Just because it's dark does not mean you are alone

Salvete! I'm Spade | she/her/they (idk I'll figure it out at some point surely) | Asexual ♠️ | The only filter my thoughts have is my own anxiety :)

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Hello! My name is Spade (yes like the card suite) and welcome to my tumblr. I’m aroace and to college to study English and Classics. I love mythology, marine life, books, movies, shows, anime, manga, comics- all sorts

DNI if you are homophobic, transphobic, aphobic, racist, MAGA of any type, harbor any hatred for any marginalized group (if you have to think about it then the answer is yes), pro ai, a pedo of any kind, or if you’re just a general asshole

I will be posting sketches, retrospectives, analysis/ theories, rants and vents as well as whatever else pops in my head that I actually remember to post - welcome to the show!

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why does my brain have to feel like I’m the worst, most disappointing person in the world when I’m trying to get gifts for other people

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God I haven’t even gotten to see Christopher Nolan’s version of the odyssey and I’ve already had to see some of the worst fucking takes about adaptation and The Odyssey I’ve ever had to experience. And I’ve had to explain the odyssey to literal children.

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Just got to see The Outsiders on Broadway!

Truly amazing show, the set, cast, choreography and lighting were all amazing the entire way through - completely deserves all the awards it’s gotten!

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I cannot describe in any way that matters how much I want his lungs and vocal chords

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staying up until 1am with your friends is like. wow we’re so fucking cool we’re so fucking badass we should go on a road trip or become famous or maybe hang out here forever because i dont wanna be anywhere that isnt with you guys im so full of love and joy and a live fast die young mentality. and staying up until 1am by yourself is like. for the third time this year i am genuinely contemplating suicide. good thing i dont have the executive function to clean up my room

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Get to know me!

I got the template off pintrest

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A fnaf sketch I never plan to finish

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fuck period cramps

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Y’all. Go listen to The Happy Fits, they slap and absolutely don’t have enough love.

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My grad cap!

I’ve had pretty complicated thoughts on graduating. On one hand I did have some great times in high school. I have a pretty great group of friends and a best friend who is amazing. On the other hand most of my high school years were miserable fighting my own mental health, which kept getting worse until I had to quit my job of 4 years and stop basically all of my extracurriculars. The last few months, despite having my lowest course work, it was harder and harder to get out of bed and I almost failed the one class I had. I feel awful talking about it with my friends as I know they have absolutely gone through so much worse and had far less of a support system than I did. World’s smallest violin I guess.

I think I am looking forward to college but I just can’t tell at this point. It feels more scary than exciting and the constant voice in my head telling me that I peaked in high school and that I’m not going to be able to survive on my own in this horrendous economy is loud. I don’t feel like a person without school.

To any students who read this I wish you a far better time than I had, even if I’m being melodramatic.

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A poster I made for school

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Have to add the fact that I keep Howl’s wig on a manikin head on my bookshelf

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Characters I have cosplayed as throughout the years.

Howl and Edgeworth are my favorites.