𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒗𝒊𝒗𝒂𝒍

I needed one more touch. Another taste of divine rush. And I believe, I believe it's so Whose side am I on? And the fever began to spread. From my heart down to my legs. But the room is so quiet Whose side am I? was looking for a breath of life. A little touch of heavenly light, but all the choirs in my head sang, "No!". ⋙ a 1x1 mumu twilight saga blog.

[rpxmusings]

         “  you look just like your mother.  ”                                                                          i guess i do carry her tenderness well         “  you both have the same eyes.  ”                                                                          because we are both exhausted         “  and the hands.  ”                                                                          we share the same wilting fingers         “ but that rage.           your mother doesn’t wear that rage.  ”                                                                          you’re right.                                                                          this rage is the one thing                                                                          i get from my father.

[rpxmusings]

        ANGER   WAS   :                                      BETTER   THAN   TEARS                                     BETTER   THAN   GRIEF                                     BETTER   THAN   GUILT

[rpxmusings]

                                                    if i cannot bend                                                     H E A V E N                                                     i will raise                                                     H   E   L   L

[rpxmusings]

               a WOLF is a WOLF.

                                               even in a CAGE.

                                                                         even dressed in SILK.

[rpxmusings]

         [        I THINK ITS TIME THAT YOU COME BACK HOME, SON        ]              fire’s still scorching, you’ve been scorned, and you look abused

[rpxmusings]

                                      daddy’s little princess with a sailor’s mouth

                                  … . 

              [ she’s just trying to get the biggest body count in town ]

[rpxmusings]

                                                                she sold her   s o u l   for diamond rings                                                                             now she can’t feel   a n y t h i n g            HEAVY, HEAVY LIES THE CROWN

[onceuponamusing]

                ALONE  and  LONELY                 are not the same thing.

                                  — but sometimes,                                   I get CONFUSED                                   about which I am.

[onceuponamusing]

             beneath  all  my  𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒔  and  laughter

         there  is  a  𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐄  you  cannot  comprehend

[onceuponamusing]

 ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀsᴋ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴜғғᴇʀ ɪɴ sɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ.

                    ᴡᴀʀs ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ sɪʟᴇɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʀᴇ ғᴏᴜɢʜᴛ.                        sᴛᴏʀᴍs ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ sɪʟᴇɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʀᴏᴀʀ.                    ɴɪɢʜᴛᴍᴀʀᴇs ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ sɪʟᴇɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ.

                       —sᴏ ᴡʜʏ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɪ ʙᴇ?

[nocapesdahling]

The Volturi Kings: Aro, Marcus, and Caius

The Volturi aren’t supposed to be the villains, the way they seem to you. They are the foundation of our peace and civilization.

The Volturi Queens

[fvrksaga]

ratedhorror​:

@fvrksaga​​   /   "      victor,      you’re   the   one   who   left   us   for   another   woman.   we   didn’t   make   that   choice,   you   did!   so   when   i   say   there’s   no   chance   of   our   family   ever   coming   back   together   after   what   you   did,   there’s   zero   chance.   “   the   older   woman’s   raised   voice   was   evident   of   the   anger   that   was   beginning   to   boil   over.   it   took   almost   a   year   for   her   and   their   daughter   to   rebuild   their   lives,   after   her   ex-husband   took   a   sledgehammer   to   their   entire   family   life   they’d   built.   but   it   seemed   just   as   things   were   going   on   the   right   track,   eliana   was   happy   with   her   new   job,   the   close   bond   her   and   angela   had   built   throughout   the   year   and   the   now   rekindling   flame   she   was   finding   with   her   high   school   sweetheart,   charlie.   of   course,   leave   it   to   her   ex-husband   to   try   to   stumble   back   in   their   lives,   when   his   mistress   had   finally   kicked   him   to   the   curb.   but   ellie   was   never   the   woman   to   forgive   and   forget,   especially   when   it   was   someone   who   betrayed   her.   and   what   made   her   blood   boil   even   more   was   he   could   never   seem   to   take   any   responsibility   for   what   he   did,   this   time   being   no   different.   a   scoff   escaping   her,   “   you   still   can’t   even   admit   that   you   were   wrong,   v.   until   you   do   that,   we   have   nothing   else   to   talk   about,   so   feel   free   to   hop   back   into   that   stupidly   ridiculous   tesla   you   drove   here   in   and   head   back   to   seattle,   because   we   don’t   need   you   here,   angela   nor   myself.   “   and   just   as   she   turned   to   walk   back   in   her   home,   she   felt   a   strong   hand   take   hold   of   arm   and   pull   her   back.   her   chest   now   against   his,   immediately   making   her   want   to   push   away   but   she   could   smell   a   tinge   of   alcohol   on   his   breath,   “   you’ve   been   drinking   victor,   let   me   go!   “   she   yelled   as   she   did   her   best   to   push   him   away.

