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[ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 1]

Yugun expected his first morning at St. Lilium to be unpleasant. The Patient-Scholar pamphlet waiting on his desk had already dressed the threat as care. He did not expect Ha Ian at his door with breakfast, his medication, and the newly acquired title of assigned guide. So this was how the academy meant to keep him alive. Before lunch, a fern had moved without being touched, the library had surrendered another piece of blue lace, and Yugun had finally worn through the last polished layer of Ian’s patience. “Because this place is toxic, Yugun.” Finally, something honest. Then Ian kept talking.

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 2 ── .✦

By morning, the pamphlet had dried into a curl.

Yugun had found it under his water glass, swollen at the corner where condensation had eaten through the academy seal. The crest lily had blurred first. Its petals ran into the inked circle around it, blue-black at the edges.

He took this as the pamphlet’s first honest statement.

His room had been warm all night in the expensive, impersonal way of old buildings trying to pass an inspection. Heat knocked through the radiator in irregular fits, then vanished long enough for the floorboards to remember winter. Someone had left the curtains open before he arrived. Pale sun pressed itself through the glass and picked out every gleaming surface, the brass lamp, the lacquered desk, the narrow wardrobe with its carved lily handles. Even the medicine tray beside the kettle had been arranged, three brown bottles standing in height order beside a folded card.

WELLNESS IS A SHARED PRACTICE.

Yugun had turned the card face-down before sleeping.

Now it showed the blank cream of its back, which was only a minor improvement.

He sat on the edge of the bed and waited for his ribs to decide. The first inhale caught high under his sternum. The second went further, scraped, held. He kept one hand loose on his knee, the room didn’t need to know the difference.

His phone lay on the blanket. Eight (and counting) unread messages from Kyungbin had stacked through the night, the concern getting harder to disguise as a joke.

Kyung:

how’d ur first day go🥳🥳🥳

Kyung:

u alive blink twice if u slipped and fell into salad coffin ⏱️🎶 do do do doooo do do doooo ...that’s jeopardy btw ... [mAnY UnbeArbLe HouRs L8err] so I mapped it and I’m five mins away by oober... 17 min if I walked anyway just say the word and I’ll be there🌝💢🔊🔊👯‍♀️

Yugun didn’t say the word. He only pressed his thumb over the dark screen until his own reflection disappeared under the smudge.

The academy had given him a room on the east side of Saint Lilium House, which Sora had called “a kindness,” dropping into the brochure voice for exactly the one word and out again. The east rooms caught morning light and sat closest to the infirmary, with wider doors, no stairs between bed and bath, and a discreet brass pull-cord beside the headboard.

He had spent ten minutes before dawn tying the pull-cord into a knot built to offend the wallpaper.

It hung there now, stiff with spite.

Across the room, the pamphlet lifted one curled corner.

He watched it from the bed.

The radiator ticked twice. Water clicked inside the pipes. Somewhere beyond the wall, another student laughed, the sound muffled by plaster. A cart rolled down the corridor with a soft clatter of china. Breakfast, probably. Medicine, maybe.

Yugun stood too quickly, which was his own fault and therefore none of the academy’s business. Black crowded the sides of his vision. He caught the bedpost with two fingers, waited it out, and used the pause to inspect the carving like he had meant to do that.

The lily at the top had been sanded smooth by years of hands. Students had gripped it through fever, bad sleep, homesick mornings, whatever private disasters Lilium House preferred not to document. The academy had polished the evidence until it passed for shine.

When the black withdrew from the edges of his vision, he crossed to the desk.

The pamphlet’s title had survived the water.

LILIUM ACADEMY ᯽ Patient-Scholar Orientation A Guide to Health, Conduct, and Common Practice

Someone had embossed the words hard enough for the letters to leave shadows in the paper. Yugun dragged the chair out with his foot and sat, the raw, metallic taste of a bad cough waiting in his mouth, and beside him the kettle held water at the academy’s preferred temperature, warm enough to suggest care and too bland to accuse anyone of it.

He left it alone.

The first pages belonged to the academy. Founder’s welcome. Student pledge. And a winter photograph of the conservatory, glass ribs bright with sun, orchids wired neatly into their brackets. Then came gratitude for benefactors, a reminder about discretion, and a paragraph on “participating actively in one’s wellness culture,” which sounded like getting sick under faculty supervision.

Yugun turned the page.

A list waited near the middle, printed in smaller type.

