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the familiarity of shadows, stuck in words

[metamorphesque]

― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

[gapsofsunl1ght]

I have learnt to question everything, to ve vary of everything. I hate that. about time though, i guess.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

fuck you fuck you fuck you. if by *some* chance you're reading this, well : fuck you.

[crierbaby-deactivated20160831]

the trick is to play your music louder than your thoughts

[gapsofsunl1ght]

fuck my life. mera hi dimaagh khraab hai. why the fuck.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

i forgive you. if not now, then i will someday, wholly. however, i cannot and will not utter a word. we cant go through it again, despite despite.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

funny. I stuck to my word by never saying another word.

[tomorrowillbeyou]

you have to listen to loud music . it scares the evil creatures from your head

[gapsofsunl1ght]

☆☆:☆☆

):

[gapsofsunl1ght]

the whir of the fan in an /almost/ summer day. i sit and crochet while she sits and paints her ladybug/strawberry rocks. the smashing pumpkins play in the background. an oddly endearing spot in time <3

[gapsofsunl1ght]

i have always said this and I'll say it again: if i was an artist I would've painted my dreams. writing about them isn't it. the colors, the familiarity, the merging in of scenes. or maybe just the feeling, when you forget the whole thing yet a distinct essence of it remains.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

didn't even give the night a chance. man.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

funny how a misspelling on spotify ended up w me listening to upbeat morgan wallen songs. hah. we'll take that, universe.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

ykw, fuck it. selfish tou ban hi gai hoon, now I'm going to be a very very funny person too.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

didn't even give the night a chance. man.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

the blue depression turtle, regardless of its name always sows hope in a weird, absurd way. being ridiculous for a while might as well make life a little more fun. perhaps forgiving too.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

"as long as you dont die from it, there is always instruction in disaster"

[gapsofsunl1ght]

"i don't know a greater freedom than taking a sad, bitter, nasty emotion like contempt, like grief, like terrible fear that by its nature makes you feel isolated, then trying to transform it into a story or narrative. and as a result, finding out that everyone else is usually dealing with the same stuff"

[gapsofsunl1ght]

the blue depression turtle, regardless of its name always sows hope in a weird, absurd way. being ridiculous for a while might as well make life a little more fun. perhaps forgiving too.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

"as long as you dont die from it, there is always instruction in disaster"

[gapsofsunl1ght]

the blue depression turtle, regardless of its name always sows hope in a weird, absurd way. being ridiculous for a while might as well make life a little more fun. perhaps forgiving too.

[gapsofsunl1ght]

spent the whole day downloading songs and psp games today. tomorrow, we shall crochet.