“   now   you   listen   to   me   ellie,   i   haven’t   signed   those   divorce   papers   yet.   so   according   to   the   law,   you’re   still   my   wife   and   that   doesn’t   change   just   because   you   came   back   to   this   backwoods,   piece   of   trash   town   you   love   so   much.   “   the   man   tightened   his   grip   on   her,   doing   his   best   to   keep   her   still   even   in   his   buzzed   state   -   not   even   bothering   to   take   notice   of   the   fact   his   hand   was   sure   to   leave   a   mark   on   her   arm.   “   now,   i’m   coming   back   whether   you   like   it   or   not   because   this   is   still   my   home   too.   or   you   think   now   just   because   you   work   as   some   baby   nurse,   that   you   suddenly   have   everything   handled,   you   don’t.   don’t   go   tricking   yourself   with   the   idea   you   can   provide   for   yourself   and   angela,   like   i-   “   and   out   of   nowhere,   ellie   had   been   freed   of   her   ex’s   grip   and   immediately   she   ran   back   up   onto   the   porch   to   get   out   of   his   reach.   she   took   a   moment   to   examine   her   arm,   knowing   full   well   she’d   have   a   nice   bruise   to   wake   up   to   in   the   morning.   but   her   eyes   immediately   shifted   to   the   scene   in   front   of   her,   charlie   getting   into   it   with   her   ex-husband.   

‘I’d like to ask you for Bella’s hand in marriage, Chief Swan.’ 

Those words right there sent Charlie’s world crashing down. That one sentence, that one  𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧 kept running through his mind like a freight train. The Father could only remember the pain the Cullen boy brought to his youngest daughter. All those months just being a complete ghost after he abruptly left Forks. He wasn’t like Bella and simply  𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗚𝗜𝗩𝗘 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗚𝗘𝗧 the whole ordeal, he is of course a Papa Bear and just like the mothers they too can be a fury. It all was a blur after the two announced their marriage to one another -- one minute Charlie was forcing himself to smile at the lovebirds and the next? He was sitting in his cruiser down the road at the red light and that’s when the Chief of Police let it all out. Charlie found himself punching the steering wheel as a enraged scream escaped his throat, the sound of his wrath echoed off the walls of the vehicle and caused the man to flinch from the sudden pain in his ear drum.

Taking a deep breath and wiping the tears from his eyes, Charlie looks up to see a bystander had witnessed his mental break down. "Just smile and wave, Swan, smile and wave.” he ordered himself and did exactly that. He already knew that the woman who watched him probably would say he is insane now, but did he care? Hell no. It wasn’t his biggest problem. Stepping gently onto the gas pedal, Charlie drove down the road as he continued to be deep in thought. “I bet you’re rolling in that grave of yours ole’ man.” he curses at the sky to his late father. Charlie Senior and the Chief never could see eye to eye very long, but he did wish it on the younger Charlie to reap what he sowed and it came back in the form of his two daughters. A low grumbles escapes his lips followed by a curse, “Fuck you.” 

