Regina R. Vespertine

Trying to finish a novel I started 5 years ago. I draw sometimes, ramble a lot. Hopeless romantic. Hopeless in general. The Bearer of AuDHD (probably lol) I have a discord server where I rant and chill. If you leave right after joining, I'll steal your teeth My Other Socials

[gothic--vampyre]

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[orphiclovers-deactivated2026032]

For a lot of orv, the Big Bad Villains™ of the story are the voyeuristic Star Stream that gourges on 'stories' - the lived experience of people that they see as fictional. And depending on how far you, the reader, are willing to suspend your disbelief and buy into the more meta/fourth wall breaking elements, at some point you start getting feeling... that maybe YOU are the villain of the story. YOU are the star stream, the characters are trying to escape from YOUR gaze. It's a strange kind of guilt, and orv lets you stew in this feeling for 500 chapters.

But there's a problem. 'the characters are real people with real feelings and going through real suffering' is a fun concept and honestly the next logical step for an isekai'd into a novel story, it's explored to its fullest, but it's NOT a viable way to actually engage with fiction in real life. obviously.

so fuck, what do we do now? I think orv handles this question beautifully. It writes itself out of this corner by absolving you of your guilt.

No, yeah the characters WERE trying to escape from the Star Stream's gaze, but YOU are not a voyeur like the Star Stream. as a 'kim dokja fragment' this story was written for YOUR eyes and your eyes only. unlike the Star Stream, every single character in orv desperately WANTS you to read their story. they all wrote Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint™ togther, for you. you are not evil for having read it. I love you and I'm glad you survived etc.

[999qjs-ghktls]

meme i made from a Reddit comment

[coffee-scrub]

kdj definitely matchmade yjh and lsh together because he shipped them *really* hard while reading twsa

[aeon-uriel]

on God, get these two some happier endings

[squid-n-sunfish-express]

can we please just appreciate how trippy ORV is as a novel for us readers, especially those of us who are willing to sit through/have sat through 500+ chapters for a series. it's not spoken about enough that this really is a gripping experience. It's not the most mind blowing piece of literature but the immersion is so deep that it's somehow better like that.

all plot points felt like sheared threads until we hit the latter parts of the novel. it was so helplessly the way twas was for Kim dokja. A novel that repeatedly goes from one scenario to the next and has you racking your brain by how many random manoeuvres and lengthy expositions it has - flashback to Kim dokjas commenting on wanting to skip certain scenarios because they're too long.

But all of it is so necessary to truly understand what it means to have a novel like this dig its fingers inside your chest and make you feel things. It revitalises the human experience. It's tragic and scary and painful and makes you feel loved.

we continued to read the story because we loved it in our own ways. whether that be wanting to know what happened next or because that imagery was too gripping to step away from. we were gifted that fresh desire that kdj felt and that's just so trippy.

after the reveal that the essence that is Kim dokja and his unbridled desire to see things through to the epilogue, and that this essence was the undercurrent that drives the universe today, is so palpable to all of us readers in this day and age. Orv being in dokjas unreliable perspective whilst reminding us that we're still reading because it's a him thing to do, really sells the "we are the fragments of Kim dokja".

It was crafted so we were put in his shoes from the beginning. we've been reading the story so it exists and we finish it understanding why WE exist. Does that mean if we read our own stories, we can continue existing? Wasn't that the purpose of hsy and yjh scattering orv into world lines so we'll find the Kim dojkas in ourselves?

