The Journey Starts Somewhere

Leo. 26. Western Canada. Trans. FtM. T Date: 09/13/16. Single. Queer. Insta: queer_trash_king SC: Leo.Isaac24 Just living my life and finding myself more and more as time goes on and I am more comfortable being who I know myself to be.

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I'll be your Captain America. 😘 #1year#manniversary#anniversary#12months#trashprince#trashking#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe#unapologeticallyproud#unapologeticallyme#trans#transgender#selfmade#selfmademan#positivevibes#transguy#transman#vitaminT#testosterone#lgbtpride#lgbt#transvisibility#leolivingloud#ftm#femaletomale

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Voice comparison. I haven't done one in awhile and this always makes me so happy to hear. 😊 the last one I did was at 8 months and I'm not sure from then and now if it's changed much. To my ears it hasn't so I didn't splice those ones together yet. 😂

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Day one | Day 365 #1year#manniversary#anniversary#12months#trashprince#trashking#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe#unapologeticallyproud#unapologeticallyme#trans#transgender#selfmade#selfmademan#positivevibes#transguy#transman#vitaminT#testosterone#lgbtpride#lgbt#transvisibility#leolivingloud#ftm#femaletomale

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#52!!! Tomorrow marks my one year on T! Today is shot day! I am so so amazed at how much has changed in a year. Over the next 36 hours I'll probably post a ton of comparison photos, but I honestly don't see too too many changes. But I know that I need to trust the process and that this next year is when a lot more changes come in regards to my face. I know it'll continue to change, as will my body. Everyday as the testosterone runs through my veins, it's shaping me and making me more confident as my outward appearance slowly begins to reflect the man I have always seen on the inside. I could write a huge thing here about my past year but people always give me a hard time for writing a lot. So it's made me a little hesitant to talk a lot here honestly. 😬 but I wanted to celebrate this. This shot marks a big one. So here is to this week, and my one year on T! #12months#1year#manniversary #reborn#transiversary#trashprince#trashking#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe#unapologeticallyproud#unapologeticallyme#trans#transgender#selfmade#selfmademan#positivevibes#transguy#transman#vitaminT#testosterone#lgbtpride#lgbt#transvisibility#leolivingloud#ftm#femaletomale

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Testosterone changes things.

I know it’s an obvious thing to say. Testosterone changes things. But let me tell you what I mean. I’ve only had one shot, only been on it for a couple days now. But in these couple days, I feel more alive. I feel like I can do this; life. There is more will to get up and do things each day. I feel more committed to working out. I feel like there is a drive inside me to strive to be better, be more. It’s not that T is doing these changes. It’s that my attitude about life has changed. There are no changes because of one shot. None that are because of the shot itself. It’s that I have been able to clear that black cloud of never starting, of never being able to be myself outwardly as I feel I am inside. A weight has been lifted and I can see the light. It’s all been worth it. The struggle, the hard nights, the impossible nights, the yelling and screaming and fits that I’ll never “be enough”. It’s all silenced.

Boys I’m telling you, it gets better. You need to keep pushing, keep moving forward. Keep looking toward the next milestone, even if that milestone is to just make it one more day. Keep going and I promise you, it’ll get better. ❤️

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This is still so true nearly a year later. Coming up on one year on T now and I am so excited and my mentality has changed so much in a year. Everything has changed this past year and I am so grateful for all the growth. I just felt the need to share this again for those who are waiting.

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Did someone say #transformationtuesday? This is the first one I've done. I don't like showing pictures of me before my transition but I realized it's only because I look at that person and I realize how unhappy she was. How she yearned for more, HE yearned to be seen and accepted but did not have the knowledge or words to express those feelings. He was knocking from the inside for years, asking to be seen and be allowed to be outwardly represented. This picture was the spring of 2009, my high school grad year. It's now 8 years later and you can see the man I am becoming. Nearly two years ago I came out to myself and slowly to others. Last summer I was fully out. Next week is my 1 year on T and I just felt like today was a day to show the world who I used to be, before I knew I could just be myself. ❤️ #11months#trashprince#trashking#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe#unapologeticallyproud#unapologeticallyme#trans#transgender#selfmade#selfmademan#positivevibes#transguy#transman#vitaminT#testosterone#lgbtpride#lgbt#transvisibility#leolivingloud#ftm#femaletomale

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So this came in the mail today!!! It's officially official!! 😍😍 Every once in awhile I get thoughts of this is the right path and then when things like this happen (the big moments), and it feels so right, like I'm finally coming home.. I know I made the right choice for myself. To find and allow myself to truly be free to express myself as the man I know I am. I am speechless and so so happy right now. This also comes on the heels of my 10 months on T, which I have yet to make a post for. But it was a couple days ago. Here's to the next few steps that can now be taken! 😍😍 #namechange#hype#official#trashprince#trashking#literaltrash#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #10months #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility#transpride#leolivingloud

