I've met someone and he makes me smile I want this feeling to last longer than awhile
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I've met someone and he makes me smile I want this feeling to last longer than awhile
The push and pull of the world has me tripping and stumbling through life hoping that someone will show up and catch me before I fall
My days blend into one
I haven't felt like I won
I lay awake hurting instead
The echos of confusion pound in my head
I'm standing in a field of land mines
Uncertainties cloud my mind
One misstep could be my end
I'm feeling condemned
Lifeless
Joyless
Soulless
I'm visible on the outside but
On the inside I'm fading away
A true life of disarray
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My mind is killing me slowly
The thoughts that manifest drain me daily
I try to keep things together
Positive thoughts
Happy moments
Beautiful sunsets
The things that once made me calm are now eating me alive
My health declines
My eyes overflow with tears
My screams are silent
My Heart aches
My stomach twists and knots that never want to fix themselves
I'm tired
And don't know how to ask for help
The people that love me I keep in the dark
I keep my thoughts in the dark
I stumble around looking for my spark
But
It's gone
My Heart beats and dies with you
My life started and ends with you
I can't think of a better person to love than you
You bring out the parts of me I want to keep hidden
I became who I am because of you
And there no other words to describe how I feel about you, other than
Thank you and
I love you
Forevermore
Today marks day 45 of his constant torture and abuse
Emotional
Mental
Spiritual
Physical
I had hidden from him for years and the one time I go out alone, is the day he sees me and takes me by force
He loved the slow process of tormenting me
It made his blood boil and filled him with ecstasy
Ecstasy that he never achieved with anyone else but me
Just as I threw the blanket off of me, there was a knock on my door.
"Come in," I said getting out of bed as Frankie opened the door.
"Good morning Little Boss," he said, carrying two steaming mugs of coffee.
"Good morning Frankie and thank you," I said taking the mug he offered me, "how did you know?"
"I was going to use it to lure you out of bed for training," he said smiling.
"That would've worked," I said, taking a sip.
"Liam won't be with us today. He has meetings all day. He might be able to join us for lunch though."
"I know, he told me," I said pointing to the note on the nightstand as I set my mug down.
"Good to know he's on top of things. Although, I think he's only like that when it involves you in some way. Klaus told me that he's been more concentrated and more determined about everything. So, thank you for that."
"You don't need to thank me," I said walking into the closet to change.
"You're right," he said following me inside, "You deserve so much more than that. How about skipping training today and we go have breakfast at that diner we stopped at last night?"
Chapter Twenty-Six
Blood Soaked Sunrise
I woke up the next morning with a note on the night stand
Little Love
I had an amazing time with you and the others last night. I look forward to spending many more nights like it in the future. I can't wait to dance with you again.
I just wanted to let you know that I will not be able to accompany you at your luncheon today. I have some meetings today that I cannot continue to ignore. I may pop in for a few minutes, take Lev and then head back for more meetings. I'll call or message you when I know for sure.
Be safe.
Stay beautiful.
You Vitruvian Man
I couldn't help wondering why he needed Lev.
I couldn't think of any reasons off the top of my head, but he probably had his own reasons.
I rolled over to grab my phone to check the time.
6 A.M.
As comfortable as I was, I needed to get up to start my day.
She Flew
She had loved him for years
Cared for him
Waited for him to love her back as much she loved him
Over time she grew distant
Cold
Careless
Unbothered by his heartless actions
But her heart was still unwavering
Until one day
She woke up with clarity
Which happened to be the same day he realized he loved her the most
Unknown to him though
She no longer loved him
He came home with a bouquet of her favorite flowers
Instead of being met by her smiling face
He was met with a suitcase by the door and
Her
No smile
No twinkle in her eye
Long gone but he never noticed
He knew what was coming when she stepped to the suitcase
He told her
"I need you more than ever
I love you more anything
Please don't leave"
Her dull eyes looked at him
Through him
She told him
"I loved you more than anything
Anyone
Everything
And everyone
But now
I don't
I can't stay with you any longer
I'm leaving
So don't come looking for me
Because you'll never be able to find me"
Then she was gone
The day he loved her the most
Was the day she didn't love him anymore
It hurt her to leave him with that heartbroken look on his face
But she couldn't wait any longer for him
He'd lost her love
She gained her wings and
Flew away to
Freedom
Under this bright light my scars weren’t very noticeable
They had each in their own time had begun to fade. Taking the reminder of a tortured youth with them. Sadly, the memories still were prominent and made their existent randomly known.
The scars caused by a deeper cut were never going to fade.
“Stop thinking about them”
I looked at Josh through the mirror as he walked to my side
“I can’t help it” I whispered “I’ve always hid them from the world. Lucian was the first person to ever see them. Then you guys the other night. I’ve never known acceptance or love like this before. I used to hate my body so much; but after really looking at myself right now, I now understand that I love me. Scars and all. I guess with the proper lighting you really can get out of the dark”
Memories
The good
The bad
The happiness
The sadness
The chaos
The calm
The laughs
The tears
The hugs
The shoves
The love
The hate
A mystery
A discovery
Finding the courage to live
Abandoning the feeling to die
Memories that defined me
Molded me into the person I am today
Destroyed the person I could have been
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"It has been eons since I've felt such an intense bond for someone. Especially to have them impact my everyday life. I'm not going to force myself or my feelings onto you. I want you to come to me when you're ready. Let it be known though, I will not leave your side. I will not be pushed away or overlooked. I will be by your side in everything, from paperwork to picking out furniture for your new house. I know a precious jewel when I see one and I'll be damned, again, if I pass up an opportunity to have you. I will be your best friend for the time being. We will not give up on each other ever"
Pain
Suffering
The current story of my life
You'll say our lives are the same but that would be a lie
Your life is all glitz and glam, galas and balls, crystal and champagne
My life is dark and gloomy, cemeteries and death, mud and broken glass
And, of course, the ultimate kicker, death
At this precise moment, death would be heaven and welcomed with open arms
Love as the ability to heal the wounds that life caused.
The bad.
The ugly.
The hurtful.
It can all be healed when you're loved properly by those who know how to love.
Free my soul from the shackles of the earth and cast it into the Depths of the sea
My life long plea
The need to be set free into the ocean
Needing to be rocked to sleep by the motion
Real peace and tranquility