[ghostytalks]

When you wanna engage with more LGBTQ people on social media, but you’re not out all the way on social media.

The struggle is real, my dudes.

[ghostytalks]

Insecurity is a real bitch sometimes.

I’ve always had insecurities, but I’ve also been able to ignore them or work through them fairly well. I’ve just gone on living life, and things have been fine. I was even feeling pretty confident most of the time. I was thinking, Hey, I’m doing alright. This is good. I’ve worked through my shit.

And then I joined this online fitness group. I love exercise and being active, and I’ve wanted to get back in shape for a long time. I thought this group would be perfect because it’d help boost me up. And in some respects, it really has. But it’s also brought up all of these body image issues that I thought I was handling. Or at the very least, they were issues that didn’t seem like they were as bothersome as they really are.

I’ve posted about it here before. Kind of the only thing I post about... But I didn’t realize how much it really bugged me. And I want to talk to someone about it; I’m sure I need to. But it’s terrifying. I am so afraid of people in my life knowing how insecure and vulnerable that I feel.

[ghostytalks]

I hate fitting rooms. A fitting room would be the setting of my own personal hell.

[ghostytalks]

Did a tarot reading today. The gist of it was that I need to chill the frick out when it comes to finding a relationship.

Out of curiosity, I did an oracle card reading about the same thing. That deck also told me I need to chill the frick out.

I get it, Universe. I’ll be chilling the frick out now.

[ghostytalks]

Today, I got coffee with a girl that I met on Her. She was really nice and funny, and we got along pretty well. We talked for almost 2 hours and it felt like hardly any time had passed. It was a good time. But part of me is really hoping that she didn’t feel any sparks. She told me that she’s recently divorced and has 2 kids. Now, I have nothing against people being divorced or having kids. However, I have never had a serious relationship and I don’t feel like I’m ready to have a relationship with someone that’s a mom. I’m not old enough for that. I mean, I’m only, like, a year and a half younger than her, but still… I still feel like a kid, and she has kids. And I know that if we ever talk about a potential relationship, I’m going to have to tell her that I feel like we’re at different stages in our lives. She’s at the stage where she’s a mom- young still, of course, but her kids are a big part of her life. I’m in college, still a kid myself, and still trying to find who I am. But I also feel like I’m going to sound like a huge asshole because of that. I feel like we could be great friends though, so I hope that’s what she’s going to want out of this. Just friends.

[superpharm]

You can never be angry at the truth.

To be honest, your reasoning doesn’t sound harsh or mean - it just sounds truthful.

[ghostytalks]

That’s really nice of you to say. Thank you for taking the time to say that; I was really worried about all of that at the time, but we ended up never talking again so...I didn’t have much to worry about apparently. But thanks so much :)

[ghostytalks]

I got my first tarot deck recently and I’ve finally done my first reading with it. I loved it. I love these cards and think they’re stunning.

But did they have to be so goddamn accurate? The card that tells your doubts and fears? Mine in this reading was The Lovers. Y’all are hitting to close to home, cards.

[neoloputyn]

[ghostytalks]

I am feeling so lost right now. I spent most of yesterday in a pretty negative headspace regarding my life. Not my career path, because that is the one thing I’m solid on. But rather on where all of the person-related trajectories of my life are going. And I can’t figure it out. And then this morning, I woke my grandma up before I went to work and she was just...off. She was shaky and not totally coherent, but that’s usual for when she first wakes up. Nevertheless, I had a bad feeling, but I ignored it because this sometimes happens.

But then my uncle called. He took her straight from her hair appointment to the ER, and now I don’t know what’s happening. I am so scared that it’s something serious, that she had a stroke or something, and I don’t know what to do.  This woman raised me and the thought of her in the hospital, or debilitatingly ill, or anything negative really, is terrifying to me.  I knew I should’ve done something this morning.

I grew up in a very Christian family and, in moments like these, many of my family members would pray. But I can’t. Every single time I’ve prayed for someone who was sick, they ended up getting worse. In three cases, they died. So I don’t pray. Coincidence or not, I refuse to do it.

So I feel very helpless. Very scared. Very alone right now.

[the-suburban-craft]

[ghostytalks]

What is it called when you fully accept that there are powers in the universe other than, and possibly greater than, just you and I? Whether it be a divine power, a cosmic power, a magical power, or even some combination of all three? I can't explain it, I can't put a name to it, but I know that there is something more. Something more that surrounds us in all that we do, and all that we are. Some days, I swear that I can feel magic in the air around me. Other days, it feels more like divinity. And still, some other days, I feel nothing more than myself and whatever influence that I, alone, might have on the world around me. I’ve felt a little bit of all of this today; I’ve just cycled through it as the day’s went on. That’s got me thinking that maybe these are all just different manifestations of the same thing. I’m not sure what to call it, but I think it’s magic.

[witcheshaven]

Starry Nights ✨

[cool-critters]

Spanish moon moth (Graellsia isabellae)

The Spanish moon moth is a moth of the silkmoth family Saturniidae. The moth is native to Spain and France. The caterpillar primarily eats the needles of pine trees (genus Pinus).

photo credits: wiki

[spookyautumn]

next month is October next month is October next month is October next month is October next month is October

[ghostytalks]

Getting lost in my feels, wishing for fall, and thinking about the spooks inspired this little witch.

[ghostytalks]

Oh boy, do I feel lonely tonight.

[istadris]

I don’t understand why people hate puns, they’re language taken and twisted and wielded to create a special brand of humour; they’re the result of thousands of years of language evolution and combined with the finest wit, and resulting in an universal reaction of laughter and groaning ; in a way it’s a form of magic,  if you consider magic as the power of words on the world.

You could even say it’s

wit craft

[deercatcher]