My Graves Journey

Just an outlet for my health

[gravesnotdeath]

Insanity

“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.” 

- Albert Einstein

[gravesnotdeath]

The Curse of Chronic Illness

No one ever tells you how completely isolated you’re going to feel. 

You can always tell people you have an autoimmune disease but no one fully understands the gravity of those words unless they experience it too. It’s just impossible for them to grasp. 

So you’re stuck in this bubble alone. 

Of course, you have people who try to understand, but it’s not easy for them either. You can’t do the things you used to. You can’t eat the way you used to. You change completely. You find solace in the depression of loneliness. 

Eventually, you start to miss yourself too.

You can’t go back though. You’re stuck being the husk of the old you. That’s the worst part. The impact on your mental health. You have to be strong even when you feel like you dying. 

Sometimes, you wish you were dying.

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Eternal Rut

I just don’t know what to do right now. 

I feel like I’m a prisoner in my own body. I can’t seem to remember anything. I can’t seem to be able to do the things I used to be able to. I’m always exhausted and sad. I really feel like I’m trying my best but I feel like everyone else is doing so much better than me without even trying.

[gravesnotdeath]

Today is hard. I feel like my health is always declining even though my numbers are good. I’m always tired. I’m always sad. I can’t eat normal food. It’s really hard.