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I know this is so lame but honestly I just want to do the dumbest things with you like I want to go grocery shopping and fight over what we’re going to have for dinner and I want to learn the way you take your coffee in the mornings and I want to memorize the way you wake up and I want to be the person you need. I just want to be yours I want to be something you can’t live without
I honestly find it hard to believe that neurotypicals…exist. Like there are people that have never had a panic attack or a suicidal thought, they’ve never experienced hallucinations or extreme paranoia, they’ve never stayed awake at night wondering if everybody hates them or what’s wrong with them. I can’t wrap my head around the idea of being in a good state of mind, like, ever.
I ask my husband all the time what its like to not live with anxiety and he cant answer me.
Seriously. What’s it like to want to get up in the morning, and to feel refreshed by sleep? What’s it like to have a conversation and only have to focus on what’s being said, rather than continually monitoring every minute detail of your posture, your inflection, the speed at which you’re talking, the way you gesture, etc., etc., for every moment of the interaction and then maintaining the conversation on top of all of that? What’s it like to enjoy being outside where people can see you? What’s it like to enjoy being seen?
Fucking baffling.
Openly looking sad in school
The worst part about having bpd is how many people you hurt. No matter how fucking hard you try not to, you always do. There are times I seem to hurt people just by existing. There are some days I feel as if I’m going to drown in guilt from all the pain I’ve brought to people.
I'm depersonalizating(??) in school again
The teacher I really like and connected with just a few days ago talked to me and was smiling and being friendly and I was really short with her and I feel terrible
Her face looked super blurry and I didn't feel in my body
My friends want to hang so I'm trying so hard to stop it
I wish it was an option to walk out of my mind and in to someone else's for a day
Oh wait
there's books
Tons and tons of books
I hate when my dashboard doesn't match my dark self-wallowing mood
The searching for our selves is the most agonizing, isn’t it? - and yet the most stimulating - and one simply cannot escape it.
Karen Horney (via fyp-psychology)
run your fingers through my hair and don’t stop until i fall asleep thank u
Wow my brain just did this thing where it literally thought for a second that I am a curse and the cause of everyone who ever has depression LOL stfu brain you self centered dramatic twat
