the struggle is real

Just another misandrist feminist on Long Island with too many GIFs and too many problems

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GO IN ON THIS GOTDAMN LION, BLACK TWITTER

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[yourmainshawty]

These all relate to me 😭

[horusyounggod]

I’m still upset

[graphitetroll]

Ugh

[queersirene-deactivated20150724]

LISTENNNN the only one that doesn’t relate is the one about the phone cuz i didn’t get a phone til i was 18. and i’m 22.

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

My life

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being on tumblr more because yr supposed to be “an adult” on fb and never be upset about the things your folks say and do to you

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

when yr folks on that politics of respectability kool aid too damn hard

just had a fight with my mom about the police. i mean, it wasn’t even a fight, it was just her condescending to me and me de-escalating. I had to just keep repeating, “I don’t want to talk about this” because I knew if I engaged nothing good was going to happen for either of us. 

so my cousin beat up a thief at her family home back in florida, and my mom said she should’ve called the police. of course, my reaction was like, “what would she call the cops for? so she can end up dead?”

my mom started condescending to me about the police and i just can’t. i don’t understand how my mom thinks bureaucracies in this country work and actually help folks, especially folks of color.

idk, i’m just really in my feels right now/need to play drake and process

[riotcakes]

Singular They, Hooray! ★○•°

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I think the singular “they” is also making it into a style guide (forget whether it’s AP or Chicago?)

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

real adult concerns

I feel like I finally have some incentive to use Tumblr because lately Facebook hasn’t felt like a safe space to air out my concerns because *~i know 2 many ppl irl~* there and they have their own readings of my behavior and my performance on Facebook. It feels safer to just use a space where only a few people know I use it and I am mostly a lurker.

I don’t know if this is my depression talking but lately I just don’t care about anything; or the things that would usually bring me a lot of anxiety don’t anymore. One of my work colleagues sent me a rude e-mail and I wasn’t even upset, I just thought, “How do I handle this situation diplomatically?”

I don’t even really care about heterosexuality or sex anymore, which now makes it weird to do an entire zine on having anxiety about these things. It interests me as much as how people “read” me as heterosexual and impose those limitations on my body or how I should be, but as long as I live in the suburbs, commute, have misandrist survivor politics, etc. dating just really isn’t interesting to me anymore, or something worth wasting any major anxiety on.

My mom gave me a lecture on my misandry tattoo Friday, and basically it boiled down to that I need to express myself in more conventionally feminine ways so I can fulfill the promises of heterosexuality. She interprets my personal expression (perhaps correctly, idk) as hiding from men, when my ideal personal aesthetic, in her eyes, should be one that invites men.

But for me, wearing dark makeup and having a misandry tattoo is about saying yes to myself, and trying to decenter men’s approval. If I did that, I knew I’d never be enough.

[ghostdaddotcx]

[brujacore]

othermike !!!!!!!!!!!!!

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omg crine

[blackfashion]

Instagram: Designereyes_Bj

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goals

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That moment when you’re writing for your zine and you realize more ways that the year 2012 was traumatic for you

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myspace-y high-contrast outtake from a series of selfies i'll be using as an illustration for my upcoming zine

[femmefilth666-deactivated201610]

FEMME FILTH #1:  FEMME4FEMME // CALL FOR SUBMISSIONS

SO WHAT THE FUCK IS FEMME ANYWAYS?:  what does femme mean to you?  why do you identify as femme?  what do you feel the limitations & possibilities of femme are?  how do you think other people define femme?  what are some common misconceptions about femmes & femme communities you’d like to rip to shreds?

COMMUNITY:  what does femme4femme mean to you?  what importance &/or significance do femme friendships & relationships hold in your life/heart/communities?   do you feel even feel a sense of community?

RELATIONSHIPS:  what myths would you like to tear the fuck apart around femme relationships?  how do you experience femme4femme friendships, relationships, & communities?  what are their limits & potentials, esp. when it comes to femmes of color, poor & working class femmes, trans* femmes & femmes of all genders, femmes with disabilities, & so on?

GET CRAFTY (& A LITTLE DIRTY):  make anything & everything; all kinds of femme4femme erotica/smut, art, playlists, poetry & prose about femme4femme friendships & relationships of all sorts.

CELEBRATE:  why do femmes rock?  what do you love about being femme?  what do you love about other femmes & yr femme friends? why are femme4femme connections so fucking badass?

SHARE:  what advice or tips would you give to other femmes & femme loving femmes?  books to read?  music to listen to?  resources? blogs or zines to check out?  feel free to share whatever you love & want other femmes to have the opportunity to enjoy!

PS:  feel free to address any of these questions or make up your own!  express yourself in whatever medium you dig the most – whether that’s poetry & prose, collages, rants, raves, & so on!  do what works for you!

DEADLINE FOR SUBMISSIONS IS JUNE 1st, 2015.  SUBMIT ALL MATERIALS TO FEMMEFILTHZINE AT GMAIL DOT COM.

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

I want to submit to this, and also Hoax...will I have time?

[mostlyfiction]

No, no you can’t.

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

literally dying

[friendlyangryfeminist]

liberal environmentalists believe that responsible stewardship of the earth is possible alongside capitalism if we regulate capitalism enough

but capitalism, male violence and white supremacy are in exact opposition with creating truly sustainable farming practices so, this is why liberal enviromentalism has focused on the individual consumer as the possible savior rather than radical action

[gifbloggingthestruggle]

preachhhhh

[moosekleenex]

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Me After Watching 'Leslie and Ron'

[trolltina]

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how i feel about any dude i actually have an okay conversation with that doesn't follow up with me

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Whenever I feel guilty for taking up two subway seats with my heavy bags, I try to remind myself that mens' consciences are never racked with guilt when they spread their legs out to take up 2+ seats on the train