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forever needing a never ending high

[glvssshvrds]

sometimes i get sad and wish it would get better but you don’t care and im not sure that you ever did

-for the first time you went to bed without telling me you love me

[glvssshvrds]

when does it end? i’m tired of my eyes being flooded with sadness. my stomach in knots and my chest empty.

- it’s 1:28 in the morning and i don’t recognize my reflection

[mournfulroses]

Nikolay Punin, from a diary entry featured in The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904 - 1953

[glvssshvrds]

i sleep a lot now because you visit me in my dreams and there i can pretend that i never lost you

[glvssshvrds]

i regret falling in love.

i regret letting you in.

i regret allowing you to destroy me.

all i wanted was for you to not hate me.

[glvssshvrds]

blinded by sadness i cannot see, hoping to find the answer i need in the bottom of a bottle or at the end of a pack of cigarettes but the only thing that lies there is emptiness and regret

[glvssshvrds]

our “this is it” moment is getting close and i feel like im standing in a room with the oxygen being slowly sucked out. i can’t bear to let you go because I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING IS THIS WHAT I DESERVE?

[glvssshvrds]

and i will beg on my hands and knees for you to come back to me. you will take a piece of me and because of that i will never be whole again.

[glvssshvrds]

i will never recover from this. there’s a hole in my chest too big to repair. bruises on my heart that will never go away. my head is on fire and i can do nothing but stand in the mirror and watch it burn.

[glvssshvrds]

i stay and let you treat me poorly because i prefer that over nothing at all

[glvssshvrds]

is this what love is?

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