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Long time no post! Well since this was a pretty momentous occasion I decided to break my GTL dry spell and give you guys the whole shabang on how this baby came into the world. Photos featured here are my last ever preg photo, Sen running wild in front of our tree which happened to be his last moments as an only child, the Ward boys and Rhys! Here we go!ā¦.
Wednesday, December 20th: Routine doc appointment to find out I was 2.5cm dilated AND the doc wanted me to head to triage for borderline high blood pressure. They ran additional tests and none of the other tests indicated I had preeclampsia so they let me go home. While in triage the nurse had me hooked up to monitors to find I was having contractions that were 3-4 minutes apart and were about a minute long. I wasnāt feeling these contractions so went about my business.
Thursday, December 21st: Sen and I woke up with colds. Boo!! I did start feeling funky this morning but wasnāt feeling contractions and chalked it up to getting a cold. I worked from home that morning and made Sen & I some veggie soup to kick the colds. That afternoon Scott, Sen and I went to pick up our Christmas tree and to Whole Foods for an epic shopping trip to stock up on food for my parents coming to town and in case the baby was to arrive. I wasnāt due until Dec 27th so was still convinced I was going to have a New Years baby. While Christmas tree shopping I did notice 2 contractions that made me curious if the baby would come sooner. We literally galavanted all over Oakland that afternoon then went home to have dinner and a family dance party around our 1st fam x-mas tree and I went to bed at 9pm still oblivious to what my bod was up to. Then , at 11pm I woke up to a serious contraction. For the next hour I barely kept tract of the timing between the contractions that were uncomfortable but not painful and tried to rest and just breathe.
Friday, December 22nd: At midnight I was convinced the baby would be here by morning but I was playing it cool and still breathing through the contractions. No profanity yet. I got up to pee around 12:30 and my water broke in the toilet (thank god) so that is when the contractions started getting crazy. I yelled for Scott and he started putting my hospital bag in the car and got Sen out of bed. Had the baby arrived a day later my parents would have been in town to watch Sen but since they werenāt there yet he had to join in on the fun. I jumped in the shower (why? Self? Why?) and think the shower made everything speed up more. Also, why shower when you will just lose control of all bodily function and shit your pants as your husband is driving 100 on the freeway to the hospital as you are screaming like a wild banshie ??? Thank god for the lack of cops in the Oakland hills so that we avoided getting pulled over. So yes. Anywho, let me back up to the shower. The only position that was comfortable while having contractions was on all fours. So for like 30 seconds I could stand and wash my hair and then had to get on all fours again, and again, and again in our driveway. I have no recollection of making it from the shower to the car other than thinking I was about to give birth in our front yard. Miraculously we were finally in route when barely driving down our street and scott stops the car and gets out and Iām like WHAT THE FUCK? Well I guess the left over x-mas tree twine had wrapped around his ankle during all this and was also caught on our wheel so yeah, Scott could have also amputated his foot during this whole process. Welcome to the world Rhys! Welcome to your footless dad and mom that poops on you. Okok ⦠I must back up again cause that didnāt happen (the pooping yes but amputated foot no.) Scott quickly removed the twine and we were on our way shortly after 1am. Here is where I pay homage to my skilled raced car driver of a husband. He kept his cool and I was out of my mind. I was a pot and the baby was boiling water and I could feel the baby move down through my body as Scott was going 100. I donāt recall consciously pushing but wouldnāt doubt if I was. Regardless, mid drive I pooped my pants and had to yell about it during a contraction and made Scott laugh. From that point on it was only 5 minutes till we would arrive at the hospital. Upon pulling up to the hospital I was relieved and horrified. Scott ran for a wheel chair for me and came out and got me. Upon moving from the car to the chair I felt the babyās head come out and started freaking because Scott was wheeling me to labor and delivery but Sen was still in the car. I was screaming about my baby but not the one being born in my pants but the one left alone in the car in the dark. Luckily the nurses took over my wheel chair and Scott went back to grab Sen but that moment was just very heart breaking for me. The nurses wheeled me into room #1 and rolled me onto my side and ripped my pants off. I pushed once and the baby was out. Scott and Sen missed the birth by 1 minute since he had to go back to the car to grab Sen. We arrived at the hospital around 1:23 and Rhys was born at 1:26. Rhys arrived with the cord wrapped around his neck 3 times and a knot in the cord. Had I not been so lucky with 1.5 hours of hard and fast labor I canāt even imagine what the outcome would of been. Once he arrived and we realized what a bullet we had dodged a calm and overwhelming feeling of gratitude washed over me. Since this moment I still feel this along with the adrenaline and exhaustion of such an intense experience. Itās profound and there are no words to describe.
