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she/her. 22. hater and big flirt all in one. ur fav film gal

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you can’t live in fear.

[gothredy]

[nessa007]

so i just saw obsession

[milflaralorvan-deactivated20231]

when you see your little kitty walking toward you at a leisurely pace and say "hi baby!" bc you're excited to see her and she starts trotting a little bit faster 'cause she's excited to see you too. that's what life is all about i think

[brucespringsteencomments]

[zegalba]

Man Ray: Rayograph (1922)

[magneatio]

came across this image on pinterest and straight up almost burst into tears…. vibes for JUNE

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it's venting time

so if you've read my past vents, you know that i have been struggling f*nancially, talking about how i donate plasma to help and how much i want to quit my job. here i am updating you on what my next steps are.

so 1. I QUIT MY JOB FINALLY!!! and not a single part of me regrets it. i don't miss working there, just miss being around my coworker bestie (but we're still hanging out so no bad things there). i contemplated a lot on if i'm going to be unemployed for a while and i decided that even though it wasn't in the long term plan, i am still going to apply to places. there's nothing wrong with applying to jobs, it gives yourself a step in the right direction. so even if i'm not in need of a job, at least i know i'm putting myself out there to be chosen for one. and if i get a job then that's fantastic as well! i had an interview yesterday for a position that i would really love to have in theory, but when i was thrown into the details and physically shown what i'd be doing, i got overwhelmed and panicked. it was an oil change job and i would be doing all the manual labor it requires, even though i was told it'd be a managerial position. i fear i'm going to opt out of it because it was truly a lot to handle. but i have a walk in later today that i'm still considering going to. i had a call from B&N but they said that they will contact me in a week or two to set up an interview if anything. then another job reached out to me to chat, i told them that i am free whenever to chat and i still haven't heard back. next week, i am going to physically apply to places in person because again, it can't hurt to apply AND it gives me something to do with my time since i'm so... well... unemployed 🤷🏻‍♀️

2. donating plasma. as for the cruise i'm going on in August and my Georgia trip in July, i am officially saved up for both! i am so happy that i'm able to say that, especially when it felt like i would never get there. my plan was to always save my paycheck money from my awful job and put it towards those two trips and i would donate plasma for spending/tattoo money. only snag is: donating plasma takes a lot out of you (i have previously talked about how you have to change your diet, how it makes your body react, how much time it can take out of your day, etc.) and it's starting to wear me down. it's getting to the point where i am so afraid of having a reaction when i'm in the chair and i'm dreading going most days/going on the diet. i've done a lot of thinking on whether i should continue because first of all, i don't really need the money. like i said, yes i am putting it towards spending money for my trips and for getting tattoos, but i don't honestly need it. i am very lucky to still be living with my mom who can cover me f*nancially when i need, but making her feel like a crutch is something i won't do. i try my best to pay for my own things with my own money, but i know i am very lucky to have a parent who will back my purchases if i absolutely need her to. which goes back to me getting a job so i don't have to depend on her more than i do. i also unfortunately live in a college town so if i found a job before the students came back, i'd be set for sure!

i decided today that i'm not going to continue donating plasma as much as i know i should. i feel awful about not wanting to continue but i know it's more important for me that i don't. yes it's bringing in $120 a week but my body and heart aren't in it anymore. i currently have a little less than $1000 in my plasma account and am doing the responsible thing by not spending it on tattoos until i have all my necessities for the trips. is it possible that that leaves me little money for tattoos afterwards? yes, but i am prepared for that. i have my whole life to get tattoos and money always comes back. i am expecting another paycheck from my job next week and that will go to spending on necessities as well.

i guess i'm just trying to make myself feel better about everything. better about missing out on the money, better about being unemployed and better about the fact that my life is at this state right now. but i'm still young, i will fill my time with applying to more jobs as well as spending time with my friends and encouraging my hobbies more. i really want to go to the pool more which i have been doing, going walking/skateboarding in the park near me and trying to watch more movies/tv shows and read a couple books before the year ends. either way, i'm going to stay positive about everything.

[jess-woods-deactivated20160802]

at work today after a snowstorm ❅

[hobohobgoblim]

Four puppies cuddling. Pompey, 1 century CE.

Quick edit so I stop accidentally traumatising people this is a sculpture not a volcanic mummy

[amorosi-deactivated20220605]

You disrespect yourself when you beg someone for BARE MINIMUM things like love, attention, respect, affection, support, reciprocation, etc. Don’t do that shit again.

[poussentlesailes-deactivated202]

before we have sex can you reassure me i’m the most precious thing you’ve ever seen and repeat it a thousand times please

[mercymornsproxy]

For a little I felt like we missed Clark’s spiral and that’s why the change felt so sudden but in the same scene that Clark shows this “sudden” violent part of himself he says ‘I don’t want to change’.

Clark has always been like this. We saw his extreme anger at the start of the movie. His disregard for those around him with how he speaks to and about them. The implied breaking of the glass was that he threw it, not knocked it over.

I was expecting a spiral but he didn’t need one. He was already there.

[thingsarentgood]

Clark saying the creatures don't feel anything and then later in the same scene the woman anomaly is seen attempting to run away from the pirate, seemingly in fear. Something something devaluation of life seen as different than him.

[shelbbot]

i dont want to change

[timotaychalamet]

Splash (1984) dir. Ron Howard

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fav four first watches of may 26 🪻