Just another picture to burn 🎶
Things had been going well for the past few months. I've been living a happy life. Back to work. Happy and a heart that's full. But then, just a month ago a person from my past came back. Not an ex but an old friend. A big part of my childhood, I can say. It all started with a friend request. Antagal na non actually di ko lang kasi gawain mag-accept ng di ko kakilala. Pero laging may something talaga sakin everytime na makikita ko friend request nya. Feeling ko kakilala ko sya talaga. I just didn't entertain that thought. So I go on with my daily life. Draining yung work ko actually. Parang nauubos talino ko don. So one night, I just arrived at home and doing the usual thing, checking my messenger kahit wala naman talaga akong inexpect na message. The this message from a guy popped up. Message request actually kasi nga kami friends sa fb. And that night pala can change my life na naman. So he introduced himself as my classmate whom I really don't remember na. It turned out, ayy oo nga classmate ko 'to nung nagtransfer ako sa bailen. It took me a while para maalala sya. And yun nga, he was the kid pala I used to ask to draw for me dati kasi di talaga ako marunong. Hahaha sya yung makulit na laging nang-aasar na madalas ko talagang kinukurot non. Sa sobrang tagal na, I almost didn't remember him. Sa dami ba namang ganap sa life. Pero all this time pala he remembers me. Awww that sounds so sweet sana kaso may sabit na sya. He has been courting this girl na siguro for months. If only I have accepted his friend request agad, baka ako yon. Kaso hindi. Nakakainis lang. Lagi na lang di pumapanig ang tadhana sakin. I think my mom will like him. Mabait sya at maayos family. May stable na trabaho because sundalo sya. But more than anything else, I have found this comfort in him. Na kahit di pa ulet kamo nagkikita after a long time andon yung connection eh, di nawala. And yun nga, almost everyday na kami magkausap. Unti unti na din syang nagiging sweet at dun ko na inopen up yung sa nililigawan nya. Sabi nya wala na daw yon, na ako yung pinipili na over that girl. Ilang beses ko sya tinanong, hindi lang isa, hindi lang dalawa. Paulit ulit kong hiningi yunh assurance na yon at paulit ulit nya din syang nagsinungaling. So ako etong si tanga naniwala kasi he's been consistent sa pagtawag nya. Pag nag-uusap kami kita mo sa kanya yung saya. Pero bat ganon no? It ended so soon. Last week lang, inamin nya na sakin na nagiging okay na sila ni girl. Like wtf, eh ano ako diba? Shet, it was so painfully. I felt so cheated. Kung kelan ready na ako to give myself another chance for love tsaka naman ganito. I was so ready to give it a try kahit mahirap kasi sundalo sya. Most of the time di ko sya makakasama. Ready ako for that. Pero it didn't turned out good. Ang tanga ko na kasi indenial pa ako kahit nastalk ko na yung girl and seeing your comments from her photos years ago, you might really like her back then. Anong laban ko don diba? I might be prettier and smarter (mamsh, just stating a fact 💪✌), pero kung di talaga ako ang gusto wala akong laban. Ready akong ipakilala sya sa family ko, jusko ready na nga ako ibigay first kiss ko eh. Yun nga, dahil sa masyado akong advance mag-isip I forgot yung now. Yung reality. Btw, crush ko na sya dati pa. Nung bata pa kami. Hahaha ewan ko, dati pa lang attracted na ako sa kakulitan nya. Eto talaga yung pinagtagpo pero di itinadhana. Tbh, umaasa ako. Umaasa ako na dadating yung time namin. Na baka di lang kami for now. Baka sa future may chance na. Your "i love you's" felt so real. Your sweet words made me felt so alive. Umaasa ako na sana, ako na lang. Kasi ako ready ako to compromise para magwork 'to. Andami mong plano satin eh. Kaso hanggang salita lang pala lahat. You were never true with your words kasi kung minahal mo ako, bat ambilis nawala? Andami ko pang tanong pero wag na lang. For sure, I cannot move on from this eventually. I love you my man. I love you Cedrick. I miss you so bad. I wanna hug you. I wanna kiss you. I wanna be with you. If only fate will allow, I will forever love you.
PS. Nagkakausap pa din kami pero di na tulad ng dati at mukang ako na lang may gusto kaya unti unti ko ng sasanayin sarili ko na wala sya. Kasi ganon naman bago pa sya dumating eh.
















