Maddy

She/her anxiety ridden Christian

[gothloserboy]

DIDDY NO

[gothloserboy]

DIDDY NO

[gothloserboy]

Seeing goths in the wild brings me so much inherent joy

[gothloserboy]

Not being believed when you’re in pain is just about as bad as the pain itself. I cannot share my pain, I cannot show you. My access to healing relies solely upon you choosing to hear my words and actually listen. You sacrifice little, but you not doing that causes more pain

[gothloserboy]

My problem is I don’t have any problems. I have stability, good education, good parents. And yet I still feel like this. Like running away or crashing my car, or leaving behind every relationship I’ve worked so hard to build. I know I’m wrong to feel like this, but I can’t seem to fix it

[gothloserboy]

Tell me why this random kid looked at me and called me an emo pigtail girl. I have no defense

[gothloserboy]

I know I’m not funny but that’s not gonna stop me from trying

[gothloserboy]

Guys it turns out being hormonal, in chronic pain, sleep deprived overwhelmed, and financially unstable effects my decision making skills in a negative way! Who would’ve guessed!

[gothloserboy]

Ground breaking conversation with my dad today.

Me: something is always wrong and I dont know it is. I feel like I’m in pain but I’m not and I don’t know who I am anymore I just-

My extremely perceptive father: I think you are so used to something being wrong you’ve started to make problems out of nothing and you refuse to solve the problems that do exist even when the answer is right in front of you. As for your identity crisis, I think you are trying so hard to be your own individual person, you’ve started swinging the opposite way and accidentally putting yourself in a box of “must be unique” and putting a bunch of labels on yourself. You should stop that.

Me: 😦😟 *starts sobbing quietly*

[gothloserboy]

One thing that I’m glad I was taught from a young age is that even the devil believes in god. Belief is not enough to save someone. You have to change your heart and change your ways and yes it’ll still be difficult but eternity in heaven is worth a couple years of pain on this earth

[gothloserboy]

I just love when people ask me if I’m ok because no. I’m not. But I’m having fun making it everyone else’s problem

[gothloserboy]

The government just ruined my hopes and dreams of selling totally legal substances (if the government asks I’m selling lemonade) by requiring me to buy a “business license” first

[gothloserboy]

Daycare: the place where no one is chill and everything is sticky

[gothloserboy]

Working at a daycare is so funny because no I’m not potty training 7 kids at once for 10.50 an hour. I only work here during the evenings I literally can’t