Not having a destination in his mind of where he was going Charlie soon enough figured out where he sent himself too -- Ellie’s house. A woman he once had feelings for prior to his failed marriage, the very same woman who stirred up those feelings he once lost back to the surface. With Renee not around nor wanting to deal with how she can be, Charlie looked to Ellie for help when both his daughters came to live with him and my God did she help the Chief out  𝘼 𝙇𝙊𝙏. Hopefully Ellie can help him clear his mind, remind him that Bella is with a good man despite what he has done in the past. No man is perfect, right? Parking his car and getting out of it, Charlie made his way up to the steps of the home -- careful not to fall on the slippery stairs. ‘I’ve gotta get that fixed.’ the thought crossed his mind and before he could knock on the door is when he heard a familiar voice. The rage he held for the Cullen boy quickly vanished into nothing compared to the anger he had for Victor. 

With no warning Charlie opened the door and barged into the house. It didn’t take him long to find out where he was, all he had to do was follow the scream match between the estranged couple. Grabbing Ellie by the shoulder and getting between the two, Charlie was standing eye to eye with Victor. “You need to leave now and if you don’t I will have your sorry ass arrested and thrown into gen pop over in Seattle.” His words dark to the man. The drunken husband laughed at the Chief and said he was bluffing before going into a fit of laughter. Placing his hands on his hips Charlie found himself laughing with the guy but that rage dwelling inside him? The  𝙉𝙀𝙀𝘿 to punch something took over in him as if someone flipped a switch and his hand found itself colliding against Victor’s cheek. 

[fvrksaga]

For the last week Serena's head had been completely screaming at her. She thought it could be the stress she had been under since arriving home, could that be it? The Quileute woman could feel something stirring in her bones -- in her 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 , but what was it? That question ran through her mind throughout the night as she attended a college party with Lily. The oldest Swan girl that she needed to let loose and for a while it worked. Serena was having fun among the woman's classmates but it all came to an end when she felt a sudden turn in her stomach and felt all the hairs stand up on the back of her neck -- and a chill, oh that chill sent a shiver up her spine. Completely scared by this feeling the woman stopped dancing in the sea of people and set out to find Lily. Of course she found the woman over by the drinks and clearly was completely intoxicated and eventually she gotten the woman back to her jeep. “Oh c -- come on Ser,” Lily hiccups, leaning onto Serena for support. “the ‘arty just getting started.” Rolling her eyes at the drunk Sheriff’s daughter, she buckles the woman inside the vehicle before driving away from the party. They had a small drive ahead of them since they were about fifteen miles outside of Forks, out towards Seattle. 

Seeing the sign ‘WELCOME TO FORKS’ brought comfort to the driver, a sense of warmth as she knew they were almost to the Swan residence. Her chocolate eyes looked at the scenery around them and that is when she felt a nasty turn in her stomach and could feel the fever from a week prior come back to her as sweat began to bead down her forehead. "I -- I don't feel so good, L." Serena spoke loudly over the roaring of the wind around them as she drove down the highway. She knew she had to keep it together to drive them home, Lily was in no state to drive and was leaned somewhat back in her seat. "I -- " A foul stench filled the air as the Quileute breathed in and at that very moment she became tempted to throw up the liquid she consumed earlier. She didn't have time to fully register the smell when the shiver came back up her spine with the hair on her neck standing up with goosebumps appearing on her skin. Becoming unfocused on the road as pain erupted throughout her body it felt like something was tearing her apart. The scream she let out awoken Lily from her deep sleep and before the Swan could offer aid is when the jeep became off road. The next thing happened so quick -- a wolf appeared where Serena once sat and Lily? She was covered in her own blood and was as silent as a corpse. 

The Quileute felt like she was reliving a dream she had since a child, one of her running through the woods of her home but this time? She wasn't on two feet, but all four paws. Everything around her felt different, appeared in a different light to her. Her thoughts were running a thousand miles a minute over at what was happening and worried about the girl she left lying in the jeep. Serena found herself on a cliff, the very same cliff she jumped off with Paul when first arriving back home. 'Paul...'. She wondered what he would think her of, what her family would think of her now that she was a beast -- the very beast of her family's legends. ‘I’m a monster.’ Serena sobbed in her head. Hearing a twig snap behind her, the wolf quickly turned to face where the sound came from and growled, the hair on her back standing straight up as she crouched to the ground. While the wolf appeared ready to attack in a split second, the mind within it was freaking out on exactly what to do. 

