justMe

[gewoon-ik]

Finally

This morning i ran into you..

Normally I would be so happy, I would stay happy al day..

No, I've reached the point where you don't make or brake my day anymore.

Now I'm just broken, with nothing left to fix me.

[gewoon-ik]

F*king fake

I feel like I'm losing all my friends due to being too honest, too real, too me.

I hate the fake people around my friends, the lies they are told, and the half truth as well..

So I'll always be the one telling them everything just how it is, and end up being the one that gets blamed.

So that's the new world today, fake people get praised, honest ones get bullied and yelled at?

I sometimes think I don't belong in this world anymore.

[gewoon-ik]

[gewoon-ik]

[gewoon-ik]

[gewoon-ik]

Follow your dreams they said..

But in my dreams I'm dying..

[gewoon-ik]

This is it...

I think you like me, but I'm not the person you want yourself to like, not the kind of person you will allow yourself to like, so you turn me of time after time, but your breaking your own heart by doing so.

[gewoon-ik]

Empty

Just totally empty.. I work, I smile, I do things.. but I don't feel anything anymore. Automatic pilot took me over.

[timbllr]

[gewoon-ik]

[gewoon-ik]

Don't ever think you fit in.. they will let you think you do as long as they need you. You'll start liking them en loving them.. and then.. there comes a point they no longer need you.. and then they show you that you were actually never one of them.. they don't need you anymore, so you can go back to the place you came from.. back to loneliness and emptiness.. back to where you thought they saved you from..

I thought I finally belonged somewhere, that I found people that liked me.. but in the end.. the needed me, they didn't like me..

Fuck people.

[gewoon-ik]

I love you

I hate the rest of the world

Pity that you're part of this world

[gewoon-ik]

It's the too that will never let me be with two..

You haven't been here for weeks.. at least not when we would be alone.

Are you finally fed up with me?

In the beginning my habits and strange thing will be cute, but there will come a day you're fed up with them. I'm used to that, I have had that all my life. People I can trust, people I love, people I'ld do anything for, leaving.. cause my mental health will always get to a point where people are fed up with it.

I need you too much, I want you around too much, I'm letting you know I think about you too much, I want to help you too much, I need too much attention.

It's the too that will never let me be with two

[gewoon-ik]

Every day I spend without seeing you, feels like a wasted day..

[gewoon-ik]

[gewoon-ik]

Still hoping for something I know will never happen.. but oh my god, you're all I want!

[boyparanoia]