Weird and rambling introduction:
I've had a Tumblr for a long time, since I was perhaps 11 or 12, but I've never had one where I personally made posts. I'm very bad with consistency, especially once the novelty wears off, but I think having some sort of outlet would be nice.
It says in my bio but I have, for a long time, felt like a ghost in my own life. More morbidly, a ghost piloting my own corpse without clearly recalling how it all works.
I'm chronically ill and neurodivergent and my body feels like it isn't truly under my command, it has a mind of its own and I'm just doing my best to steer it. I'm not doing a very good job at it at that, hence the ghostly sensations. Nothing I try sticks, nothing I do changes anything, everything is so out of reach.
One thing I do do well, even if it doesn't make me feel less like a ghost, is I think a lot. I am always overflowing with words, so I thought perhaps writing them down here might help.
So yes, that's the purpose of this blog. If you want to follow along, I'd be honoured.















