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diary of thoughts 🖤

[ghostof2013]

just hung out w my best friend and had such a great time

she doesn’t know how much I needed that

[ghostof2013]

wtf is wrong with me?

Am I hitting rock bottom?

[ghostof2013]

was crying for like 5 min straight until a client came to pay something lmao

he kinda interrupted me but wtv

[ghostof2013]

had such a fun and great day at work today plus my friend gave me a bratz doll

Also talked more w my work crush hihihi

[ghostof2013]

just got the whole Gilmore Girls on dvd

literally a dream come true

[ghostof2013]

lmao just told my dad I’m miserable and so tired of everything while crying

first time being that vulnerable didn’t really like it lol

[ghostof2013]

had such a great day at work haha

[ghostof2013]

I love me a good early 2010s pop song 🩷

[ghostof2013]

so just got high after work and went for red chicken, live is kinda good ig?

[ghostof2013]

I really wish I could change how I am but I can’t, I hate my life so much

[ghostof2013]

I feel so ugly, and idk why cause I think I am pretty maybe not the prettiest and sexiest but yeah but I just feel like the ugliest piece of shit,

I hate myself so bad

[ghostof2013]

there will always be something that will make me see that I’m truly alone lmao

[ghostof2013]

si me necesitas remix m transporta al 2013 tanto omg

[ghostof2013]

I hate men so fkg much like how can u be so attractive and hot but such a piece of shit

[ghostof2013]

I work most of this week except tomorrow and it just annoys cause I have to wake up early and be at work almost all day but at the same time I don’t do much at home and sometimes have a better time at work than there

I don’t even know why I even think about those things I really think it’s cause I’m an anxious person lol

[ghostof2013]

just had a conversation w my coworker and we were talking about how through our teenage years we went thru depression and shit like that, I noticed how we had similar expériences but at the same time they were so different bc she did have the help she needed

Obviously our situations and pain were different but it makes me feel kinda bad and sad about how my life could’ve been if I would’ve had the help

[ghostof2013]

He was passing by and said hello and then asked how I was (I was w a customer btw) and I just acted like a fkg pick me omgg

like actually not much happened in those 15 min lol