Successful Patient-Scholars typically demonstrate: Consistent cooperation with clinical observation – Respect for privacy protocols and restricted spaces – Openness to botanical-adjunct therapies – Maturity regarding bodily change – Appropriate trust in assigned peer guides – Gratitude toward sponsoring families and institutional caretakers

He read the list twice. Each line found a different place to press.

Cooperation. Privacy. Openness. Maturity. Trust. Gratitude.

Even the brochure had the nerve to sound pleased with itself. Apparently, silver spoons fed the damn paper too.

He reached for the kettle, then stopped with his fingers around the handle. Ian had filled it last night. Ian had set the cup near the desk instead of beside the bed, which meant he had understood at least one thing about Yugun and chosen not to perform it.

Hospitals put everything within reach. Water at the elbow, call button under the thumb, the whole room folded toward the mattress so the body never had to prove it could stand. He had spent two springs learning that arrangement from the inside, and Kyungbin still practiced it; the glass angled toward him, the remote nudged closer, small corrections he never called out. Ian had put the cup where Yugun would have to stand to get it.

One day of watching, and a stranger had unlearned what his own brother hadn’t.

Yugun tightened his grip. Even pouring the water felt like handing Ian a thank-you note.

He tipped the kettle anyway.

Steam rose thinly, mineral-sweet, and brought the fountain back with it: water slipping from marble fish in its disciplined arc, Ian’s hand lowering before Yugun could refuse it in public.

He drank too fast and paid for it. The swallow dragged heat down and woke the cough under his ribs. He turned his face into his shoulder before it came. The first cough bent him forward. The second knocked his knuckles against the cup. Porcelain clicked against wood, small and bright. He kept his other hand flat on the pamphlet until the paper stopped shifting under his palm.

By the time he could breathe cleanly again, one line near the bottom of the page had darkened.

REPORT UNUSUAL BOTANICAL RESPONSIVENESS IMMEDIATELY TO YOUR ASSIGNED GUIDE.

Yugun stared at it.

The ink hadn’t moved. The water ring had reached that far, and wet paper warped. Swelled. Pulled letters crooked. Fine. A cheap accident on expensive materials. The academy embarrassing itself at cost.

He read it once more anyway, wiping the corner with his sleeve.

The sentence stayed.

Shit.

Two taps at the door, light, too evenly spaced. Yugun closed the pamphlet on his finger.

“Brought you some breakfast,” Ian said from the corridor.

Because why wouldn’t the academy send a balanced breakfast with the embodiment of a perfectly balanced student. Yugun glanced at the pull-cord, still knotted beside the bed. He hadn’t used it.

“Just leave it outside.”

A pause. “It has medicine with it.”

“Then tell it to make friends.”

Ian didn’t answer right away. Yugun had known Ha Ian less than a day and already understood this much: the boy did not fidget where anyone could see. His restraint had seams. They showed in the pauses.

“The nurse asked me to confirm you took the morning dose.”

“What the hell? Are you even allowed to administer medication? The nurse can develop a personality and ask me herself.”

“She tried. And I can if it’s not a controlled substance.”

Yugun’s finger pressed harder into the pamphlet.

Ian added, quieter, “You were asleep.”

That shouldn’t have softened anything. It did not soften anything. Yugun removed his finger before the page could crease around it.

The kettle steam thinned into morning. Ian stood beyond the door with a breakfast tray and a nurse's errand. The pamphlet sat where he'd pinned it.

Yugun opened the pamphlet again.

The darkened line remained.

‘Assigned guide.’

The guide in question was waiting in the corridor to be let in.

He smiled.

“Fine,” he said. "Come in, Angelos."

The handle turned.

Ian entered, held the tray level in both hands, black gloves buttoned at the wrist, hair combed smooth enough to qualify as institutional compliance. The morning flashed on his watch chain and disappeared under his cuff.

His eyes went first to Yugun's face.

Then the cup.

Then the pamphlet.

Then, very carefully, nowhere at all.

There. Caught.

Ian knew the page. He gave the knowledge exactly one second, then set the tray on the desk without a sound.

One second. That was all Yugun got. Porcelain ought to click. A spoon ought to shift. Ian set each piece down separately, and nothing in his face changed again.

By the time he finished, the tray had been arranged down to the inch. Rice porridge, preserved plum. Two pale tablets in a paper cup. A glass vial of something amber and medicinal beside a spoon polished so bright it held the window.

No coffee.

