if you stay away from people they can't hurt you

[cristalplanetheart]

[xenomorphique]

that's not a cat that's a knock off

[ashsweet]

Do Not Under Any Circumstances Drink From These Teacups

[thewritehag]

Linking the artist’s Instagram

I wish they sold these teacups as prints; I would have a whole wall for them

[awed-frog]

not all heroes wear capes

[grayrockheartbreak]

Posts going around saying “avoid this shitty person”- YES. PLEASE. If you buy into that bullshit without even caring what my side of the story is, for the love of God, leave me the goddamn, motherfucking, ever-loving, egg-sucking, ball-biting FUCK alone! That’s all I EVER wanted! For the people who started all these ugly rumors just to go away and stop bothering me! They rejected me, bullied me, and threw me out of their community, and when it became clear they had not even the slightest shred of remorse for it, I decided “to hell with them” and went away to form a new and healthier community of my own. I would have been perfectly content to leave it at that forever and just pretend they never ever existed and move on with my life. But SOMEHOW, for SOME godforsaken reason, they just CAN’T stop harassing me, to the point EVERYONE in this part of the fandom thinks I’m a piece of shit! They are fucking OBSESSED!  If you’re still siding with them, screw you, screw them, and screw the horse you rode in on. I want nothing to do with them or you. So stop reblogging my shit, stop sending me pithy little messages about shit I never did, and GO. THE FUCK. AWAY. Anyone else who has something to say will be BLOCKED. I am DONE with this bullshit.

[grayrockheartbreak]

So ttoxic--rose is refusing to continue speaking to me- she says "because she reminds me of my dad and my mental health and"- yeah, yeah, sure. Is it possible arguing with me brought back bad memories? Maybe, I'll grant that. A trigger is a trigger. But the far more likely explanation is, I pressed her to show actual evidence to back up the claims she was making and she didn't. She couldn't. Because it doesn't exist. Because, as I've been saying all along, I'M INNOCENT. I am the target of a smear campaign facilitated by a bunch of petty, immature adults who really ought to know better, and she was duped into buying it. She couldn't admit that without losing face so she says she can't deal with me anymore.

Whatever- I barely even know why we're still fighting. Yeah, I'm trying to maintain my innocence here, but I know I'm never gonna convince her, or anybody else over in Camp Projection. I left the chat she was so upset I was in, which I shouldn't have had to because I didn't break their rules and wasn't guilty of the accusations being leveled at me. So what's even the point?

If she never speaks to me again, good. I want to be shut of all these people who carried out this scorched-earth campaign against me and everyone they brainwashed into helping them. I've found better and healthier communities to be part of and I'd be happy if I never heard from any of these sick, sadistic creeps for the rest of my life. But, if she does decide to start shit again, I'll be right here, secure in the knowledge that I'm telling the truth.

[milligramspoison]

I’m not even going to get into the other shit about you right now, because that isn’t the problem right now.

The problem is you not even apologizing to her for causing her to have bad memories of her father, who only god knows what he did to her. That is something you should apologize for. She had fucking nightmares for crying out loud, and you have the audacity to not even apologize?

But no, all you care about is yourself and these very true accusations about you. If you want to stop dealing with this shit, then fucking leave tumblr and leave ALL of us alone. You’re wasting your breath on this.

And besides, why would a group of adults and minors come together and make up these accusations about you? That doesn’t even make any sense.

So, get pissed all you want like a fucking 5 year old, but this was the wrong thing to do.

Mental health matters, it matters a lot.

[grayrockheartbreak]

If you don’t like me being here, then just IGNORE ME AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I left your chat because somebody finally asked me nicely, instead of lashing out at me over nothing, but you can’t force me to delete my own blog.  Also, apologize? The wrong thing to do? I had a fair debate with her, which she agreed to have. How was I to know that was going to trigger her? For the sake of argument, I’ll assume she’s telling the truth, in which case I’m sorry our discussion caused her to relive those painful memories. But there was no deliberate intent to cause harm or pain on my part, only to defend myself.  Of COURSE I care a lot about these accusations. They’re horrifying and they’re untrue. That doesn’t make me selfish or immature, that makes me NORMAL. My mental health matters, too, and knowing these rumors are floating around out there has done a real number on it. You want to talk about triggers? I HAVE been actually manipulated, abused, and preyed upon, as a minor AND an adult. To be accused of doing those things myself makes my stomach turn. You have no idea how profoundly all this has affected me. So go ahead, pass around everything I say and do as more “proof” that I’m a bad person. I can’t stop you. But LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

