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gillian. 29. owner of wasteland

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theomorrison‌:

“Yeah, you made that clear,” he said dismissively, her own annoyance getting a rise out of him. Theo was never the type to lose his cool, but something about Gillian made that absolutely impossible to abide by. He’d been through everything; foster care, life on the road, being practically homeless at times, but it was the blonde who made him want to punch a wall — and that fact only made it worse. “Right. Until you do something to piss them off,” he narrowed his eyebrow, shaking his head at her next comment. Of course she would fucking bring that up. "I already told you I fucked up. I was high out of my fucking mind — you can’t seriously believe that I never cared about you. That’s bullshit and you know it.”

Gillian still didn’t understand why Theo was so invested in her life, it’s not like he had feelings for her, that wasn’t an option because in her mind Theo wasn’t capable of loving anyone other than himself, so he must have had another agenda, something she couldn’t figure out. “What a fucking stupid excuse,” She scoffed, shaking her head in disbelief. “All of those women on earth and you picked my sister to fuck when you were high, yet you expect me to believe you cared about me.” Gillian laughed bitterly. “Wow, the drugs truly consumed your tiny brain, didn’t they? That must be why you would expect such a thing.” 

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charlidelaney‌:

“I’ve got to give it to my mom for naming me Charli without an ‘E’ I can’t tell you how frustrating it is to tell businesses and people not to spell it the traditional way. I reckon it might be the new ‘Sarah-… with a ‘H’” only in my case it will be like “No, it’s not spelt incorrectly, it’s Charli without an ‘E’.” Anyways, I’m new to town so who is gonna be my companion in showing me around?”

Gillian watch the blonde, furrowing her brows -- was the other woman on crack? Given how much she rambled in less than a minute, Gillian thought so. “Um,” She paused to chuckle. “Do I know you?”

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violetta-westwood‌:

“I highly considered downloading Tinder and giving that a try but then I spent most of my lunch watching a Tinder date go from awkward to absolutely the worse thing ever. You could tell he was nervous and she was just on her phone the whole probably already finding another date on the app. Point is, I already gave up on online dating without giving it a try. Staying single forever sounds like the best idea right now.”

“Tinder is not for dating, it’s for fucking -- why don’t people want to understand this?” She sighed. “If the guy or the girl think you are fuckable, they swipe right and that’s about it.” Gillian chuckled. “Don’t blame the app, blame those two idiot for not understanding the concept.”

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oliverschulz‌:

“Oh you know, various reasons. One being that you can annoy me way too much at times and I gotta avoid that at all costs.” He teased, leaning in a bit closer to her. “Work and life, a little vague but that’s okay I don’t expect you to pour out every single detail to me but I am, however, a great listener. But me –you know, work and life. Same old same old.” He repeated her words, smirking. 

“In my defense, I annoy everybody, you just need to get used to it.” She shrugged, smirking as he leaned closer. “Honestly I would pour out everything if there was something to tell, you know me, I don’t hold back.” Her smirk grew. “Sounds like we have something in common, who knew?”

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oliverschulz‌:

Oliver always loved to mess with Gillian and push her buttons even if she did the same to him. Sometimes he didn’t tolerate, which he didn’t let show, but most of the times he could handle it. “I came to say hi so you don’t think I’m ignoring you. I’m not a stalker, I have better things to do than to stalk people. So, how have you been since I last saw you?”

“I wouldn’t think such a thing, why would you ignore me anyway?” She smirked, shrugging her shoulders. “That’s good to hear, I wouldn’t want to worry about a stalker.” Honestly some people were pathetic, they actually took their time and stalked other people -- like who does that? “I have been good, you know, busy with work and life,” She sighed. “How about you?”

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gabby-hess‌:

“Don’t get me wrong. I like pumpkin and all, but not everything has to be pumpkin flavored, just because Halloween is right around the corner.” Gabby held up a Durex condom packet, shaking her head in utter disbelief that the store would carry such a product. “Exhibit A.”

