“I don’t care about which bit you are apologizing for I only know you’ll cause a mess another time. Save them for when they will matter,” she retorts, and looks up at the building again. She should go, she should leave, and the urge to slip down a leyline, to hole up in the House or her cemetery almost wins out.
She is a hypocrite, she knows that. After all, how many bodies or her own has she buried? Her mind wants to reel against the comparison — she doesn’t go looking for the fight but she is not above being the end of one either, and she can’t find it in her to feel sorry for those.
Closer now, so fast it is hard to really say it happened if the movement did not eat up half the space between them so they are within a normal distance for speaking and not the wide berth she gives him usually. Wood pops and creaks and she hears a roaring as something in the attic catches.
“I don’t really know you,” she reminds him. “Not really. I mean — I’ve heard things before and hear things now. And then there’s what you have told me too. And to me? Every single one sounds like a different man.
We both know the path to hell is not always laid with the best intentions but plenty of them are…and I don’t know,” she shrugs, and kicks out at bit of rock.
“What do I have to go on that tells me your discernment is any good? Maybe you course corrected too hard. When does someone have a shot at redemption to you? How long does it need to last? And besides being the Father of Murder why do you get to decide?” It’s not accusatory really, just a rush of questions all right after the other like some dam broke and everything is getting washed out right onto his feet and when she’s done she has the sense to look embarrassed about it.
“It’s —,” she tries again, leaning into something that feels less like pulling the pin out of a grenade and asking it to stop being a grenade. “Everything’s changed. I’m trying to figure it all out.”