[mikeswheeler]

aesthetic: jim hopper punching people as a shortcut solution

[fvrksaga]

‘I ... I can’t believe it you thought you could 𝑩𝑹𝑰𝑩𝑬 me to leave!’ Those words kept ringing in the imprintee’s mind along with the rage behind those words as she lashed out at her fiancee. Oh there were so many things Emily said during the wrathful episode. 

‘You think just because I’m 𝑲𝑵𝑶𝑪𝑲𝑬𝑫 𝑼𝑷 doesn’t mean I cannot protect myself? Fucking sakes Sam, I’m a Quileute just like you -- just like how our unborn child will be!’ Before the pregnant woman could say anything more to her imprinter, he walked out the door and in a fit of rage Emily had thrown the pan she uses for her infamous cupcakes into the kitchen sing harshly. As she remembered those exact words sprung a few tears out of her chocolate eyes and called herself an idiot for say such harsh words to the wolf that had her heart. Glancing down at her swollen stomach Emily gently began to rub her stomach as a way to sooth the baby as he began to kick. “I know, I know Mommy did a stupid.” Her eyes drifted over to the suitcase Sam had pulled out for her and a part of her really wanted to shove clothes in there and hit the road, but the other part of her? Emily is a Quileute just as much as Sam and her cousins; and just like them she wanted to stand her ground. Unlike her cousins though she was that lucky to possess the gene to shift so instead the pregnant human got the next best thing: she is an imprintee. Feeling her unborn son’s movements come to a stand still from her comfort is when Emily forced herself up off the bed and shoves the empty suitcase into the closet before making her way to the baby’s nursery. A small smile came across her face to see the progress of the room but knew there was still a lot more work to be done before the baby came. Taking a seat onto the rocking chair Emily grabbed the clothes basket full of baby clothes she needed to go through and sort which ones needed cleaning based off what she would more than likely dress the baby in first to least likely. 

“Don’t tell your Dad but he might just be right,” Emily mumbles as her mind began to how much more dangerous being here has become. “too many red eyes.” Even though she was no member of the pack, the future Mrs. Uley knew that Sam was under a lot of stress especially since with more vampires means more Quileute’s will be shifting due to the heavy presence.  𝑩𝑨𝑳𝑨𝑵𝑪𝑬. Over the last week there had been a handful of newbies in the pack Emily began to joke and think about getting name tags to keep up with all of them. Wolves were in and out each day at her home, but what did she except? Sam is an Alpha -- a leader so of course there will be heavy foot traffic. At times she wished Jacob would step up to the plate and become an Alpha as well to lessen the burden on Samuel. Before Emily realized it she was done with the clothes in the basket and didn’t feel like getting up to grab some more to sort through. “I think I’ve done enough today,” she stretches in the chair and grew even more comfortable in it. “what time -- holy it’s almost eleven?” Emily’s eyes grew wide for a split second on how late it had gotten. Time really does go by fast when you’re hormones are on a war path. Not really feeling getting up, Emily continued to relax in the rocking chair and before she realized it she drifted off to sleep. 

Feeling a familiar pair of arms tuck under her body and lift her up, Emily felt a wave of warmth crash against her skin and instantly felt at home. A part of her really wanted to just lean into him more and siphon off his heat while the other part of her? It really wanted to be petty and say something about their dispute earlier. “I’m still mad at you Uley.” Emily grumbled lowly. 

[fvrksaga]

viiolentdelights‌:

demetri was reminded so much of his own transition centuries ago , the mess but also the satisfaction he got from his first kill so he knew very well how his future mate was feeling at this moment. as he studied her , he chuckled a bit , “ don’t feel ashamed my darling , a mess is bound to happen which i promise in due time you will learn the cleaner ways to feed off someone. but , you were owed this kill so nobody will fault you for making a mess. ” as he listened to aro’s words he nodded and grinned , “ master is right , we’ve a lot to discuss so come and follow me. perhaps i’ll take you to find another meal or two , i know one will not be enough to sustain you right now. ” and so he took her hand in his and walked them out of the chamber , not having the slightest care that blood was getting on his hands. usually he was quite the clean freak , loathing whenever someone would leave any sort of mess on him or his clothing but alessia was the exception.