Lilium had enemies and knew how to wound them.

Ian removed one glove by the fingertips and folded it into his palm. The bare hand was more formal than the covered one. A thin mark crossed the inside of his wrist where the cuff had rubbed, or where something else had. Yugun was looking. Ian pulled the sleeve lower.

“Morning dose,” Ian said.

Yugun tapped the pamphlet once. “Assigned guide.”

Ian kept his attention off the page. The set of his mouth answered for him.

“It’s only standard language.”

“Oh, is that what we’re calling it?”

“It applies to all Patient-Scholars.”

“That’s convenient. I was worried the academy had run out of ways to make me feel included.”

Ian’s thumb pressed the folded glove flat, once, then went still.

“The guide system is meant to prevent confusion.”

“Then it’s already failing.”

The radiator knocked behind them, one hard metallic complaint. Steam loosened from the porridge and carried the smell of rice, ginger, salt, something herbal hiding under all that gentleness. Yugun’s stomach tightened. He ignored it.

Ian picked up the paper cup with the tablets and set it within reach, no closer. An order would have been easier. Yugun could have refused one on instinct. Ian left the cup there and waited.

Yugun didn’t touch the cup.

“What happens if I report botanical responsiveness?”

Ian slid his glove into his coat pocket. The motion bought him half a breath.

“A nurse evaluates you.”

“And then?”

“If needed, a physician.”

“And then?”

“The finding is added to your wellness file.”

A curt laugh slipped out of Yugun. He shook his head once. “That is seriously annoying.”

Ian paused with the glove half-tucked into his pocket. “What is?”

“That I’m disregarded to the point a plant gets a file before I get an answer.”

For a moment, all he heard was the radiator and the distant roll of the breakfast cart moving on to someone easier. Ian stood with the window behind him, morning cutting a pale line along his shoulder.

“The file is for your safety,” Ian said.

Yugun leaned back in the chair, and the angle pulled hard through his ribs. He held it anyway. “That sentence should be illegal at orientation.”

“It was not meant to frighten you..”

“Most things here seem very proud of what they were meant to do. My disinterest in this place’s bullshit is so fucking tangible you could make bricks out of it.”

Ian’s fingers found the rim of the tray, then stopped before they could straighten the spoon. “You should eat before taking those.”

“You should stop saying things like you’re reading them off the back of my skull.”

“I’m trying to help.”

“Are you, though?”

Where most people rushed to patch a question like that, Ian didn’t defend himself. He only stood there, letting the quiet continue until Yugun stopped trusting it.

Outside, a bell rang from somewhere deep in Saint Lilium House. It wasn’t the chapel bell from yesterday’s tour. This one rang lower, practical, for schedules and bodies. Doors opened along the corridor. Student voices gathered and thinned, laughter breaking into smaller pieces as people passed.

Ian’s attention went to the hall. He waited until the nearest voices had moved on.

“You coughed this morning,” he said.

Yugun’s hand closed around the pamphlet. The damp corner bent under his thumb.

Ian added, “I heard it from the corridor.”

“Congratulations on having ears.”

“The nurse will ask.”

“Then tell her I performed a traditional greeting for the radiator.” He picked up the paper cup and shook the tablets into his palm. “You don’t get to sound concerned and official at the same time. Pick a damn lane.”

Ian’s face gave him nothing. The hand at his side tightened, then released.

“I’m not official.”

Yugun took in the black coat, the watch chain, the tie pin set dead straight, the school crest catching light at his cuff. “Isn’t that adorable.”

Color climbed high over Ian’s cheekbones. A second later, it was gone.

Yugun chuckled. “You’re one third kind of official, one third actually concerned, and one eighth suspicious intentions. What’s left, I’m guessing, must be brains.”

He swallowed the tablets dry because he had chosen spite before common sense. They stuck halfway down, bitter and chalky. He reached for the water too late.

Maybe that was karma for being an ass this early in the morning. It was worth it.

Ian had already moved the glass closer, leaving the last inch to Yugun again. Yugun took it and drank, furious with the timing and the accuracy of it. Ian turned toward the window and granted him the privacy of recovery without making a gift of it. The water tasted faintly of minerals and lilies.

Yugun lowered the glass. Ian was still looking at the window too carefully.

“What?”

“Nothing.”

He folded his arms. “Try that again?”

Ian looked from the damp line across Yugun’s fingers to his face.

Something ticked at the window.

Both of them turned.