I think it's important to remember that dokja really is "reader". those of us who read the novel translated cant fully grasp how we were told since day one what our role was in the novel. we were the readers so the story could exist. TELL ME THIS ISN'T TRIPPY IM LOSING MY MIND

[caffinateddragon-blog]

[ineffectualdemon]

ORV gives you a main character who is so detached and suicidal and never gets better

But more importantly it gives you all the people who would tear apart reality itself for one more chance to be with him

As someone who has struggled with depersonalisation and derealization and suicidal ideation for pretty much my entire life this book, even when deeply painful, is the most uplifting and convincing DO NOT KILL YOURSELF treatise I have ever read

Because it's easy to convince yourself that no one will miss you

That no one actually cares about you, because how could they? You're a monster

That you only have worth in what you can give

But then you see Kim Dokja who believes about himself all the worst things you have thought about yourself and who has arguably done worst things then you could ever do...and you see how he doesn't see the love and care and devotion that is right in front of his face

You are begging him to stop and see it

To recognise that he doesn't have to do everything alone

That he is loved so so deeply

And maybe, just maybe you can get yourself to open your eyes. Or just believe that maybe you're just as blind as Kim Dokja.

I know some people will see this book as despairing or that the message is that you can never actually cross that divide. But for me it's a push to say you can cross it.

That there are people in this world waiting for you to extend your hand and they will hold you close and never let you go

It's hope in the despair

At least for me

[manorofshepard]

Woohooo! T-Rex completed!

[8promises]

i need to stop being suicidal on main lol like i'm just going to trigger someone atp

[lovely-little-lethe]

would it be possible to convince you not to be suicidal at allll?

[8promises]

i think that would probably involve not being alive anymore wren

[gothic--vampyre]

I'm stealing this line lol

[aquilacalvitium]

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

[aquilacalvitium]

Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again

[ijustwannawritepls]

How to Write When You Don't Feel Like Yourself

There are going to be days (or weeks, or months) where you sit down to write and feel... disconnected. From your voice, from your characters, from your ideas. Like the person who used to write your stories just packed up and left.

They didn't. They're just tired. Here's how to keep writing anyway:

Lower the bar (Until it's on the floor) You are not here to write something brilliant. You are here to write something. A paragraph. A sentence. A single line of dialogue. Movement matters way more than quality.

Write around the story Don't force it. If you can't write the scene, try: ⋆ A character ramble / journal entry ⋆ A conversation that won't be included in the final draft ⋆ A list of things the character would never admit out loud ⋆ A messy summary of what should happen Engage with the story from a different angle.

Borrow a voice until yours comes back No, not with AI. Read something that feels close to what you want to write, or watch a scene that captures the tone, then write immediately after. Not to copy, to reignite your instincts.

Write the emotion, not the plot. What is your character feeling in this moment? What are they afraid of? What do they want but won't say? What's being kept from them? The emotion leads, the plot catches up later.

Stop trying to "feel like a writer" first. You don't write when you feel like a writer. You feel like a writer because you write.

You are still a writer, even on the days it feels distant. Especially then.

[gothic--vampyre]

You're still an artist even if you haven't drawn for days.

You're still an artist even if you haven't drawn for weeks.

You're still an artist even if you haven't drawn for months

You're still an artist even if you haven't drawn for years

You're still you.

You are an artist.

[gothic--vampyre]

That one post about woman, man, girl, & boy being different genders lives rent free in my head. All these are different genders with different social expectations and how we're all constantly trying to balance femininity and masculinity to fit our own gender expression but....society.

Especially when I struggle to feel like a "woman" but also I'm not a "girl" anymore. Idk if this is autism or gender dysphoria or just a part of growing up, but that person's post sure as hell killed a lot of insecurity for me.

[tokkibean]

when youre stressed about your current wip, start a new one! now you can be stressed about two wips instead!

[gothic--vampyre]

what if I have 4 different wips and i'm stressed about EVERYTHING?

[manorofshepard]

I can't stop thinking about Damon and Elena from Vampire Diaries

[gothic--vampyre]

Fun fact!

The one scene where they kiss, Never Let Me Go by Florence and The Machine is blaring in the background (which in hidsight is pretty funny considering that the editors were probably high on redbull the entire show) and that's how I was introduced to Florence and The Machine.

So, if there's anything good about The Vampire Diaries, it's that lol

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]