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indigo 19 head forever in the clouds follows from @ sanctifiedinside

you love me, don't you? what? you love me? where is this going? just answer the question. well, of course i do. you're my, uh-- no. no caveats. stick with the emotion. where do you feel it? hmm? your love for me. where do you feel it? is it here? listen, ruben, i am not sure what this is all about. just answer the question. i suppose love is most felt in the heart, right? no, fuck that fucking mug response. answer as you. i want to know where niall kennedy feels it. i feel it everywhere. everywhere? yeah, it sort of runs through me in a way. describe it. i can't! i can't describe it! yes, you fucking can! mr. fucking poet laureate, or whatever the fuck it is you've won, your job is putting shit into words. so come on. spell it out for me. clearly. in a way i can understand. it's like... dangerous. oh, yeah? it is the best and the worst thing all at once. it's like the only thing. it's the only thing i've ever felt. it's like i'm fucking... high off of you or something. chemically dependent. i don't know.

#half man

wiltking

the way niall has consistently met good understanding people who would've patiently helped him work through his shit and #heal but he is utterly incapable of making any decision that doesn't center around clawing ruben into his life in the most fucked up ways imaginable like even just to feel the ghost of his presence or the full attention of his anger he blows his life up and everyone in it just for a scrap of ruben just for a glimpse just for a hug or a smile or a punch time and time again ok ok ok

#half man