On the sill, the fern had shifted toward the desk. Only a few degrees, but one frond had lifted from the others, its tip angled toward the water glass.

Ian’s weight settled evenly over both feet.

The fern was small, decorative, academy-approved, and set in a white ceramic pot with a brass label no larger than a name tag. It should have been the least threatening object in the room. All clean, bright-green leaves and nothing else. The sort of thing bought in bulk to make illness seem less lonely.

Another frond lifted.

Yugun put the glass down.

Ian stepped between Yugun and the sill with his usual ease, but Yugun had been watching all morning for the moments it slipped.

“There,” he said softly. “That seems reportable, right?”

The corridor to the Founder’s Library ran cold at the far end and warm near the doors, and Yugun walked the warm side because his ankle had opinions about the rest. He kept one shoulder near the wall, close enough to borrow it.

Students moved past him in both directions. A boy went by complaining about a chemistry problem set he hadn’t finished. Two girls split a pastry and dropped crumbs on the stone. A breakfast cart rattled toward the residence wing, its wheels catching the same loose tile every time, a small clack Yugun started waiting for before it came.

The board hung outside the library doors in a brass frame, glass-fronted, polished clean. A printed sheet sat behind it.

CONSERVATORY STUDY — WINTER ROTATION

He found his name in the third column.

BAEK YUGUN — PATIENT-SCHOLAR — ACCESSION (SUPERVISED)

He read it twice. The word sat there in the same neat type as everyone else’s, which was the bitch of it. Nobody else’s row had a word in parentheses. A third-year slowed at the board, ran his finger down to a different column, and clocked Yugun’s row on the way past. He didn’t stop. His face stayed arranged in the careful nothing Lilium students practiced between classes.

Mother fu–

“They put you on the ledgers.”

Sora arrived at his shoulder without much warning. The spider sat crooked against her collar, repinned since yesterday and no straighter for it. She scanned the board, found his row, and didn’t pretend she hadn’t.

“Third column,” she said. “Supervised.”

Yugun’s mouth pinched. “I can read, y’know.”

“Sure, but you read that one and decided to have a feeling about it in the third column where everyone could watch. Bold move, sir.”

A door opened down the corridor and let out a wash of voices, then shut and took them back.

“Supervised is a normal word,” Yugun countered.

“It’s a normal word the school doesn’t hand out for nothing.” Sora touched the glass over the parenthesis, then took her finger back and left a small smudge on the clean surface. “New transfers get a rotation. They don’t get a minder written into it on day two.”

"Maybe I made an impression."

"Maybe you did." Sora turned toward him fully, one shoulder coming off the board. "The orchid yesterday? You noticed. I noticed. Whoever writes these noticed, too. Try not to glow about it."

Her fingertip landed beside his row again.

Yugun nudged it off the glass with one knuckle. "I don't make concessions to the masses."

"If you did I'd find you half as interesting." Sora tipped her head, delighted. The little menace.

Yugun let his hand drop from the glass and shifted his elbow back.

She stepped neatly into the space before he could reconsider it.

"I won't contain myself for you," he said.

"I'm terribly bored today, anyway."

Sora settled beside him, shoulder against the wall, blue velvet nearly touching his sleeve.

"You're in my space."

She moved at once. Barely half a step. Enough to leave air between them.

"Very noted," Sora said. "Received, recognized, and duly considered with the utmost gravity."

Yugun pressed his lips together. The laugh still got as far as his nose.

She had moved first. The rest was cover, so he wouldn't have to say anything about it.

"Thanks." The word came out quieter than he meant it to. He straightened a little, trying to recover. "And don't forget it."

"It is now firmly imprinted upon my rational essence."

He knew that cadence--from The Lies of Locke Lamora. He'd read the same book twice.

He smiled despite himself.

Sora tucked her hands behind her back and turned toward the board. Black hair slipped forward over the blue velvet at one shoulder. Behind them, the cart found the loose tile again and kept going.

Yugun’s attention shifted down the corridor. “Who writes these?”

Sora opened her mouth, stopped, and pressed her thumb against the spider. Its legs shifted under her lace collar and found their places again, one crooked against her windpipe.

The thing knew where it lived.

“The office that likes new and interesting students,” she said. “So stop being interesting.”

The library doors opened from the inside.

Cold came out first, the dry old cold that had eased his lungs yesterday and did it again now. His next breath came easier, and that made him trust the room less. Comfort that arrived before he asked came with a wristband and someone else deciding the terms.

