vent blog

My name is Amani and this is my vent blog. 21 year old black autistic lesbian

[gordicore]

It's been a while so I wanted to change the theme of this blog. I feel like Gordi from unicorn wars would be a good fit for this blog so

gordicore>>>traumacrona

[romirella-96]

Best metaphor I’ve seen yet, 🤔 & the most accurate. It’s like self sabotage trying to attempt something that you clearly can’t do.

Also goes hand in hand with the meme above. ^

[gordicore]

Is it normal that I think every man will violently assault me and then kill me?

[traumatizedbymen]

[glowcowboy]

grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

[berensreverie]

I make art about grief again

[gordicore]

[gordicore]

Ooooghhhh I’m in a foul mood

[gordicore]

I actually hate discord mods all of y’all can kill yourselves for all I care.

[gordicore]

“I support all autistic people ❤️”

How those same motherfuckers look at you when you have the audacity to inconvenience them with a symptom of said autism

[gordicore]

What’s even the point anymore. No matter what I do or how nice I am, people will just cherry pick my behavior and twist my words around to make me look like some horrible monster. I hate people. I hate everyone.

[gordicore]

Why do I even bother.

[somewhere-south-of-neutral]

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I’m so deficient as a human being. I can’t functional normally. I can’t feel normally. I can’t do basic tasks. I care way too much about the wrong things. I’m the outcast wherever I go. I can’t socialize with people. I’m weird. I’m annoying. All I’ve ever wanted is to be normal and everyday I see normal people and it’s a slap in the face of what I’ll never be.

[thirteens-pocket-watch]

Adults: Following rules is good, not following rules is bad

Little me: Okay :] *follows a rule*

Adults: Oh my god look at this loser. He doesn't know that this rule is Secretly Okay To Not Follow. Dumbass. Let's all laugh at him

[mindflamer]

the sinking feeling when you're autistic and you think everything is going great until suddenly it's clear it's not great and you're searching your mind for what you did wrong only for it to hit you and you're like oh... why didn't i realize that before? but it's too late now

[gordicore]

Do you just have one of those moments that no matter what you do, you’ll always be a scapegoat for other people? No matter how nice you are, follow rules accordingly and be a respectful person, people will somehow find a way to cherry pick your behavior and try to gaslight you into thinking that you’re the one with an issue and that you’re a horrible person? Is it just me?