Gillian snorted a laugh, shaking her head in disbelief. “Seriously,” She took the condom from the brunette, taking a closer look. “Did they really make a pumpkin flavored condom so people could feel Halloween inside them? People are ridiculous.”

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theomorrison‌:

“What? I can’t call you ‘Gil’? The name I’ve always called you, since the day I fucking met you?” he snapped back, starting to get a bit heated over the entire conversation. His emotions were starting to get the better of him — a look that never suited him well. Theo internally questioned why he was letting the woman upset him so much, but he prevented himself from answering. Doing so would just uncover a much larger box of worms that he wasn’t a fan of. “I have, and I don’t believe it for a second. Who fucking wants to be alone? Who wants everyone to fucking hate them?” He shook his head at his next words, jaw clenched so tightly that it was starting to give him a bit of a headache. “You know that’s not true. Don’t be dramatic.”

“No, you can’t. I don’t know why you don’t want to understand -- you and I are done.”  Gillian rolled her eyes, shaking her head slowly. There was no way she would let him act like nothing had happened. “I am fine with being alone. It’s not end of the world,” Gillian shrugged nonchalantly. Honestly loneliness was overrated, it wasn’t something she couldn’t handle. “The people I care about like me and that’s more than enough.” Her eyes met his, she glared at him. A scoff left her lips after his next words, he was full of shit. “Um, I do know it’s true. If you’d cared about me, you wouldn’t have fucked my sister.”

[olivierassayas]

Blue Valentine (2010) dir. Derek Cianfrance

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#MOOD

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oliverschulz‌:

“Says who?” Oliver’s lips twitched up into a smirk as he scanned over Gillian. Sure they had quite their differences and dislike towards each other, but then again, somehow there were times they spent time together even if they wanted to kill each other. “Now, I don’t think it’s a coincidence we’re both at the same place. Say, are you stalking me now?” He teased. 

“Please..” Gillian scoffed playfully, rolling her eyes. Just because they had sex once doesn’t mean they started liking each other, she was aware of that. “Portland is not that big,” She started, shrugging. “Since you are the one who walked towards me, I think you are the stalker. Not me.”

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theomorrison‌:

“Whatever, Gil,” he scoffed, looking away for a moment as to not tip her off if he accidentally made some sort of facial expression. Calm, cool, aloof — that’s all he had to be, but it was proving harder than necessarily and Theo didn’t understand why. Or, maybe he did, but he just didn’t want to admit it to himself. He felt the conversation falling more sour, more somber as he heard the slight quake in her voice as she spoke. It was unnerving, to say the least, how a relationship so fiery and passionate could come to an end and leave such jagged marks. “Oh, I’ve moved on. You don’t gotta worry about that,” he scoffed, shaking his head as he crossed his arms. “I’m just realistic, Gillian. You piss everyone around you the fuck off and act like you’re better for it — who the hell do you think is gonna wanna deal with that? What person is gonna want to keep you around?”

“Don’t call me that,” Gillian said sharply, glaring at him. He didn’t get to call her with a nickname, they weren’t close anymore and she wanted to make sure Theo was aware of that. For once in her life, she wasn’t the one who screwed up, this was entirely his fault. Even though she knew she was in the right, it still hurt. “I am not worried. I don’t worry about you. I couldn’t care less,” Now she was just trying to hurt him. “I don’t want anyone to deal with that. Maybe I actually love being alone, have you ever thought about that?” She asked, shrugging her shoulders. His next words confused her, Gillian narrowed her eyes at him. “That’s not your concern. You don’t get to criticize me, you don’t get to act like you care about me because we both know you don’t. You probably never have.”