Inside, the long table had been set for work. A pair of cotton gloves folded at one place. A blotter. A flat ribbon weight for holding pages open. The accession ledger sat closed at the center, its clasp lying open against the cover before anyone had touched it.

A student already worked at the far end, a third-year copying entries into a card index with the slow misery of someone serving out an hour. He looked up, set Yugun against the board in his memory, and went back to his cards. His pencil kept scratching. Somewhere over their heads a class let out, and feet crossed the upstairs floor in a long careless drag of sound.

Ian stood at the catalog wall with his back to the door.

He turned when the draft reached him. Coat buttoned, gloves on, tie pin set perfectly straight. He had come from the dead end of some corridor and brought the temperature of it on his coat.

“You found the board,” Ian said.

“It found me. I’m supervised, apparently.”

“You’re on the accession rotation.” Ian crossed to the table and set a second ribbon weight beside the gloves, near the chair, angled just inside the clean spill of lamplight. “Sit where the lamp’s good. You’ll be reading small hands all morning.”

Yugun sat. The chair took the pressure off his ankle, which was reason enough without giving Ian credit for arranging it.

“Rules,” Ian said. “You work from the index first. Verify each name against its card before you touch the ledger. Nothing leaves the table. And nothing leaves the room.”

“You said most of that yesterday.”

“I’m saying it where Mr. Sohn can hear.” Ian tipped his head at the third-year, who did not look up. “Supervised work has Quality Assurance. We maintain a level of integrity. That’s every profession, it’s what the school is also preparing us for.”

“Mm. In case the record gets ideas later.”

Ian’s thumb pressed the edge of his cuff. “It does, when nobody watches it get written.”

Yugun pulled on the gloves and started where he’d been told. Doing the permitted thing first gave him cover for everything else.

The cards were old, soft at the corners, each one a name and a year and a category in the same neat hand. He worked down the column. A Cattleya hybrid, an accession number, a date. A student name beside a notation he didn’t have the key for. Another. The third-year’s pencil scratched. The good radiator ticked through its cycle and the bad one stayed quiet.

His shadow crossed the open drawer of cards, and the lace woke under it.

It came up pale along the backs of three cards, fine and frostlike, branching into the shape of letters that had been struck through and filed anyway. The same growth from the ledger yesterday. Here, in the index, over names somebody had crossed out and somebody else had kept.

Yugun leaned in to read one.

Ian’s gloved hand slid the drawer shut.

He did it at the speed of tidying. No alarm, no force, only the quiet correction of something left open too long. Daylight cut off from the lace, and the names became a wall of closed brass handles again.

“That set’s pulled for review,” Ian said.

“By who?”

“It’s flagged.”

“You closed it before I read it.”

“It’s flagged,” Ian said again, and the second time the word came out thinner, smoothed down from whatever else he had almost set on the table.

The third-year had stopped copying. He was very busy not having heard. Upstairs, the feet had thinned to one set, then nothing, and the library’s quiet came back in around the closed drawer.

Yugun sat back.

Ian stood over the catalog with two gloved fingers resting on the drawer he’d shut, holding it the way he held his own face. The lamp caught him low and unkind. He did not step out of it.

“Stop doing that!” Yugun said.

“Doing what?”

“Trying to shut me up. You won’t let me finish sentences, and your explanations are shit.” He turned a card over without reading it. “For the school’s favorite saint, you spend a lot of effort making sure I’m the last to know.”

“You’re meant to work from the index—”

“I am working from the index! It keeps trying to tell me something, and you keep putting your stupid glove over its mouth. What the hell is that about?”

He let his voice lift enough to reach the far end of the table. Sohn would have something to repeat at dinner.

“It’s a good act, I’ll say. The gloves. The rules. The tray this morning. All you have to do is move one thing and the whole room makes space for you. Must be nice to be so righteous. But from where I stand, it looks fucking crazy!”

Sohn’s pencil had gone silent.

Sora had come back as far as the doorway with a pass slip in her hand and enough sense to stay there.

Ian pressed the drawer flush until the catch took. His hand stayed flat on the wood a moment past the work. This time, the cuff didn’t flash.

Yugun noticed the quiet hem more than yesterday’s spark. Where the gold had jumped at every small pressure the day before, now the wrist held. Past nervous. Whatever came after had never made it into the academy’s display cases.

Ian turned. His face did nothing at all, which beat any face he could have picked.

