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( REALLY LOW ACTIVITY ) indie. priv. & semi sel. "Ciel" Phantomhive from Kuroshitsuji. loved by sheebit

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welcome to sheebit tries to come back to kuroshitsuji again! 

if you’re into demonic contracts && murder mysteries, along with the aesthetic of Victorian England, then welcome to my blog. please give this a LIKE ┊ REBLOG ( preferred ) && i’ll check your blogs out too! this is an indie. semi-sel. && private Ciel Phantomhive of KUROSHITSUJI ┊ BLACK BUTLER! be mindful of spoilers if you haven’t caught up to the manga as well since this blog won’t be spoiler free.

thank you for reading ⭐ loved by sheebit.

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i'll have everyone know i was going to write something cute for astre's birthday, and instead i put out sadness into the world. maybe next time.

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the days blurred together at some point, the only way to know when it was morning or when it was night was through the meals (barely anything to live on if were honest). the cage would be kicked && the sound would vibrate ━ grating on the ears from the way it seemed to screech. the barely there moans of the few remaining children in the other cages would blend together whenever it happened. at first astre used to look at the children ━ all brought in similarly to him && ciel, but then it became to difficult to see the life drain from their eyes as the days wore on. he thinks he would've become like them sooner rather than later; barely moving, yet barely resisting when one of the kidnappers finally opened the cage && pulled them out.

some days those children would come back ━ somehow more disheveled && unresponsive than before (he knew the answer but he wasn't going to think too hard if he were honest). on those days, he'd turn away from the children; quietly trembling while tears threatened to fall down his ashen cheeks. fingers would grip his shorts as tightly as possible until his knuckles turned while. then ━ he'd see equally white hands reach forward && gently placed on top of his own, gentle in how they press && loosen the grip on his clothes. shuffling is heard next as ciel gets closer into his space, keeping their hands connected all the while. astre fears his gaze away from his brother's hands to look up at him ━ the tired smile on ciel's face made his heart clench, if only because his beautiful blue eyes look stubborn and yet there's barely life in them. oh ... if only he were stronger. if only he could take care of himself; ciel would be able to relax.

it's in those stubborn eyes && tired smile that astre finds himself being pulled into his brother's embrace (again). in that cage that's big enough to fit several children ━ astre finds his arms wrapping around his only source of comfort; clinging desperately && stubbornly. here, he can hear a heartbeat (erratic, ciel is just as scared but he will never voice it), hands that glide comfortingly up && down his back, finally warm skin against his cheek ━ ciel is still alive. god didn't take him away from him, he isn't alone. no one else knows where they ended up, no one knows where to look or even begin to look. but it's okay (it's not), as long as ciel is with him ━ they'll be able to leave together one day.

right?

it's that singular question that makes everything pause ━ still, unnaturally still. along with the beating of ciel's heart && the warmth of his skin. it's that singular question that makes him tremble out of fear ━ fear that if he were to look, something would be wrong. that something would be wrong with ciel. fear that kept him rooted in place even when those familiar hands slid off his back almost as if there was no strength in them. the fear that had astre shut his eyes && cling harder to ciel's body, never letting go even when it felt like someone was trying to yank him free.

the low screaming that was crawling up his throat until it scratched at his throat from overuse as he desperately pleaded to not take ciel away. pleading to let him stay with ciel. pleading that he doesn't want to be alone. to just PLEASE let him stay. the screaming that follows him even as his eyes snap open && his hands blindly reach out for a person who should be nearby, who should've reached for his hands already ━ why aren't there any hands reaching for him?! he doesn't want to be alone!

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probably gonna make a birthday drabble for the birthday boy. not sure what it's going to be yet but i gotta put out something for the best boy of the universe.

[bibyshitsuji24k]

happy bday earl phantomhive!

[kinbari14]

Kuroshitsuji Season 4 "Public School Arc" New Key Visual. Anime begins April 2024

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why the fuck is everything on the left side now?

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im catching up to the Black Butler manga && i can’t believe i have ANOTHER thing to be stressed about. Link Click Season 2 is bad enough ( && it only just started btw ), with the way im slowly freaking losing it. && now Black Butler is grabbing me by the throat like im a helpless doll waiting for my demise.

this sounds dramatic as fuck i know.

but my blood should not be going 🡩 🡫 🡮 🡭 🡨 you know?

it’s not actually doing that but that’s what it feels like

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im thinking of astre’s BSD verse again && it just hit me that he either got turned like everyone else did, or he’s safe somewhere. it’s a lot more hilarious if he got turned because clearly sebastian didn’t do his job.

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Them!!

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“You have to believe me. I did everything I could.' says Wilde (from Snake)

i dont remember the prompt for this lmao

@pareidae

❝ calm yourself, i am not angry, nor do i believe you are lying to me. ❞ he motioned for the other to take a seat, before taking a seat himself ━ arms crossed while he waited. ❝ now, go ahead, and explain as best as you can, what had happened. i won't reprimand you for a mistake, but, i will make it clear that you must be careful no matter what it is you are doing. ❞

[solacanis]

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“ I believe in you, and I know you can succeed. You got this. ”

@theircurse ┊&& low mood starters

he can't remember a moment where he was told simple words; encouraging words. in fact, the same could be said about the other young child; a fact he's come to realize after spending some time with them. perhaps, at some point, he can offer the same words back. though as it stands, there's too much going on within himself to extend a hand in return ... though he can do small things that don't require much thought. actions did speak louder than words more often than not.

❝ thank you, ❞ he murmured softly as he offered a plate of his own snacks ❝ here. as a token of my appreciation. ❞ he even moved over the pitcher of milk to go with it. sometimes, tea isn't needed with snacks && today was one of those days.

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it's still surreal that there's actually another black butler season. i thought i was gonna be OLD before anything else got adapted.

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Low Moods Sentence Starters

“I’m struggling right now, but it’s ok. I won’t be struggling forever.”

“You’re so much stronger than you think you are.”

“It’s ok to not be ok.”

“I’m sorry, but do you think that you could hug me? Just for a little while?”

“No, I’m not feeling ok today.”

“Do you think we could stay in rather than go out today?”

“One day things will be better.”

“One day we’ll be fine.”

“When things are the hardest, look back and see how far you’ve come already.”

“It won’t be this way forever.”

“You can’t fix all your mistakes, but you can learn from them and try not to make them again.”

“Doing bad things doesn’t necessarily mean you’re a bad person. You can still do good things, too.”

“I want you to know that I’m proud of you.”

“I believe in you, and I know you can succeed. You got this.”

“I know that my brain is telling me lies right now, but it’s so hard not to believe it sometimes.”

“Do you regret knowing me?”

“Even though I live with someone, I feel so lonely.”

“I just need a hug.”

“Life is too hard today. I want to curl up in bed and start over again tomorrow.”

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welcome to sheebit tries to come back to kuroshitsuji again! 

if you’re into demonic contracts && murder mysteries, along with the aesthetic of Victorian England, then welcome to my blog. please give this a LIKE ┊ REBLOG ( preferred ) && i’ll check your blogs out too! this is an indie. semi-sel. && private Ciel Phantomhive of KUROSHITSUJI ┊ BLACK BUTLER! be mindful of spoilers if you haven’t caught up to the manga as well since this blog won’t be spoiler free.

thank you for reading ⭐ loved by sheebit.