ghosted_inner_thoughts

_the thoughts in my head haunt me until i write them down_

[ghostedinnerthoughts]

why did i have to grow up?

why did the pitter-patter in my heart

turn into anxiety,

instead of love?

why did the butterflies in my stomach

turn into fear,

instead of happiness?

[ghostedinnerthoughts]

i used to be scared of my reflection, but i think i've gotten better, because now when i look in the mirror, i see all the things he loves.

[ghostedinnerthoughts]

i am going to have a lock on my door that you do not have the key to.

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I'm a pile of unfinished things, unsaid feelings, unthought thoughts, and unlived lives.

[a-j-s-the-only]

tell me who you are apart from what you have.

what scars does your heart carry?

[a-j-s-the-only]

I was kind to myself today

kindness I should have allowed myself all along.

I cleaned my room, changed the bed, a hot shower, two glasses of cold water and some lotion on my body.

I was kind enough to light my favorite candle and do yoga by the flickering light.

I allowed myself the solitude and peace the midnight air holds.

I said it’s normal to feel, that my emotions are real.

I told my mind it’s okay to rest, and my heart it’s alright to love. The sun will rise in the morning.

I’d like to be kind more often.

[a-j-s-the-only]

My regret cut deeper into me than the knife I held.

what have I done?

[hersurvival]

[a-j-s-the-only]

sometimes I forget it’s my first time living.

a painter doesn’t create the Mona Lisa the first day holding a brush

[a-j-s-the-only]

I want to change the world.

but for now, I will settle for making a new self.

A tree can’t bear healthy fruit with rotting roots below.

[emotionalwords]

[star-struck09]

Do you think of me as often as I think of you?

[kamiqaze]

There are two hearts on the floor, one is mine, both are yours.

[mavethswords]

[a-j-s-the-only]

but how will it end

with our swords to the skies

or the blades to our wrists

[lunamonchtuna]

everything is romantic if you’re hopeless enough.

[ghostedinnerthoughts]

i am not the savior of my own life,

i cannot take credit for something i could not do.