Ive been having troubles at home and I'm deciding to rant about it, My mother has been treating me terribly when I made mistakes but I always ignored it, today she made me want to take her out of this realm, I never felt like this cu I love my mom and all but this time she made me genuinely question if I wanna live with her, all I wanted was help, she didn't tell me which pressure pan was right or wrong, she just told me to make food, I didn't wanna bother her but I guess I shouldve, I never felt so angry at someone who gave me life and I regret choosing her as my legal guardian, I want her gone, I want to run away but I can't, all my things are at home, I can't run, my father probably isn't even here anymore and went back with his new wife to their home country, my grandma can't have a hand in this or my mom will do worse, she already threatened to break my things even if they're for my future career SHE bought, she already makes it hard for me to see our religion as a good thing cuz she excuses her actions with it, she tainted how our religion is over her authority being questioned by the kid she overwhelmed with screaming and blame even though it was accident, I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be with her, I wanna go away far away but I can't and she'll manipulate me into coming back, she always does even when I was with my dad once she manipulated everyone in her family to pressure me coming back, I wanna cry, I want to scream, I want to hit her with a chair till she passes out, I find myself hoping her surgery goes wrong and I feel awful, I don't want to be a bad daughter but I already feel like I failed her, I don't know what to do...