the antichrist

call me nicknames i love it || he/they || Temporarily Non transitioning trans! Violent thoughts holder :/

[gore-m4b]

I deadass just realised I can't dickride Ronin's name as much as I love it it goes a bit too much into live action rp

Help I need names

Preferably starting with R

[consume-what-you-envy]

cute t4t mlm date ideas:

beat the shit out of each other in an empty parking lot at 2 am (in a sexual way)

play any car racing game for 8hrs straight, eat instant noodles and fall asleep tangled on a couch together

become a priest and fuck his throat in a confessional

go swimming at midnight, try to drown each other - great for bonding if you end up saving his life (learn first aid beforehand)

run away together, become cowboys

sneak into a medieval castle and fight for dominance with big ass swords (the winner gets to fuck the loser with his sword) (the actual, metal, covered in warm blood sword)

swap packers for a day

[gore-m4b]

@l0v3s1ckl0s3r

[kboone]

domestic forcemasc…

“Why are you wearing that towel around your chest? Put it around your waist, you’ve got nothing to be ashamed of”

“You can wear my clothes while I’m doing your laundry, you look good in them anyway”

“I can cut your hair for you at home, it’s cheaper than going to the barber— I’ll make you look handsome, don’t worry”

Idk lol would be nice

[casual-haterism]

sad girly girl who wears white dresses and curls her hair and puts on no makeup makeup every morning who gets a butch makeover montage at the end of the movie and everyone goes wow. also they replace his contact lenses with thick stupid nerd glasses. is this anything

[gore-m4b]

I think I'll be deadnamed by one person my whole life. I don't mind it at all, it's not his fault.

Because my brother grew up with his Didi (older sister). When we were kids, when Mum was working and Dad didn't care to stay at home much, his Didi took care of him. His Didi was the one he took his first steps towards. His Didi used to feed him, his Didi used to teach him his alphabets when she herself had no time to study, his Didi spent years looking up things about autism and moderate to high support needs so that he didn't have trouble around her. His Didi is the one who hides him behind her when he gets scared of Mum or Dad or anything in particular. His Didi is his only friend because he can't make friends.

It would be confusing for him to suddenly call me Bhaiya/Bhai (Older brother/Brother) or a different name than what he has always called me.

It's not his fault. It does make me a little sad, I do hope that maybe he would learn, but even if he doesn't, it's not his fault.

I'm still gonna take care of him forever.

[kozardice]

telling your cis best friend one drunken late night that you think you might be a boy too. next morning you come to regret it, taking it all back and passing it off as a dumb thought.

he doesn't let you.

he doesn't push it, but you notice changes. he doesn't filter himself around you as much anymore, punches your shoulder a little harder when he teases, puts you in a headlock far more often that he would a girl. he builds it up in subtle ways, like switching from your old name to a nickname, or maybe even your last name. he tells you to fight back harder in the moments you're laughing and wrestling each other.

"c'mon, man up! is that all you've got? nah, i know better!"

he doesn't care nearly as much about changing in front of you, and he tells you all of the dirty details he can think of. you're just boys, right? he'll make you see that.

wrestling and dumb jokes turn into late nights with smoke swirling, mentioning a porno he saw the other night that he's still thinking of now as you lie on your backs staring at the ceiling with the posters. nicknames and telling you to man up turns into palming at his cock and encouraging you to pull yours out. he won't accept your dumb excuse of not having one. this is what boys do.

he'll make sure you know it.

[nolanbonexx]

[gore-m4b]

I think my realisation of being trans started with those forcemasc posts on Pinterest.

That also might have given me a thing for being called a dog but in a mutt way not a puppy way, but like, i haven't discovered that yet.

Because like I was in early MIDDLE SCHOOL back then, and I had more guy friends than girls (for what reason I dunno, I try so hard to have female friends too I'm not sure why it doesn't work out) and I used to get so frank with them they deadass just said

'Bhai tu hamara bhai hai, tu ladki hai hi nahi hamari Nazaron mein, tujhpe ladki hona suit hi nhi karta'

→You're a brother to us, you aren't a girl in our eyes, being a girl doesn't suit you at all

And back then I wasn't sure but I obviously used to complain (and kick them) that yes, I'm a girl, but I think that was, again, because I believed i had to be a girl. It did make me kinda giddy back then too, but I didn't get why and just assumed it's because I'm happy that I'm so close with my friends.

And then I discovered forcemasc and genuinely at one point my whole feed was forcemasc and transmasc affirmations on Pinterest. But I wasn't sure if it was me or if the posts were influencing me to feel a certain way, and hence began the 3 year long confusion of what-the-fuck-am-I.

[adamfuckinglazzara]

i yearn for a body that i cannot have

[zombvamp]

Whenever I see one of my moots post about feeling lonely I get so sad and want to dm them and become friends but then I back away because I think they’re going to pull out a rifle and blow a hole through my head

[corpseofmisery]

Boys don’t cry so I guess I’ll just jerk off instead

[loserferret]

hot boys sleep with plushies and imagine they're cuddling another man

[hypeboy2006]

[4ntlersoldier]

everyday is a humiliation ritual

[gore-m4b]

Because what do you mean I gotta wake up and if I dare accidentally look down—

32D

And that if I manage to ignore that, then I gotta ignore the mirrors which are basically all around the house?

And get called a name that isn't mine?

If it isn't obvious this is about being closeted trans i don't have NOTHING to help myself

[boye-failure]

my biggest kink is someone checking in on me n noticing when m not myself

[wh11skeyandlace]

”Dear diary”-love A.

[cl-gbriel]

Fuck my dad and fuck this town and fuck the cops and fuck god and fuck you too actually

[gore-m4b]

Dad's a scumbag this town is a scumbag the police is sold to the rich guys and God hasn't ever done anything for me I do not like that fucker

You depend fuck you only if you're a terrible person