Getting Built Like Big Barda

Amanda. 37. –190lbs. Geek, parent, partner.

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

Just passed the one year mark from my surgery! I’m feeling really good. The body dismorphia is real!! I can tell I’ve lost weight because I fit in size XL comfortably now, when I used to wear 4X. But I still see the same bigger body when I look down or look in the mirror. I can’t trust my eyes right now. Because I see the same thing I did a year ago, my mind struggles with self love sometimes. I just try not to stare or pick myself apart. I KNOW I’ve lost weight. My clothes show it. My body feels it. My fiance tells me. My brain is just lagging behind.

But I’m proud and had to show you guys some updated pictures ☺️

[weights-and-horror]

A selfie from a short, evening stroll I just got back from. I didn’t post yesterday because I only went for a walk to help with some self- doubt that came a creeping.

Today was a different matter as I got 2 different walks and my morning workout in. So this is day 8 of holding myself accountable. I’m gonna keep on steppin’, so all of you be safe out there and stay good people!💪🏻🤘🏻🖖🏻💀🎃

@gettingbuilt-likebigbarda

[aqueerkettleofish]

For those who have missed it, a tourist in Hawaii decided it would be fun to chuck a rock (a BIG rock) at a monk seal. He missed, but he was captured on video, and when told it was illegal to interfere with them, said "I'm rich, I can pay the fine."

Is the best part that he got doxxed? No.

Is the best part that he got tracked down by a local and beaten? No.

Arrested on state at federal charges, looking at up to 5 years and 50K? Nope.

The best part is the local city council's reaction.

And the best part of that is the look on the attorney's face.

[boschintegral-photo]

Lilac

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

Only one patient in the last three hours and none currently. So I guess I’ll go through the tons of tiny bits of supplies in this procedure cart and check the date on every single one. We have 6 rooms, so 6 carts. No one’s checked 3 of them to make sure everything is up to date for the next couple months. We’ll see if I end up having the time to do all 3 before my shift is over in 2 more hours.

[betsmusings]

Every time I watch the news it's just... this. every day.

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

My beloved @weights-and-horror tagged me to list 10 fav films as gifs, without naming them, and then tag 10 mutuals. This is going to be hard!!

Kept thinking of more to add but these are some of the ones I’ve seen tons of times and keep coming back to. I’ll tag anyone that would like to participate. I’m not sure who’s active anymore since I’ve been away. But tag me if you do this so I can see!

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

After getting rid of my Fitbit two years ago, I finally got a new smart watch. Settled on the Apple since it’ll be a good allrounder. And got a fun stretchy pride band to go with it. Maybe I’ll start actually posting more as I figure some health things out. May make a post about it later this week. 🩵

[weights-and-horror]

@m0tiv8me and @rockingred52 tagged me about a week back for a Flex Friday, and even though it’s Sunday I felt that I owed them one

Or two

I hit my chest & triceps today, and got a helluva workout for it. My Flex at the moment is that I’m down a shirt size and a pants size, which means I must be doing something right. Thank you for the tags!! Be safe out there and stay good people!! 💪🏻🤘🏻🎃✌🏻

@gettingbuilt-likebigbarda

[ducissatenebrarum]

[northirish]

Stop doing it scared and start doing it scary. Invoke sheer eye-clawing terror into all those who have ever wronged you

[thememedaddy]

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

Had a great time the other night taking the kids to the BBNO$ concert. It was a fantastic and fun time. Would definitely go again when he’s in the area.

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

Every other day for the past couple weeks and continuing for the next two months, I rotate to the pediatric hospital. It’s so lovely here. They have little lights in the ceiling, some with bigger stars, for the little ones to look up at while we scan them. The floors have leaves, rocks, fish, flowers, etc, paved into them. The walls have murals in main areas and pleasant colors in usually staff only corridors. Some tiles in the bathrooms were drawn by some of the children that have stayed here.

I’ve scanned some amazing little ones, some tiny littles that are going through sooo much and hooked up to so many machines, but are so strong. And of course some healthy bigger kids that are regularly scheduled appointments. Both are interesting and educational. It amazed me how tiny the probe/camera we have that I took a pic of. It’s not our smallest though. We have one slightly smaller one that gets used a lot when we go to the PICU and NICU.

Which I’ll leave a happy note on: we had a blood clot check on a little 4 month old in the PICU. She had heart surgery a few days ago and was hooked up to so many tubes, but she was looking around and all wiggly. She was struggling a little at first, oxygen kept dropping, but the nurse got her settled. I scanned one leg briefly, then the other tech scanned while I helped keep the little one’s leg as still as I could manage. I talked to her and rubbed her head while we scanned her. I ended up putting her to sleep, which surprised the nurse. So that made my day.

[antisisyphus]

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

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[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

Ignore the dirty scale, but I had to share this! For the first time in at least 16 years, I am below 200lbs. Some time soon, I’ll take new progress pictures. The new job has just been busy. I’m happy, surprised, and trying to not be too worried that I’m loosing too much weight. I know I’m having complications with my wls that’s not letting me eat enough, but I’m trying to do what I can until the new insurance kicks in so I can get it looked at and hopefully fixed. It’s been about 2 and a half years of actively trying to lose this weight, and finally passing 200 is amazing!

[weights-and-horror]

I truly missed working out the last two weeks. The week before last , I was really under the weather, and last week was just extremely busy. However, I came back today feeling better while still being busy with cleaning around the house.

I hit chest and back and I loved it!! Be safe out there & stay good people! 🎃🤘🏻💪🏻🤙🏻

@gettingbuilt-likebigbarda

[gettingbuilt-likebigbarda]

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