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Autumn. 19. Ganja Enthusiast. CIS Major. ganja-monstaaa.tumblr.com/ask

[traumaeyed-deactivated20210519]

bpd things

money? yeah, you’re gonna spend it all on useless things like excessive amounts of food and clothes in hope of making yourself feel better. then you’ll regret it five minutes later

 you hate yet love everyone and everything. hate. love. hate. love. it’s a never ending, exhausting cycle of intense emotions. there’s no in between

someone doesn’t respond to your message in ten minutes? it’s time to make dramatic assumptions. do they suddenly hate you? are they dead? 

you’re slightly inconvenienced? it’s time to commit suicide

all your relationships fail and you just can’t seem to figure out why

 you feel like everyone is the same. you see the same pattern over and over again in your relationships and your friends

you feel happy for once? well guess what, in about seven minutes you’ll feel like throwing yourself into traffic because Johnny didn’t want to share his pencil with you

nothing is worse than the overbearing feeling of emptiness that follows you daily and haunts you like a ghost

you’re constantly angry. just the idea of someone breathing in your vicinity is infuriating 

baths? did you mean: self-harm hours? 

everyone is against you including yourself

who is that in the mirror? is that me? Why do I look like that? I can’t recognize myself

 i’m sorry, what did you say? repeat yourself again. and again. sorry, i didn’t hear you. again. repeat yourself for the fifth time, i wasn’t paying attention i guess

you’re useless unless you’re perfect

therapy? no

 oh, is that a character I relate to? let me obsess over them for the next nine months

 you’re the most evil and horrible person you know, yet simultaneously the most pure and naïve person you know

you feel like the devil when you say no to someone

how about I split on my best friend for the eighth time today for absolutely no reason!

am I abusive? am I like my abusers?

 they said something that seemed weird to me… are they going to leave me? Is this the end? Is this all there is? Should I leave them? Maybe I’ll just disappear

you hardly remember anything from before the age of 10

nothing is real. we’re all going to die. nothing matters.

maybe if I get high I won’t overthink everything!

[bpd--daisy-blog]

No matter what, you never deserve abuse.

You never deserve abuse because you’re too needy or clingy

You never deserve abuse because you “let it happen” or “didn’t fight back” or “didn’t stand up for yourself”

You never deserve abuse because you “let it get this far” or you “stayed this long”

You never deserve abuse because your abuser is your mother or father, sister or brother, other family member, your boyfriend, girlfriend, fiancée, husband, or wife

You never deserve abuse because you have a particular mental or physical illness

You never deserve abuse because you’re “too emotional”

You never deserve abuse because you were “asking for it”

You never deserve abuse even though you’ve made mistakes, or said something wrong, or haven’t understood something, or can’t remember something

You never deserve abuse for being “too much” or “not good enough”

You never deserve abuse for having off days or being vulnerable sometimes

You never deserve abuse for asking for help

You never deserve abuse, no matter how many times and how many ways your abuser justifies it or makes excuses for it.

[jewishharley]

what i think is really transparent is how people claim to support all mentally ill people when they think of like. anxiety, depression, ocd, ptsd, bipolar maybe, autism (even tho its not a mental illness) n adhd. they think that for including bipolar, ocd, n ptsd theyre suddenly the most inclusive person ever, when really as soon as someone w npd, aspd, schizophrenia, or did comes around theyre very quiet w their “inclusion” n “support”. theyll fall for lies n stigma n not even realise it, n people w those mental illnesses will feel like everyones right abt them, because no one who doesnt have it seems to support them

so im here 2 say that i support ppl w all mental illnesses, even the lesser known ones, the addictions, the eating disorders, the dissociative ones, the psychosis-spectrum ones, the personality disorders, etc etc… none of the people w those disorders are inherently bad or evil, theyre struggling jus like everyone else

[lilyrcse]

“you don’t know what the word ‘humble’ means, and you can’t tell the difference between 'cocky’ and 'confident’ - just because they both start with the letter c. so darling, tell me: how are you planning on passing english at this rate?”

— Definitions // lily rose.

[carnelianfoxx]

nothing makes me happier than when my cat enters the room and meows to announce itself

[3blush]

[thegoodvybe]

[cherryangel-bpd-blog]

missing the person who hurt u the most is one of the worst feelings like u abandoned me why do i miss u n want the best for u???

[1st-1]

Submission 

[viewed-as-a-flower]

[womanism]

more bunny love for my borderline pals

[christophermcgeownwriting-deact]

‘heavy’

[thegazingabyss666]

don’t let anyone tell you that your life would be better without medication

don’t let people insinuate that a life without medication is ideal

don’t let people tell you that medications are only for “crazy” people

don’t let people tell you that you can do things without medications when medications are what make it possible for you to do those things

don’t let people tell you that you’re not “healthy” because you take medications

don’t let people insinuate that you are “giving up” by taking medications

don’t let people suggest that your goal should be to completely “recover” and get off your medications

don’t let people say that you’re “not being yourself” because you take meds

don’t let people say that you’ll “be yourself” if you go off your medications

don’t let people insinuate that you are bad for taking medications

You can make your own decisions about your health. Discussions about medications should be between you and your doctor, who I promise is more knowledgeable about this than the average person who is med-shaming.

[poeticmxnd-deactivated20190325]

Living in the past is too exhausting.

[ela-earnest]

You cannot always be happy but you can always be brave. And that is the beginning of everything.

Ariana Dancu (via OptimisticallyAstray)

[depressiontookmylife]

They always say why the person didn’t said anything…they ask this when is too late. When the darkness and the pain devoured that person already. You know…is funny. They blame you for being stubborn, lazy, stupid or retarded…when you already have to listen to the voices in your head that are telling you things even worse. Maybe you can fight alone for a while…a few years…but you can’t do it forever. We all have our limits. When the limit is crossed…no one can help anymore. Because you are dead. It wouldn’t be easier if they will be there for you in the beginning? But no…Let’s cry and ask why they did it. I hope no one will cry at my funerals. They don’t have that right…they never cared when I was alive so why when I am dead?

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)