“Sohn,” he said, without turning toward him. “Take the index back to its drawer. You’re cleared early. Tell the office I signed off.”

The third-year didn’t need it twice. Sora caught Yugun’s eye from the door, took in the line of Ian’s shoulders, and left with Sohn.

The room emptied of everyone whose job was to overhear.

Ian crossed the floor without hurry.

“Gloves,” he said.

Yugun held out his hands before he could decide whether the order offended him. Ian removed the cotton gloves one finger at a time, touched only fabric, and set them folded on the blotter.

“You’re done performing.” The practiced warmth had gone out of his voice. What stayed was low and level. “Come with me.”

Every sensible part of Yugun said no.

His chair was already scraping back.

Ian didn’t take the main corridor. He took the cold end, past the library doors, past a stairwell roped off with a brass chain and a card that read NO STUDENT ACCESS in the academy’s calm type.

Yugun followed. The alternative was sitting alone in a room that had started glowing at him, and his feet chose humiliation over ignorance.

The passage narrowed. The radiators here had been bled and never refilled; cold came up through the stone and into his shoes. A door at the end stood unlocked, which surprised him until Ian opened it without slowing. Then Yugun understood that Ian had known it would be.

The room behind it had been a lecture room once. Tiered benches climbed in three rows toward a wall where a projection screen hung rotted at one corner. A saint-lily crest peeled above the door, gold leaf gone to grey. Pressing boards stood stacked along one wall. At the front, a blackboard still carried half a botanical diagram in chalk nobody had bothered to finish erasing, the ghost of a root system trailing off mid-stroke.

It smelled of damp velvet and old paper. Under that, faint but familiar, was the medicinal vent-smell from his room, the one the rain brought out.

Beyond the far wall, a pipe knocked twice and went quiet.

Yugun marked the door they’d come through, the bench he could reach if his ankle quit, and the distance between him and both. Then he turned around and arranged his face into boredom. Fear always found his mouth first, and he preferred to spend it before it spent him.

“Is this where the academy keeps the students who don’t clap for the angel?”

Ian shut the door. The latch took with a sound too small for the room.

“You drag all your disappointments into condemned classrooms,” Yugun said, “or am I special?”

Ian didn’t answer. He stood with his back to the door.

“Sit down before your ankle does it for you.”

“I’m fine standing.”

“You’re white to the mouth.” Ian didn’t move toward him. He had stopped past arm’s reach, the same measured distance he’d kept in the conservatory, except nothing in his face offered softness now. “Sit, or hold the bench. I don’t care which. Stop spending what you don’t have to win a point I’m not making.”

Yugun put two fingers on the end of the nearest bench. Inspecting the joinery. The bench took some of his weight and he let it, hated the relief, and kept his spine straight because vertical still counted for something here.

Yugun gave a small, pleased laugh and folded his arms. “There’s the speech. I was waiting for the part where you decide you can manage me.”

“I’m not managing you.” Ian’s voice had gone flat. The public version of him was nowhere in it. “I pulled you out of a room before you gave Sohn the next thing to repeat by curfew. That’s the favor. You don’t have to thank me for it. You should know it happened.”

“The favor.” Yugun leaned back against the bench and lifted one brow. “You closed a drawer on me, lied about why, and walked me into a dead room to tell me I should be grateful you stopped me embarrassing your… halo?”

“I don’t care about the halo.”

“But everyone cares about the halo. It’s the only thing here anyone looks at.”

Ian took one step toward him. “Say whatever you want to me when it’s the two of us. But not in front of Sohn. Not in the library.”

“Why? Scared they’ll find out their angel has more than one emotion?”

Ian reached up and pulled his tie pin free. “Because this place is toxic, Yugun.”

He loosened the knot, then opened the top button at his throat. “And it will kill you before anything else does.”

Yugun came off the bench before he meant to. His weight went to the good leg, shoulders setting. Fine. If this was where the warning turned into something else, he could at least meet it standing.

Ian saw it.

The change was immediate. His shoulders eased. His free hand opened at his side, palm empty.

Then the practiced face came back. Not all the way. But enough.

He looked away, toward the blackboard with its unfinished root system, and slipped the tie pin into his pocket with a low sigh. For the first time since Yugun had met him, the tie sat crooked, one side of his collar fallen open.

“Sohn repeats one thing at dinner. Someone else repeats it after study hall. By tomorrow morning, there are six versions and the office wants to know who started it, who was involved, what happened before. Nobody has to prove anything here. They only have to say it in the same tone long enough.” Ian turned back to him.

