– SHE WATCHES HIS FACE CLOSELY, a certain gentle intensity in her hazel eyes. she wishes they could speak more openly, that she could ask him what he thinks about the producers bringing mali in here and what that means for their game, what kind of reflection it must be on the public and the producers. she feels so disconnected from reality sometimes, for how long they’ve been in here, always talking in a slightly roundabout way. “ yeah, it is stupid, ” she says, though there’s a terse edge to her tone. “ i just … we’ve been talking so much about the future and everything that comes next and i think i’ve gotten kind of used to it, ” she says, a slight smile playing at her lips as she ducks her head, having trouble meeting his eyes for a moment. “ – in a good way. ” and she doesn’t want to think that something in here could be capable of driving them apart, but there’s tests everywhere for a reason. “ does anything scare you ? ” she asks, affectionate fingertips lightly tracing his collarbone.
breath catches in the back of her throat as he pulls her against him, though any other sound from her lips as she grinds her hips down against his is lost in the midst of their kiss. her eyebrows arch, unable to resist a look of amusement at his word choice. “ perfect, ” she echoes, a little smirk curving the edge of her lips, shiny gloss slightly smudged. “ feel free to elaborate further, don’t hold back, ” naomi says, always entertained by josh’s dramatic declarations, like he’s the leading man in a romcom and he’s like, being drafted for war or something. but sometimes it’s what she needs to hear – a girl who grew up adjacent to the stage, she kind of lives for the drama. there’s an occasional hunger for such theatrics. she kisses him like that, too, impassioned as she presses her lips to his again, a hand on his neck to hold him in her orbit, her other sliding down his chest. she’s just teasing him, no intention of taking it further in the living room in the middle of the day, even if her hand curling into the hem of his shorts implies otherwise. “ what if we slept outside tonight ? ” she asks, voice low against the shell of his ear, “ without an audience, without being quiet. ”
HIS STOMACH FLIPS AT THE MENTION OF THEIR FUTURE TOGETHER. it’s not like they haven’t spent the past couple nights staying up late whispering about it in bed, learning countless names of friends and family and family friends that josh can’t wait to meet once they’re out of here. but the word future feels so serious, especially coming naomi. in a good way—like she says. “ this has nothing to do with any of that, though, ” he assures her, thumb tracing the edge of her jaw. “ it doesn’t change anything, y’know ? ” her question makes him laugh, head shaking in mild exasperation. “ that’s a loaded question, ” josh teases. “ with us ? no. ” a pause. “ well, with me and you, no. the idea of meeting your parents scares the shit out of me, if you must know. ” and normally he’s good meeting parents, but having to look adrian santos in the eyes knowing him and naomi’s sex life is so public ? terrifying.
“ shut up, ” he laughs against her lips, blood pumping hotter with her hands running down his body, hooking into his shorts. josh is in no place to keep telling naomi how perfect he thinks she is ; lately he’s afraid that if he starts talking about his feeling to her, he’s going to end up saying something she won’t want to hear. despite being able to fill a book with all his thoughts about her, josh is careful. if mali’s presence is enough to rock the boat, who knows what moving too fast would do. and clearly mali being here as done enough, eyebrows arching in surprise at her suggestion to sleep outside. it’s no secret how she feels about being out there. “ you know i’m not going to say no to that, ” he huffs out a laugh, hand sliding up her back, toying with the string of her bikini. “ but what if i don’t want to wait ? my perfect little girlfriend, ” he says again, but this time it’s clearly teasing, lips on her neck.