it practically anywhere but i didn’t think it happened so much as to be concerning but the way my parents would react to me doing it would have you believe it was a constant behavior.
i’ve since filmed myself doing it and yes it does look a bit concerning but i wish i had to words back then to describe why i was doing it because all i could offer as a child was “i don’t know”
i realize now it was a stimming behavior albeit a strange one. stretching them really was the whole goal, to feel the slight strain as i looked as hard as possible into all corners of my eyes
i remember my dad telling me not to do it if i could help it because it could mean i have a brain tumor and he didn’t want to have to take me to the hospital. i just think it’s so strange the way neurotypical parents will view their autistic children’s behaviors as deliberately distressing as possible and will jump to the wildest conclusions beyond “it feels nice to do”
(sorry if the eye stuff freaks you out)
This is confusing to me, especially as anyone who works with computers knows that eye stretches are safe and important. And feel awesome lol.
And abnormal eye movement can be a sign of brain tumour...but not just you stretching your muscles. This is probably just him not liking that you were doing them and had a fear because you were a kid. I had a few times as a kid where I'd do things but be unable to explain why and it freaked my parents out.