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theomorrison‌:

“Denial — that’s funny,” he snapped back, the facade of carelessness beginning to wear off the more she spoke. He could only bottle everything in for so long before his true colors came out, but he would fight himself tooth and nail to make sure that didn’t happen. The two would go at it like a couple of cats and dogs when they were together, but it was different back then. They understood each other; they would piss each other off, and then they would fuck and joke about it later. “If you say so,” the male raised an eyebrow as she began cackling, her words making him press his lips into a tight line to keep himself from saying anything that would express any kind of upset or angry feelings he was experiencing. “You’re not? Really? Considering in this whole town, I’m the only one who can fucking stomach you for more than five minutes — that’s what I would call pathetic.” 

“I know you want to believe that I missed you but I truly didn’t Theo,” Gillian shrugged her shoulders as if he didn’t mean anything to her. It wasn’t true though, he meant a lot to her but she’d rather die than admit that out loud, he didn’t deserve to know. It was pretty evident that Gillian hit a nerve because Theo sounded a lot more serious right now. And she didn’t know how to feel about it. Sure it was nice to get under his skin and all that jazz but Gillian didn’t want to see him caring, it was a lot better when he didn't care because then it’s easier to ignore him. “Yes, I am not.” Her voice started getting shakier, though she quickly put herself together and tried to sound nonchalant, “Well, if it is that pathetic, then it’s a good thing that you don’t need to stomach me anymore. Honestly, I have moved on from you. Why don’t you do yourself a favor and do the same?”

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theomorrison‌:

God, he was pissed off — but showing emotion only meant showing weakness, which is what he was trying to frame Gillian as. She was the weak one, not him. “Grasp? No. Believe? Yes,” he stated, with a shrug. He wasn’t sure if he believed that himself, but he didn’t need her to know that. “Oh, come on,” he smirked, standing up from his seat and beginning to move towards her. Theo didn’t exactly know what his end goal was, but he knew getting on her nerves was part of it. “Yeah? And who are you supposed to find then?” Theo quirked an eyebrow, stopping in place right in front of her so that he was practically towering over her small frame. “We’ll see about that, especially when you come crawling back to me when you realize you hate being alone.”

“Then you are in a bigger denial than I could ever imagine.” She mocked him with a laugh, shaking her head slowly. Gillian didn’t even blink once he rose from his seat and started moving towards her, she didn’t take a step back. This was a sick game between them, they always liked getting on each others’ nerves, which would’ve been fine if he hadn’t cheated on her with Sally because Gillian was the type who would stomach Theo’s antics. “I am not supposed to find anyone.” She shrugged her shoulders, looking up at him. His next words made Gillian start laughing hysterically, as if he said the world’s funniest joke. “Oh my God,” She said between her snorts, “And here I thought you actually know me. I am not like you Theo,” She started, still laughing. “I don’t mind being alone. You, on the other hand, can not live without someone’s attention. It’s pathetic.”

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jasminsterling‌:

“At least I have an ass, bae.” She said as she gladly moved “Go on.”

“Yes you do. A giant one.” Gillian said with a smirk before she leaving the brunette alone and entered in the nearest coffee shop.

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jasminsterling‌:

“Whatever you have to say just save it”

“You are blocking my way, move your giant ass so I can walk.”

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theodorevbaudelaire‌:

To be honest, I’m not the right person to ask. I don’t use these kind of applications since I don*t need them. You don’t look like you would, either.

“I don’t need those applications either. Whenever I want to hook up with a stranger, I just go to the nearest bar and find a hot guy or girl.” She shrugged. “It’s honestly that easy.”

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coltcnevans‌:

“I don’t think we hang out enough, Gillian,” Colton stated, dipping one of his fries into his ketchup. “We’re a lot alike, ‘cept I don’t think it’s fun or anything I just really don’t want to be bothered half the time, hurt feelings or not. People need to respect space and introverts.”

“We sure don’t. You are too busy with your little bees and I am busy with looking for filthy old clothes in thrift stores.” She chuckled, resting her hands on the table. “You are indifferent, which is worse for some people.” Especially for Gillian but she wasn’t going to expose her weakness, he didn’t need to know. “That I agree. Did something happen recently?”