Stand You're Gonna Run Again

Gideon James Worthington Foulfellow || 16 || Nightmare (First Year) What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why, I have forgotten, and what arms have lain Under my head till morning; but the rain Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh Upon the glass and listen for reply, And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain For unremembered lads that not again Will turn to me at midnight with a cry. Thus in winter stands the lonely tree, Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one, Yet knows its boughs more silent than before: I cannot say what loves have come and gone, I only know that summer sang in me A little while, that in me sings no more.

[gideon-worthington]

I know it’s not but you’ve done it to me before. You’ve told me to shut up before. You gave me a black eye one time after all. Obviously it’s not that hard for you.

[eyesofpine]

Because your PTSD acted up and hurt me. What was I supposed to do? Let it slide because it was just the PTSD again. How many times have I heard that excuse?

[gideon-worthington]

And how's that any different from when I insult you? You don't like that either.

[lookmeinmyheart]

[eyesofpine]

[gideon-worthington]

Yes and yours are bitchy and whiny. You know the attitude is probably why can’t attract anyone. If you actually stood up for yourself you wouldn’t be a victim. You’re lying. There were times when I thought being nice to you was a good idea obviously it wasn’t.

[eyesofpine]

If you...

[gideon-worthington]

I know it's not but you've done it to me before. You've told me to shut up before. You gave me a black eye one time after all. Obviously it's not that hard for you.

[gideon-worthington]

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

[eyesofpine]

Your default responses are either sarcastic, judgmental, or taunting—neither of which I look forward to getting. I can’t stop acting as the victim, because that’s all I’ve ever been to you.

[gideon-worthington]

Yes and yours are bitchy and whiny. You know the attitude is probably why can't attract anyone. If you actually stood up for yourself you wouldn't be a victim. You're lying. There were times when I thought being nice to you was a good idea obviously it wasn't.

[van-schweetz]

Whatever. It doesn’t matter. If I can help that’s great and if I can’t well at least I tried.

[van-schweetz]

I..y-yeah you’re right.

[gideon-worthington]

You okay? Shit. Did I upset you?

[gideon-worthington]

So apparently I’m having my I should drop Gideon feels again. I swear the only reasons I’m still playing him is because of Vanellope and I can’t bring myself to actually drop him. I always chicken out right before I do so.

[gideon-worthington]

I don’t know it felt right. Besides I wasn’t going for derogatory. Seriously you’re bringing up that again? Is it necessary for you to always play the victim?

[eyesofpine]

Hard to tell whether I am or not with your track record.

[gideon-worthington]

I don't know what you're talking about.

[gideon-worthington]

Oh I’m sorry did I hurt your feelings, puppet? Besides what you were talking about concerned me.

[eyesofpine]

Again, with the puppet.

How in the world do you find that derogatory. Hellooo? I’m Pinocchio Wood, my entire life has been based around me doing other people’s biddings. This isn’t exactly new.

[gideon-worthington]

I don't know it felt right. Besides I wasn't going for derogatory. Seriously you're bringing up that again? Is it necessary for you to always play the victim?

[gideon-worthington]

Obviously. Why else would I date you? Like I said lapse in sanity. I had no idea what was going on. I still don’t but I don’t care anymore.

[eyesofpine]

I’m sorry, did I ask for your input? No, I did not.

[gideon-worthington]

Oh I’m sorry did I hurt your feelings, puppet? Besides what you were talking about concerned me.

[van-schweetz]

Yeah I kind of realized that myself.

[van-schweetz]

I’m sorry Deo..you’re trying to help and i’m being a pain.

[gideon-worthington]

Whatever. It doesn't matter. If I can help that's great and if I can't well at least I tried.

[gideon-worthington]

It’s a matter of opinion but you’re right us dating obviously was a lapse in my sanity and you were desperate and used me as a rebound.

[eyesofpine]

Lapse in your sanity? I was not desperate. Says the guy who used me as a sexuality experiment Mister wait am I bi-curious? No bisexual. Wait, conclusion: completely gay and not heterosexual at all apparently. 

[gideon-worthington]

Obviously. Why else would I date you? Like I said lapse in sanity. I had no idea what was going on. I still don't but I don't care anymore.

[eyesofpine]

I have good taste…right? Not like I have very many options, either.

[gideon-worthington]

It's a matter of opinion but you're right us dating obviously was a lapse in my sanity and you were desperate and used me as a rebound.

[boo-priestman]

It was. Too bad you missed it.

Um… I think so…. I don’t know.

[gideon-worthington]

Yeah because I want to see my best friend strip.  That sounds great.

[boo-priestman]

I was, actually.

[gideon-worthington]

Wow that must have been... interesting.  So does the boyfriend know about this?

[boo-priestman]

Can we forget about the stripping incident for good, please?

[gideon-worthington]

Stripping incident?  Please tell me you weren't the one stripping.

[van-schweetz]

It’s just complicated, Deo.

[gideon-worthington]

Yeah I kind of realized that myself.

[van-schweetz]

Like I said, this one was a little different.

[gideon-worthington]

A little different?