Scott and Sen were so amazing during the experience. They were both so calm and positive and amazingly kept their composure the entire time. Sen wasnāt worried and never cried out of fear but just asked Scott āis mommy ok?ā It still baffles me. When the doc was fixing me back up after having the baby he was so well behaved and just calmly watched the doc while Scott explained that the doctor was helping mommy. I mean, heās 2, and it was 2am. Heās such a good kid. If Rhys is half as good as Sen Iām a lucky mom.
Lastly, I did it! I hadnāt made the decision to go natural until later in the pregnancy. Around 36 weeks I decided I had to do more yoga and practice labor poses every night before bed and I did. Every night for about 40 mins Iād turnoff the lights and light a candle and do every squat position known to mankind and just get my yoga groove on. I really think this was the key to my quick delivery. On the flip side I never would have had time to get an epidural. Now as I type this at 1am with a newborn in my arms I feel very happy and lucky I have the yoga knowledge and experience that helped get me through this. While I am looking forward to getting my bod back in order I donāt feel so anxious about it as I did with Sen. My bod intuitively got me through this cause I practiced and remained healthy and it will get back to normal in due time. Also, as much as I loved my epidural with Sen it made my recovery so much slower. Iām already feeling like my bod is healing and am not even a week postpartum yet.
So there you have it Goldies! Love you all! Merry Christmas 2017!!
HGP
I've had these awesome pieces of luggage for years and am finally ready to pass them along. They are in great vintage condition inside and out with only minor flaws due to use and age. Really nice...
WE ALL NEED MATCHING GRANNY SUITCASES ASAP! <3Ā
Hi. Here's a pic of me and Frankie as dudes, Frankie just being cute and getting a new tooth, and me showcasing my bang-less forehead with a Snapchat filter that makes me look 4000 times better than real life. Miss yous. ā¤
No New Years Resolutions this year! Just going to work hard and try to keep up with this growing & active lunatic of a toddler. Something happened while we were in Seattle...like he grew up all of the sudden and is a true little boy. He officially is into everything. It's constant opening & closing drawers & doors, pulling contents out and placing contents in random spots strewn about the house, running around, dancing, playing with all objects except his toys, up stairs, down stairs, moving furniture that he can push with his body weight, chasing the kitties and the dogs...etc. Pretty much all our animals run into the other room when Sen appears as he makes them all nervous. Eek! HGP
Wow guys really getting cozy with both Scott's and my sides of the fam during this holiday! Today I took a pink bath which made me feel like a unicorn. As you can see I've also been eating like a unicorn....ahhhhem....my sister's homemade kolaches which are pure magic. To work off all of the holiday treats I've been pulling Sen up and down the snowing hill in the back of my parents house in the tiny toboggan. The cold air on filling my lungs has been exhilarating. Hope ya'll are having the time of your lives as well. Miss your faces! Love, HGP
Excited to see Dina Martina this week and see JLK in buttcracker last week! Massaging PNB for nutcracker too. On a school break til January so it's the month of shows for me. Haven't written in awhile and love seeing your posts here. Miss you Goldie's so so much and yearn for a reunion day soon. Gotta meet that babercorn and see all the kiddos growing up. Love and merriment, GoldieGettinRoundInTheWaistFromXmasCandy
Make up and freshly washed no make up with jojoba sheen. Back on the jojoba oil guys. It's been dreamy for my skin and hairs & I haven't been as acne prone or having weird dry patches. Here is my HGP holiday update: 1) I am not decorating for the holidays for like the 5th year in a row. I love all of your cozy decor pix so post more so I can live vicariously. I like the idea of decorating but just never seem to get around to it with everything else that gets busy this time of year. 2) Today I really stepped outside of my comfort zone and went to a Holiday party where I almost knew next to no one and I went by myself. It was a real estate office's party. Everyone was super nice. I drank 1 glass of wine ate chocolate cake and danced to Purple Rain with an 80 year old woman and a gay Asian man in a sequin sport coat. I guess wherever I go I find my tribe. After dancing I figured I had ended the night on a high note so was home and in my PJs by 10pm. 3) Listening to Purple Rain made me nostalgic and sad and happy all at the same time. 4) Yesterday I had a massage & body scrub for the first time in over a year. I'm not waiting that long again for my next massage. 5) Miss you guys!!! Wish we could all gather for a holiday cuddle puddle. HGP
Decorations complete! (All but the boys trees in their rooms).
Toddlers are really difficult to take pictures of as they are always moving. Exhibit 1: A rare moment where I caught Sen on his back. Exhibit 2: Naked toddler running away from me. Exhibit 3: Baby in a bar and loving life. He kinda looks like he is picking up chicks in this pic. And yes! We need to get together! I will try to put my planning skills together soon. Reunion early summer 2017? HGP
Can we all see each other soon or what!
Iām still so fucking depressed since Nov 9. Iām in emotional limbo. I feel helpless. What can I do? I want to bury myself in Lifetime Christmas movies and Danish butter cookies, but it doesnāt squelch that deeply seated feeling of despair and hopelessness. Since Iām still breastfeeding I canāt go on a super dramatic 1980ās coke binge. So food and Dolly Parton movies are my drugs.