“You giving them something to write down doesn’t hurt me.” Yugun stayed on his feet. “I know what they say about me. Or what they’re going to say.”

“That’s not what I’m trying to stop. I’m trying to keep you out of the mess that comes after. All the dinners and the check-ins. All the people acting concerned so they can ask questions they already know how to use against you.” His voice stayed low. “You can hate the halo all you want. Just don’t let them put your name under it because you wanted to bruise mine.”

Somewhere in the explanation, Ian had taken another step.

Too close now. Closer than he had stood in the conservatory. Close enough that Yugun could see chalk dust on his cuff from the catalog wall.

Ian’s face emptied.

“You think being blunt makes you honest. It doesn’t. Half the time it only makes you easy to read. Anyone who wants to know where to put pressure on you has to listen for thirty seconds. You announce it. Your brother at the gates. The bottle in your bag you nearly took his hand off for touching. The cough you’re swallowing right now so I won’t—”

He stopped. Whatever crossed Yugun’s face before he could close it, Ian saw. The sentence died in his mouth with the rest still loaded.

Yugun had gone still. His palm pressed into the wood. His chest held the cough where it was. He could not tell whether the blankness on Ian’s face was restraint or warning.

The pipe knocked behind the wall. The chalk root stopped on the board behind Ian’s shoulder. Over the door, the grey crest peeled in place.

Ian stepped back. Not far. Enough to give the air between them back.

“I’m sorry.” His voice had gone level again, formal from effort. “I stepped too close. I shouldn’t have.”

Yugun’s pulse beat hard under his jaw. He took the cough out of his chest on a slow breath and didn’t let it become anything.

“Yeah, you did,” he said.

“I know.” Ian held still under the flat classroom light, hands open at his sides. “I’m not asking you to tell me it’s fine.”

Yugun watched him stand there, pale and over-composed, the angel voice nowhere in the room. The grey crest flaked above his head. The dead diagram trailed behind his shoulder. Everyone in this place looked at Ha Ian and found something holy. Yugun looked at him in the rot-light of a condemned classroom and saw a gothic little freak pretending he didn’t live upside down in a bell tower.

His hand loosened on the bench, and one side of his mouth lifted.

“Well, holy shit,” Yugun said. “You have a dark mode.”

Ian’s mouth parted.

Yugun got his weight off the bench, slow, testing the ankle a bit, refusing the hand Ian didn’t offer. “I have to admit, I thought you were just another one-dimensional trust-fund kid. Turns out you’re just an angry baby bat.”

“I apologized—wait, what?”

“No need to apologize, Baby Bat.” Yugun took a careful step and made his ankle hold it. “I appreciate the spine you’ve got under that choirboy haircut.”

Ian’s whole face shut. “Don’t call me that. And what is a choirboy haircut?”

His hands were already in his hair when he noticed.

“Jeez, your hair is fine.” Yugun looked him over once and took his time about it. “But you do brood around in dead rooms like Dracula’s nephew on a scholarship. So. I’m keeping the term of endearment.”

Ian lowered his hands.

“Baby Bat it is,” Yugun said. He smiled with all of his teeth.

Behind the far wall, the pipe knocked twice, paused, and knocked a third time, which it hadn’t done before. They both went quiet. Under the door, in the cold seam where the dead radiator gave no heat, a fern-shadow moved. Nothing stood in the corridor to cast it.

Ian’s hand came up, open, palm out, and stopped between Yugun and the door without touching him. He hadn’t startled; whatever Yugun had noticed there, Ian already knew to watch for.

“Don’t,” he said quietly. Something underneath the public voice; the one from the fight. “Don’t follow it.”

“Listen, I’m not the one who keeps a dead room next to it.”

“I know what I keep.”

Ian moved to the door and put his body between Yugun and the seam where the shadow lay. It was too smooth. It could’ve even passed for an accident if Yugun hadn’t spent the last two days learning where Ian hid the training.

“The pipes run behind this wall and the next,” Ian said. “When the heating cycles, things have a tendency to move.”

“So no explanation then, huh.”

“I’m giving you the version that’ll get us out of here.”

The shadow thinned along the cold seam and vanished. Grey stone filled the threshold. The dead radiator sat beneath it, and behind the wall, the pipe had gone quiet.