[xwecanneverbefriendsx]

first of all i think this has affected all of us in some way i think everyones mental health matters but thats just me

second of all just saying sorry for the sake of the argument is still pretty shitty cuz then it doesnt seem genuine

im not even going to get into the other shit u've done bc u wont admit it and probably wont admit to doing this either but fuck it im pissed abt it so imma bring it up

here we go: it 👏 is 👏 not 👏 that 👏 fucking 👏 hard 👏 to give 👏 someone 👏 a bit 👏 of human 👏 decency 👏 and respect 👏 their 👏 pronouns 👏 its really not hard to click on their user and have their pronouns come up or even ask someone if u forget which they wont mind telling you bc we much prefer u ask us so we get gendered correctly but ur lil cishet brain wouldnt understand that and no cishet person ever fucking will its just how it is

[funghoulbutmoreemo]

Sorry you’re straight... what a life that must be 0_0

[grayrockheartbreak]

Again, I’M FUCKING BISEXUAL. WHEN DID I EVER SAY I WAS STRAIGHT.

DON’T GO ASSUMING SHIT.

[grayrockheartbreak]

So ttoxic--rose is refusing to continue speaking to me- she says "because she reminds me of my dad and my mental health and"- yeah, yeah, sure. Is it possible arguing with me brought back bad memories? Maybe, I'll grant that. A trigger is a trigger. But the far more likely explanation is, I pressed her to show actual evidence to back up the claims she was making and she didn't. She couldn't. Because it doesn't exist. Because, as I've been saying all along, I'M INNOCENT. I am the target of a smear campaign facilitated by a bunch of petty, immature adults who really ought to know better, and she was duped into buying it. She couldn't admit that without losing face so she says she can't deal with me anymore.

Whatever- I barely even know why we're still fighting. Yeah, I'm trying to maintain my innocence here, but I know I'm never gonna convince her, or anybody else over in Camp Projection. I left the chat she was so upset I was in, which I shouldn't have had to because I didn't break their rules and wasn't guilty of the accusations being leveled at me. So what's even the point?

If she never speaks to me again, good. I want to be shut of all these people who carried out this scorched-earth campaign against me and everyone they brainwashed into helping them. I've found better and healthier communities to be part of and I'd be happy if I never heard from any of these sick, sadistic creeps for the rest of my life. But, if she does decide to start shit again, I'll be right here, secure in the knowledge that I'm telling the truth.

[milligramspoison]

I’m not even going to get into the other shit about you right now, because that isn’t the problem right now.

The problem is you not even apologizing to her for causing her to have bad memories of her father, who only god knows what he did to her. That is something you should apologize for. She had fucking nightmares for crying out loud, and you have the audacity to not even apologize?

But no, all you care about is yourself and these very true accusations about you. If you want to stop dealing with this shit, then fucking leave tumblr and leave ALL of us alone. You’re wasting your breath on this.

And besides, why would a group of adults and minors come together and make up these accusations about you? That doesn’t even make any sense.

So, get pissed all you want like a fucking 5 year old, but this was the wrong thing to do.

Mental health matters, it matters a lot.

[grayrockheartbreak]

If you don’t like me being here, then just IGNORE ME AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I left your chat because somebody finally asked me nicely, instead of lashing out at me over nothing, but you can’t force me to delete my own blog.  Also, apologize? The wrong thing to do? I had a fair debate with her, which she agreed to have. How was I to know that was going to trigger her? For the sake of argument, I’ll assume she’s telling the truth, in which case I’m sorry our discussion caused her to relive those painful memories. But there was no deliberate intent to cause harm or pain on my part, only to defend myself.  Of COURSE I care a lot about these accusations. They’re horrifying and they’re untrue. That doesn’t make me selfish or immature, that makes me NORMAL. My mental health matters, too, and knowing these rumors are floating around out there has done a real number on it. You want to talk about triggers? I HAVE been actually manipulated, abused, and preyed upon, as a minor AND an adult. To be accused of doing those things myself makes my stomach turn. You have no idea how profoundly all this has affected me. So go ahead, pass around everything I say and do as more “proof” that I’m a bad person. I can’t stop you. But LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

[xwecanneverbefriendsx]

first of all i think this has affected all of us in some way i think everyones mental health matters but thats just me

second of all just saying sorry for the sake of the argument is still pretty shitty cuz then it doesnt seem genuine

im not even going to get into the other shit u've done bc u wont admit it and probably wont admit to doing this either but fuck it im pissed abt it so imma bring it up

here we go: it 👏 is 👏 not 👏 that 👏 fucking 👏 hard 👏 to give 👏 someone 👏 a bit 👏 of human 👏 decency 👏 and respect 👏 their 👏 pronouns 👏 its really not hard to click on their user and have their pronouns come up or even ask someone if u forget which they wont mind telling you bc we much prefer u ask us so we get gendered correctly but ur lil cishet brain wouldnt understand that and no cishet person ever fucking will its just how it is

[grayrockheartbreak]

What does this thread have to do with pronouns? But since you brought them up... I try my best to remember and respect them, but sometimes I do screw up. It’s accidental. I have never deliberately misgendered someone. I am bisexual. Nice of you to assume I’m a cishet bigot on top of everything else, thanks for that.

