Gabey @gabriel-gabey - Tumblr Blog

My TECH boyfriend is going to take one look at my laptop and hate me

My boyfriend just said I'm 'his boyfriend, I'm a boy, a pretty boy' and hoped i got good 'boy sleep and boy dreams' i love him so much

I feel my teeth. My head hurts

I'm about to end my mans whole career

Trans ftm tips I've learned (as someone not on T or surgery yet):

~Darkening your eyebrows can help a ton

~Mascara and pencil eyeliner are good to use to make a 5 o'clock shadow

~when wearing a packer, make sure it's secure. Nothing more embarrassing than feeling it slowly slip down your leg and not being able to fix it

~baggy clothes help, also layering

~Can't get a binder? No problem, two sports bras. One wore correctly and one wore backwards. It'll help until you can get one

~Homemade packers are good, especially if you can't have one. Can easily be taken apart

~Wearing a binder and packer can make you feel confident in the "girliest" clothes

~Above all else, you're still a man. Always have been, always will be

What if he decides I'm "too much" and breaks up with me?

I hate being autistic. I had a fucking out burst because i couldn't recognize i needed attention from my boyfriend and got frustrated

There's nothing you can say to scare me away. Though, if you didn't say anything and never had a conversation with me. It'll create doubts

Ignore all my support and human needs just so i can ignore that fact that I'm autistic and i can pretend to be normal like family wants. Yep

After being two months sober..

I'm planning to choke myself tonight..

I hate myself so fucking much, why can't i just be normal

Life is a FUCKING NIGHTMARE

Life sucks and all i want to do is cry

I just... Wanna talk. Fuck me

I just want to talk about things we like...

I know what it's like to be afraid of your own mind

Gabey