as they walked down the hallway , he looked over at her and smiled, “ trust me alessia , it was an honor to turn you and i wouldn’t take the decision back for anything. ” because now not only was she an immortal , but she was going to be by demetri’s side for the rest of her lifetime. “ also , the room you were in earlier.. that was actually my bedroom, ours now of course but i figured i should come clean about that now. ” he chuckled and walked them to the all too familiar door from earlier in the day , “ i assume you would like to change before we go out in public and find you some more sustenance. ” but honestly , there was a lot of tempting ideas running through demetri’s mind that had very little to do with food and more to do with primal desires. especially after seeing alessia with her first kill? it was as if he had been watching a masterpiece , but he did his best to ignore those thoughts and planted a small kiss on her lips , “ go on and change angel , i’ll wait out here for you. ”

Her eyes took in the sight of their room before looking to her mate. The newborn tilts her head slightly as he mentioned going out and about. “Public?” Alessia repeats. “Won’t that kill me?” She hadn’t realized how much time has passed during her transition. The last time she looked outside the sun was high in the sky and burning bright. The way she spoke and moved since her rebirth was like watching a child curious being in a whole new world. Her eyes fall back onto the room and seen it in a completely different way with the newfound information Demetri had given her. This is to be our room, a thought ran across her mind. She never before has shared a room with anyone while growing up and Alessia found herself being nervous about this. Demetri, he is the first man and only man she will ever be with and honestly? The newborn was more than okay with that. In her short time spent with the tracker she felt as if she had known the vampire all her life. What happened next Alessia didn’t see coming and she found herself feeling a faint blush across her cheeks from Demetri’s kiss. She could feel the heat from it even if it was very faint. This was her first kiss and the vampire didn’t even give her a chance to return it. Chewing at her bottom lip the newborn nods once. “Thank you.” She watched as Demetri removed himself from their bedroom. Going out and sneaking a bite into someone sounded tempting to the newborn, but there was something else she’d rather do inside though Alessia couldn’t bring herself to admit it to him. Just like she was in her human life, the newborn was still ever so shy. Maybe Demetri could help Alessia come out of her shell? 

It didn’t take long for the newborn to change into something else and became amazed with herself when she ended up using her newfound speed. If she were alive Alessia knew it would take her breath away. The newborn came to a stand still as she gazed upon her reflection in the mirror. She stood there in amazement of her appearance: Alessia looked so different but yet so familiarly. It brought her at ease to see the scars of the torture she endured were no gone. Feeling a small boost of confidence emerged within the shy immortal at seeing this and the tiniest of smirk formed across her lips before leaving the room. “I hope I didn’t keep you waiting long.” Her crimson eyes on Demetri’s as she closed the door behind her. Alessia extended her hand out towards his with a gentle look. “Shall we?” She was excited and so ready to embrace the world as a vampire. 

Alessia followed her creator and soon found herself on the edge of the Volturi compound. There she stood in the door way with Demetri beside her, her newfound eyes darting all over the place before them. It was filled with humans and their scent -- my god, it made the newborn’s throat feel like sandpaper rubbing against one another. She took a step forward and almost all thoughts flew out the window until she remembered hearing Master Aro’s number one rule: our existence to the mundane world must remain a secret. Alessia didn’t want to disappoint no one in her new family and found herself gripping her mate’s hand even more tighter. Hearing him call her name brought her back to reality and saw what she had done. “Oh, I am so sorry.” Her voice soft. Alessia squeezed his hand a little too tight and right now she was stronger than him with her being a newborn. Without thinking she brought his pre-injured hand to her lips and placed a kiss on his knuckles as if her frozen lips would heal them. Her emotions were all over the place and were overwhelming to the newborn, but Alessia knew she would sort through it all with Demetri by her side. Breaking her gaze from his knuckles she looks up to him with a heated look in her eyes and with no warning the newborn placed her lips against his hungrily. After a few moments she pulled broke away but stayed close to his face -- so close she could feel his breathe against her lips. “Their scent is so intoxicating.” She was referring to the humans. So many different scents and yet, they all smelled so GOOD. 