[kjrp-anon]

this will be a big post. bear with me please.

there are various sources.

source 1

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 - was scared into not coming forward about what transpired between them and grreengrrl.

[kjrp-anon]

source 3 - runs a server grreengrrl was a member of before she was banned.

"Grreengrrl shared a lot (a few handfuls of screenshots worth) of personal information, painting herself as an innocent victim of a very traumatic life. I am not sharing these because of their personal nature, regardless if it is fabricated, embellished, or true. We felt bad for her and offered our support and help. She then knew she had us where she wanted us, to try and control us into doing what she wanted. It is important to note that she cannot seem to separate RP from real life. One thing she made clear in her RP interactions was that she wanted her underage character to start dating our adult characters, which we were not going to do. Things happened in the RP involving her character that she was not happy with. She tried very hard to manipulate us into giving her what she wanted. This is all out of character chat. "

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont - "Tensions were really high, grreengrrl wouldn't give up on trying to get what she wanted. Things got heated. It was a bad time in the server."

"And here she is trying to guilt trip us. She says here that she is sorry, but continues the same behavior in and out of character."

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont

"So, we eventually had to ban her because this kept repeating. She created her own server and started to harass the others on my server to leave and join hers instead. She also took a map I had created and used it for her server, without my permission. Someone told me about this and I confronted her saying it was not for her to use. She told me she took it down. Instead, she told people to DM her for a map. I found out that she was sending them copies of my map again even though she knew I did not want it distributed."

[kjrp-anon]

source 4 - a group chat on tumblr where she argues with minors and they beg her to stop and leave

[grayrockheartbreak]

So much of this is taken out of context, twisted around, or straight up lies I hardly know where to begin.

Let's take it from the top.

I know who all these people are (I think) but I'm not going to name names or even try to contact them directly because 1) I know it's a lost cause even trying to mend things with them and 2) they'd probably construe it as another "attack".

Source 1

There had recently been drama with another user on the server about pronoun use. I accidentally (repeat, ACCIDENTALLY) misgendered someone and that other user blew up at me. I apologized and promised to do better but they wouldn't hear me and left the server. So when Source 1 started vague-posting about taking a break from all their servers because of transphobia, naturally I was under the impression they were referring to that.

I'm going to reblog this for every source because scrolling up and down in the tiny reading window on mobile is pure hell, so bear with me.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 2- This person was making assumptions about the lore of the RP's verse that directly contradicted re-established interactions, and raising a stink because I didn't agree with their interpretation of canon. A few replies later they assumed my character did something in reaction to theirs without my input, which is the definition of godmodding. Also, Sources 1 and 2 are the same person.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 3- I shared my personal life because I thought they were friends I could trust enough to vent to. Yes, I admit to identifying too closely to my character, and being too defensive in some interactions with her. No, in retrospect, I do NOT agree that I was manipulating anyone, deliberately or no. Since that argument I have come to realize that at best they misunderstood my actions and at worst were trying to gaslight me into feeling guilty for having differences of opinion with them or making any kind of negative metacommentary on the events of the plot/my character's motivation. Which is what the two examples they gave were about, btw. The second one is taken very much out of context- their characters had said and done some cruel things to my character at an emotionally vulnerable time, and so she reacted accordingly. They felt her reaction (to run away, angry and crying, to someone else she thought would be more understanding) made her a whiny brat. To me that seemed wrong and I said so. It was a small part of the series of events I apologized for later. As for "forcing" a character to come apologize to her, we were trying to figure out a way to reintegrate her with her adopted family. I said the only way I could see was if one of them apologized for hurting her. We spent some time trying to figure out what to do, until one of the players VOLUNTEERED to send their character to apologize to her. I didn't "force" the player to do so and was actively to think of something else to resolve the situation that everyone could be happy with.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 3 continued- For most of it you can apply my response above. As for stealing people, NO. I was not trying to poach from her server. I asked some of the people I had played with there and meshed better with if they would to to be invited to my server also, because I enjoyed interacting with them and wanted to still be friends. It was never conditional on them leaving the other one. The only user I asked to leave with me in solidarity was my best friend. No one else.

