media enjoyer

assorted interests and obsessions

[gayfrasier]

my carrd

hello welcome and enjoy your stay :)

[nameless-and-joymaking]

the photography arc rlly is the rosetta stone for me to louis' whole character. but whatever.

[nameless-and-joymaking]

ppl love to be like ‘louis is a business major in a world full of theatre kids’ and its like well. most vampires in this world end up making art (i think bc anne rice likely had a sort of universalizing view that any being that lives long enough will eventually become an artist) and louis has clearly always been passionate about the arts!! He’s been deeply moved by it since he was a human (see: Iolanthe incident) He has opinions about it (he’s literally a prolific art collector, he gets degraded in a racialized way by Santiago for being ‘pretentious’ about art, he reads or sleeps through TdV’s work not bc he hates all theatre but bc he thinks their work is tawdry and bizarre.)

it makes sense that louis tries his hand at being an artist, and that attempt a symbol of profound hope! but he also happened to pick the artform most prohibitive to him as a vampire (photography requires light and patience, whereas he’s always outrunning the sun.) and he takes photos of humans that he cannot get emotionally close to (the photo he takes of armand is notably the only one an art dealer gets a lil frisson off of.) he completely stacks the deck against himself, putting himself in a position to reaffirm his prior belief that vampirism is a curse and a limitation.

when he realizes his art isn’t great he quits. but if he had waited for cameras to improve, or taken photos of fellow vampires, (and fwiw i think there was a post floating around about how if louis just ate more, things might be easier lolol) or just been content to suck at it for a while, there’s no reason why he couldn’t have continued (lord knows other vampires are out there being bad and weird at whatever they’re making, in part bc they’re v much out of step with the culture they’re attempting to contribute to. and louis actually seems a great deal more clued in to the zeitgeist based on what he says to claudia about the parisian modern art scene, and even up to 2022 where he knows what essencefest is like my girl still knows whats what more or less.)

i think louis stops not only bc its painful and frustrating to not be able to practice this artform the way he wants to, but bc he cannot deal with the idea that he isn’t Creating Value or contributing, he would just be enjoying himself.

And and and the most chilling thing to me has always been the stein-photo-replacement moment and subsequent crashout. (obv that story beat is abt armand being manipulative and undermining louis’ account of events, but) the way louis is so upset and so vehement abt insisting that he was merely adequate as a photographer, how important it is for louis that the readers know that is like Thee character detail of the whole season for me. louis is so ruled by self loathing that it feels central to his personal integrity and the integrity of the story he’s telling that he not say anything too nice about himself or his creative output. and its so fucking racialized bc truly louis still lives in fear of being called arrogant and haughty and uppity and pretentious by white people who do not want him to like himself !! like lets all kill ourselves fr

[hollanderthoughts]

it’s okay guys I’m literally as normal as a person in my situation can be

[millertastic]

THAT'S REALLY SUPER, SUPERGIRL! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[gayfrasier]

thank you all for being colombian with me. it didn’t work but i appreciate it anyways

[narratorstragedy]

horrible day in soccerland

[dyk-this-musical-song]

Do you know this Musical Song? #366

I know the song and the musical

I know the song but not the musical

I know the musical but not the song

I may know this

I have never heard this

Remaining time: 4 days 6 hours

[segamascott]

[gayfrasier]

for the next 2.5-3 hours everyone on my dash is colombian. i can’t really watch the game because im out of the house but i will be expecting everyone to cheer for my beautiful people and beautiful country

[dykemd]

saying football is coming home when u only have One cup from 1966 is so ridiculously funny but we can never laugh too much and lose sight of the fact that british football fans should all be shot in a public square

[pmamtraveller]

Textile art featuring a school of koi fish, by artist Lin Xia.

[defconprime]

[quarkfancam]

still thinking about the quark arms dealer episode

[teaboot]

Layering my Short Skirt, Long Jacket (CAKE) over my White Tee (CORPSE) and Blue Jeans (Lana Del Ray) Knee Socks (Arctic Monkeys) and Blue Suede Shoes (Elvis) and then putting on my Raspberry Beret (Prince) before I head out to the Bard Olympics where I am disqualified for performance-enhancing power buffs. On my way home I am cast as a sassy but cute side character in an early 2010's Disney Channel original series. I look fresh as hell

[triangleguy]

[zoesupreme]

Christopher Nolan almost allows colors into his mythical epic shot on 70mm IMAX film. thank god they stopped filming in time.

[kringas]

I really really really hate to do this. I am currently mysteriously stricken by health issues that I've been experiencing for about a month. I made quite literally half as much as I usually make last month because of a reduced ability to work and I am increasingly becoming more unable to work. I'm seeing a doctor next week and I have to be able to afford that copay and the many bills I had to delay or put off last month on top of this months bills. I am estranged from my family and I do not have any savings.

If anyone can throw some money my direction I will be very grateful. I hate having to do this so much but I have been living off the bare minimum for the past month trying to scrape by and I just can't. I'm at the point where I'm enrolling in medical studies trying to earn enough to pay my fucking light bill.

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