And the only reason I’m back on this account is to explain why I can’t use it. The conversations I used to have were all about things that are too painful to talk about anymore. I can’t open up my mentions because all of the tags are triggering and stressful for me. It’s deeply embarrassing and shameful that I’ve been MIA, but now I have to explain that that’s not even going to change. Worst part is that I can’t talk about this or explain it to anyone. I’ve been severely alone for a year. And I wont be anything else for a long time. In order to avoid things that stress me, I’ve had to curate a very strict visual diet. I have to Google the cast of movies before I watch them, I avoid talk about marriage and dating, I have to block accounts that talk about my old interests. The fact that it’s difficult to explain makes it even more embarrassing than it already is.