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Fuck boy vibes. ✌🏽 #fuckboy#guyswithtattoos#chill#trashprince#trashking#literaltrash#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #10months #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility#transpride#leolivingloud#king

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I am open about my transition and about changes that are happening both mentally and physically. I am glad that people are curious and ask questions. I actually really enjoy talking about myself in regards to my transition. I'd just ask that those who ask me questions remember that it's my journey and my perspective. It is not the same for all transgender people. One question I do not appreciate or enjoy but continually answer is "do you even need to tape anymore?" or some semblance of the question. Yes I tape my chest, yes its taped nearly 24/7 and it makes me feel most comfortable. It makes me feel safe and secure in who I am. I can get away without tape in some situations but not all, and I am a basket case of nerves when I'm not binding at all. I get nervous that people will judge me or look as me as a female. It takes such a toll on me mentally. But more than that.. Do you even need to know that answer? That's like me asking a woman if she needs even wear a bra simply because she's got a smaller chest 😂 it's just not done, BECAUSE IT'S RUDE. Ask me questions. Ask me anything and I'll answer it one way or another. But don't ask me rude questions. I get a lot of dysphoria from my chest some days. Tape alleviates that feeling, and so I don't mind questions asking what it's for or its benefits vs a binder or anything. But please don't ask me if it's needed anymore simply because it does look flat (hi that's the tapes job), and that you personally feel I could get away without it. Thanks lovelies. 😘 - 🦁👑 #trashprince#trashking#literaltrash#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #10months #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility#transpride#leolivingloud#queer#king#gay

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Month 2 vs month 11 Today is my 11 months on T and I am stoked to hit my 1 year. I cannot believe how fast this year has gone! I often say I don't see changes that have happened to me but I do hear often of others who creep my insta or FB pages and see the changes and tell their friends who always tell me (so hello person creeping, just come say hi, I'll know you creeped anyway 😉) With these pictures side by side I can say that I see my jaw line has gotten more square, less rounded. Well and I clearly have a better hair style 😂 But that's about it really. I am a little sad to hardly see changes but I know from year 1 to year 2 I'll see more of those. Lately I've been down about where I'm at with my transition but I don't let it get the best of me. It's a marathon, not a sprint.. As they say 🙄 so this patient boy waits for more changes to come. #11months#trashprince#trashking#literaltrash#potd#ootd#instadaily#instaboy#goodvibestribe #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility#transpride#leolivingloud#queer#king#gay

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~2 months vs ~10 months on T. Roughly 8 months in between these pictures and I am so so surprised!! Look at that glow up! Good lord I never want to hear myself say that I look the same again. 😂 who is that on the left?? Haha I am actually beyond words on how happy this makes me. Only moving forward now folks! #goodvibestribe#selflove #loveyourself #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #leolivingloud#9months #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility #transpride #positivevibes #transpride #leolivingloud #ftm #femaletomale#pridemonth

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Today marks one year of being out to everyone and finally being free to be myself, to be Leo all the time. I no longer was closeted to anyone who I felt I needed to come out to, before I could begin to socially transition fully and always introduce myself as Leo. Today ALSO marks my 9 months on T! Nothing but good vibes on good days! #goodvibestribe#selflove #loveyourself #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #trans #transgender #selfmade #selfmademan #positivevibes #leolivingloud#8months #cutetrans #guyswithink # #guyswithtattoos #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility #transpride #positivevibes #transpride #leolivingloud #ftm #femaletomale#pridemonth#queeraf#hereandqueer

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Too hot to leave my clothes on. Too insecure to take my clothes off.

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Gender Dysphoria does NOT mean the same thing as hating yourself or your body.

Dysphoria often times can lead to hating yourself/body, but that doesnt mean they’re synonymous.

Spreading lies and misinformation about what dysphoria means is causing trans people to think they’re not dysphoric when they actually are.

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The last time everyone (myself included), really noticed the biggest voice drop was my 100 day video (so just a little over 3 months on t), and I took the second video just minutes ago for my 8 month mark. It's sounded deeper to my ears for the past week and I thought it was because I'm sick but I think it's just that low now. 😍😍 ugh I'm so happy with where it's at right now in most regards. 😊 #8months #unapologeticallyproud #unapologeticallyme #selfies #cutetrans #guyswithink # #guyswithtattoos #trans #transgender #transguy #transman #hrt #vitaminT #testosterone #selfmade #selfmademan #lgbtpride #lgbt #transvisibility #transpride #positivevibes #transpride #leolivingloud #ftm #femaletomale