Eventually Iāll find a healthier outlet for my rage, but in the meantime Iām allowing myself to FEEL IT ALL.
Fuck the patriarchy.
ManderMom
The "Cancer Rising" in me is so freaked out right now guys. My house is being held hostage by two aging & hairball ridden felines, dirty dusty dogs that drag their feet and scratch the floors, a wild little urchin being raised by said dogs, and my Procrastinating Pig Pen husband spreading peanut butter and jelly on cabinets whilst sleep eating since before we lived together. I should of known. The root of my dismay stems from my drier being broken for like 3 months now and we either have to hang things up to dry or go to the laundromat. To top it off stupid Pig Pen tore the drier apart and purchased parts to fix the damn thing almost two months ago but rather than figuring it out and moving on with our lives the fucking drier is strewn about in pieces in the basement. Not to mention this tiny rental home is old and it doesn't matter how much I clean it never feels clean. But, all things aside, I think I could at least feel balanced again if my fucking drier was working. Fucking men. Ok. Rant over. HGP
Ugh.
I've been so emotional this week. It's the final days of maternity leave and I've treasured every little moment with my baby boy. Squishing his arms, wrapping my entire body around his and inhaling his sweet smell (which is Cream of Wheat with extra butter), feeling his chubby hand stroke my chest while he nurses, his huge gummy smile. I'm looking forward to getting back to a routine, but saying goodbye to this chapter has been bittersweet. This is probably my last baby, and he will never be this tiny again. I've also realized I am ready to leave San Francisco. I love this city and consider it home, but I'm done living in a city. I don't want to deal with the crazies anymore, the sidewalk poop, the insane homeless problem that's existed for decades and no one will do anything about it, the stupid high rent, the traffic, and everyone's anxiety. I am ready to move to a smaller, peaceful place with a slower pace. Somewhere I can stroll and coast and just enjoy friends and family and nature. Don't know where, don't know when. In the meantime, I'll keep being positive and will continue to love this beautiful city by the bay. Finally, I'm now actively working on losing the babe weight. It's been so much harder than I thought it would be. Having a 9 pound baby at 36 is different than having a 2 pound baby at 21. I gained like 60 pounds with Frankie. I just threw caution to the wind and ate all the comfort foods. So I'm on day 7 of the 21 day fix and it's helping. I have a long way to go. I've noticed with great curiosity that my attitude towards my appearance is sooooo different than it used to be. I give very few fucks. I'm extra curvy right now and don't mind leaving the house totally barefaced and wearing yesterday's clothes. It's a slippery slope I'm sure. Like, I don't wanna let myself go. At the same time...NO ONE IS LOOKING AT ME OR CARES. I can't tell if I'm liberated or depressed. Love, ManderCorn P.S. Should I get a pot card?
So this election is really nothing to joke around about but you all know I love Garbage Pale Kids so here you go. Also, here is proof that my baking fetish is still alive. Pictured here (bad photo) was my attempt at a tahini chocolate cake with tahini buttercream made for our neighborhood's block party.....except I imagined that I had tahini....I got home from the store and couldn't find my so called tahini anywhere so used a smaller amount of peanut butter so it wouldn't take over the flavor and it was delish. I also made my bi-weekly Chunka muffin..which is always some variation of sugarless & fruitful mini- muffins with oat flour I make and freeze for Sen's breakfasts or snacks. This week's muffin was a Carmelized banana & oat muffin made with oat & whole wheat flour with coconut and dehydrated strawberries. Ok. That's all she wrote! Have to get up early and go to the laudromat as my drier is still not fixed....but that's a story for another day. š HGP.
5 things about me right now: 1) I don't remember the last time I have watched TV. It's really hard to catch a show with a lil baby/toddler. I'm dreaming about taking a week off where I also have a nanny and can watch ALL the Stranger Things episodes and other random Netflix stuff. Simple. I know. 2) Also daydreaming bout my parent's beautiful autumn kissed back yard. I just want to hang out there and drink wine. Also with a nanny and on a vacation... 3) How great it would be to throw my phone in the Bay. 4)I'm obsessed about baking right now. It started with healthy stuff for Sen but I quickly strayed to the dark side of sugar cookies & cakes. It started with Apple & pear muffins then banana yogurt oat muffins, Sen's peach, banana, coconut birthday cake, then healthy oatmeal cups(bleh) and coconut dark chocolate bread(yummm) and pumkin bread and most recently white choc, dehydrated blueberries & oatmeal cookies. It's all I ever think about. I think it's a bit of an escape for me right now as well. 5) My new fave snack is white choc chips & dehydrated strawberries. Almonds is also good in this combo. I just like a few nibbles at a time. Ok. G'nite! Love, lil burnt out & tired, HGP Ps. I'm sick of all the sirens in Oakland. Yep. There I said it.