Ian opened the door onto the cold corridor, and past it came the ordinary sound of the school morning, a bell on a lower floor, a cart, voices climbing a stairwell somewhere that still had heat in it.

“Out,” he said. “You’ve got a rotation to be late for and I’ve got to put a room back the way I found it.”

The warm end of the corridor met him like a different building. Yugun’s lungs took the heat badly. His eyes had started watering from the cold and he blamed both on the architecture.

A sign-out sheet hung beside the doors in the same brass framing as the board: names, times, slip numbers in the academy’s calm columns. His own name sat there twice, yesterday and this morning, entered in a hand that wasn’t his. The slip column beside it was blank both times. He’d assumed the doors just opened—

Sora was waiting by the library doors with her pass slip pinched between two fingers and her mouth set around a question she had decided not to ask. She read Yugun’s face, then the empty corridor behind him.

“Sohn’s telling people you mouthed off to the angel and lived,” she said.

“What can I say? I’m a folk hero.”

Sora shook her head. “Sorry, newbie. You’re just a rumor with a bad cough.”

The cough he’d been holding since the cold corridor picked that moment to collect. He turned it into the crook of his elbow, brief, and came up before she could decide to mind it.

Sora fell into step on his good side, within reach if his ankle gave, her attention elsewhere so he couldn’t call it hovering. “Mi-rye wants you to know two things. One, the supervised tag came down from the wellness office this morning, not the rotation desk. Two, he says don’t let Ha Ian take you the long way anywhere.”

“He took me the short way. Into a closet.”

Sora’s mouth did something it didn’t finish. “That’s kinda worse, actually.”

Behind them, footsteps came up the cold end. Ian passed them without slowing, the tie pin back at his throat and his gloves on. The tired thing under his eyes had been folded away where morning light couldn’t reach it. He paused at the cold brass rail.

“Ledger work resumes after lunch,” he said, to the corridor more than to Yugun. “Index first, nothing leaves the table. Be sure to remember.”

One side of Yugun’s mouth curved.

“Very noted,” he said “Received, recognized, duly considered and firmly imprinted upon my soul.” He lifted his hand to his brow and flicked his wrist in a lazy salute.

Ian narrowed his eyes for a second, but didn’t take the public bait. He smiled in return before he disappeared around the turn. The corridor eased by a degree.

“Well, well.” Sora clicked her tongue, folding hands at her back. “Way to steal my anti-rizz.”

He began the descent to his room. “It was worth it. Guess I have a reputation to uphold.”

She shook her head. “You are plumb crazy.”

"Well, eat my peach and call Ian 'Nurse Ratched' then, because there is way more than one cuckoo who flew over this goddamn nest."

She threw her head back and laughed. "See you tomorrow."

He was the crazy one? Seriously? He was the only one questioning anything.

After an adolescence spent behind glass walls and sterile equipment, Yugun had learned how useful other people's assumptions could be. Sick meant compliant. Quiet made people careless. By the time anyone thought to suspect him, he'd usually already done it.

Hospitals had taught him plenty about causing trouble under supervision. He had no problem starting rebellions; he'd always marched to the beat of a different drum.

And there was an entire drumline waiting down the west corridor.

Yugun’s room had been tidied while he was gone.

The bed was made tighter than he’d left it. The medicine tray had been refreshed, three brown bottles arranged in height order, the WELLNESS IS A SHARED PRACTICE card turned face-up again by a hand that wanted it read. The kettle held water at the academy’s preferred temperature. On the sill, the fern sat in its white pot with its brass label, fronds even, ordinary, restored to innocence.

The pamphlet lay where he’d left it, still curled, still swollen at the corner where water had eaten through the crest. The darkened line had dried.

REPORT UNUSUAL BOTANICAL RESPONSIVENESS IMMEDIATELY TO YOUR ASSIGNED GUIDE.

Yugun pulled the desk chair out with his foot and sat. His ankle let him know the morning had cost it. He put the prescription bottle from his bag on the desk, lined it up against the pamphlet’s edge so his hand had a job, and studied them side by side.

He picked up the pen the room had thoughtfully provided.

Across the bottom of the pamphlet, under the academy’s calm type, in his own bad handwriting, he wrote:

reported. it moved. ask the building who supervises it.

Then he turned the card back face-down, knotted the pull-cord a second time because the first had been tolerated, and lay on top of the made bed without getting under it.

Down the corridor, a cart clacked over the loose tile.

Behind the wall, very faint, the pipe knocked once and stayed quiet.

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