[fvrksaga]

Truth’s Out || Lily & Jacob

[fvrksaga]

viiolentdelights‌:

at this point , he felt as if he were in a losing battle when it came to this conversation. lily was always more stubborn than bella and that’s why he knew it would take a MIRACLE to convince her that he was doing things for her own good. he opened his mouth to say something , anything , but she kept going and going which told him he needed to simply keep his mouth shut and let her get everything out. jacob could tell this was all anger she had been holding in since that night , but also , hurt as well. which , putting himself in her shoes he really did understand where she was coming from. despite how much all her words cut him deep , he was going to stand there and take all she had to give.

once it was evident he had the floor to speak , jacob frowned and sighed , “ look lily , i wish more than anything i could change all of this , i do. ” and he meant that , maybe at this point his imprint on her was a MISTAKE? at least , it sure felt like it at this point. “ and look , maybe bella and i weren’t in the right for keeping these things from you but , can you at least understand we did it with good intentions? bella loves you so much , you’re her little sister and it’s only natural for her to want to PROTECT you , especially when you knowing things like this puts your life in so much more risk than you could know. ”

but , he knew lily would work things out with bella in her own time. the tears were clear on jacob’s face and he slid his hands into his pockets , trying to fight the urge to go and wrap his arms around his imprint. “ maybe you’re right , the best thing i could do is stay out of that girl’s life and frankly if that’s what she wanted , i couldn’t tell her no. no matter how much it will break my heart to be away from her , like it has this whole goddamn week. ” he looked down at his feet and then back at lily with a pained look in his eyes , “ so , is that what you want lily? do you want me out of your life? because if that’s what you really want , then i’ll do that and i promise you won’t see me ever again. ”

He was breaking down the walls. Fucking hell. All it took was one look from Jacob and Lily could feel the walls she built up this last week trying its best to tear down. Chewing at her bottom lip the younger Swan listened to what he had to say and she shook her head. “I...that’s the thing Jacob,” she wipes away some of her tears. “I do understand on wanting to protect me, but sometimes telling that person on what is going on can be a part of it.” Running a hand through her dark hair a scoffs escapes the human. “No shit I know I am her little sister though you have to look at it from my point of view being exactly that -- I always been HER shield.” Lily knew it wasn’t her place in protecting her big sister though she couldn’t help it. It was obvious to the world that Lily was more of a fighter than Bella and she stuck to it. There were fights she was involved in to defend Bella like for example when she landed detention the first week at Forks High all because she punched Mike Newton in the jaw. She was defending Bella’s honor. 

She felt more pain ache in her entire body as Lily continued to dwell on the lying and just as she was about to say anything more, Jacob took over. His words and the way he spoke about this person he claims to LOVE made Lily wrap her around the fact when realizing it was her. Oh she can hear her younger self melting like butter just at hearing that, but now? Lily felt rage in her from all this and hearing him claim his love for her? It made her blood even boil more. Hearing Jacob say her name brought the human out of her thoughts and she meets his broken gaze. “I...” She was speechless for once. Feeling compelled the human rose from her chair and walks over to him. It took everything in her to not hug the shape shifter. “I don’t ever want that Black, NEVER.” The Swan brought a hand up to her face to wipe away some of the leftover tears. “You are my best friend and I can’t bring myself to think what life would be like without you in it so no I won’t tell you to stay out of it. I refuse to give you the satisfaction of only dealing with one Swan.” Lily knew of how troublesome being friends with both Bella and her can be. It was being friends with two different sides of the same coin -- especially with her stubbornness and Bella having two left feet. It was a challenge to anyone being friends with the Swan sisters.

‘Lily, you should’ve been known about this sooner but you can’t be made at Jacob forever it will crush you to the core.’ Sue’s words came back to the human’s mind. ‘You were going to know about this world anyways and not just because of who your sister is with.’ Those words left Lily puzzled when she had gotten off the phone with the Quileute woman earlier though she dropped it until now. “I am going to ask you ONE question Jake and if you lie so help me I don’t care if I break my hand I will punch you.” She threatens the man. “What did Sue mean when she said I was meant to be a part of the Quileute world?” Of course Lily thought the woman was trying to help in ease the tension but really it only made it worse. The fuel of her rage burned even more after that phone call.