I'll admit to the map thing. In my defense, I didn't realize it would upset them at first. After using that map for my time in their server it was where everything was in my head. From my perspective, it was sharing fanart with other fans. I never took credit for it as my own, in fact I said upfront someone else made it. The spraypaint-angel account was the one they set up to spy on me and undermine my server with, something I may never be able to fully forgive. However, I'll sincerely apologize for DMing it after. At that point I was feeling spiteful, after all they'd said and done. They didn't bother to cap and share any of the cruel messages they sent me over Tumblr DMs, I notice, or after the part of my ban discussion that made them look good, and those had made me feel pretty salty. Still, it was a messed up thing to do and whatever my reasons, it was wrong.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 4. Sigh. For the record, THAT happened because THEY harassed ME first. Two of the members were pressuring the mod to kick me out of the chat because they'd seen the post accusing me of being a sicko and a tyrant. Modt other chats had already kicked me, no questions asked, no chance to defend myself. I went over how and why all the claims made were wrong, untrue, or taken out of context point by point, but they wouldn't hear it. They just kept regurgitating the same junk from that post over and over. They said some genuinely hurtful things to me based on those unfounded accusations. In the end, I was only sticking around because it felt like it would be an admission of guilt to leave. It was one of the only remaining fandom spaces I had to defend my innocence in. They chose to show you parts from only the end of the argument, where after literally days of constant attacks I was worn down and unspeakably angry, and admittedly resorted to some immature name calling and insults. The "quiet while adults are talking" was especially mean, I admit, but to be fair, they wanted to be treated like either kids or adults depending on which suited their needs better throughout the whole debacle, and I was thinking "they can't use their youth as a shield and then expect to be treated like grownups, they can't have it both ways". At that point another adult from the group was trying to act as a proxy but they couldn't just wait for the two of us, they had to keep piling on me. I know, I know, as a grown woman I shouldn't let a couple teenage bullies get under my skin, but discovering just how far the disgusting untruths about me had spread felt like the last straw. So yes, I got irrational, refused to go anywhere, insisted that because I'd done nothing wrong, or at least not most if the things of which I stood accused I had as much right to be there as anybody, and fought a lost cause which objectively shouldn't gave even mattered all that much in the grand scheme of things.

Even now, I know none if this will make a difference to those of you who've made up your minds that I'm a bad person. But I wanted, NEEDED, to get my truth out there. I needed everyone to see both sides of the story. I needed to accept blame where it was due and contest it where it was not. If you believe all my accusers have to say and believe it, fine, block me and go on your way. Just leave me be. If you don't, give me a chance, or at the very least, don't treat me like a monster.

[kjrp-anon]

this will be a big post. bear with me please.

there are various sources.

source 1

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 - was scared into not coming forward about what transpired between them and grreengrrl.

[kjrp-anon]

source 3 - runs a server grreengrrl was a member of before she was banned.

"Grreengrrl shared a lot (a few handfuls of screenshots worth) of personal information, painting herself as an innocent victim of a very traumatic life. I am not sharing these because of their personal nature, regardless if it is fabricated, embellished, or true. We felt bad for her and offered our support and help. She then knew she had us where she wanted us, to try and control us into doing what she wanted. It is important to note that she cannot seem to separate RP from real life. One thing she made clear in her RP interactions was that she wanted her underage character to start dating our adult characters, which we were not going to do. Things happened in the RP involving her character that she was not happy with. She tried very hard to manipulate us into giving her what she wanted. This is all out of character chat. "

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont - "Tensions were really high, grreengrrl wouldn't give up on trying to get what she wanted. Things got heated. It was a bad time in the server."

"And here she is trying to guilt trip us. She says here that she is sorry, but continues the same behavior in and out of character."

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont

"So, we eventually had to ban her because this kept repeating. She created her own server and started to harass the others on my server to leave and join hers instead. She also took a map I had created and used it for her server, without my permission. Someone told me about this and I confronted her saying it was not for her to use. She told me she took it down. Instead, she told people to DM her for a map. I found out that she was sending them copies of my map again even though she knew I did not want it distributed."

[kjrp-anon]

source 4 - a group chat on tumblr where she argues with minors and they beg her to stop and leave

[grayrockheartbreak]

So much of this is taken out of context, twisted around, or straight up lies I hardly know where to begin.

Let's take it from the top.

I know who all these people are (I think) but I'm not going to name names or even try to contact them directly because 1) I know it's a lost cause even trying to mend things with them and 2) they'd probably construe it as another "attack".

Source 1

There had recently been drama with another user on the server about pronoun use. I accidentally (repeat, ACCIDENTALLY) misgendered someone and that other user blew up at me. I apologized and promised to do better but they wouldn't hear me and left the server. So when Source 1 started vague-posting about taking a break from all their servers because of transphobia, naturally I was under the impression they were referring to that.

I'm going to reblog this for every source because scrolling up and down in the tiny reading window on mobile is pure hell, so bear with me.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 2- This person was making assumptions about the lore of the RP's verse that directly contradicted re-established interactions, and raising a stink because I didn't agree with their interpretation of canon. A few replies later they assumed my character did something in reaction to theirs without my input, which is the definition of godmodding. Also, Sources 1 and 2 are the same person.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 3- I shared my personal life because I thought they were friends I could trust enough to vent to. Yes, I admit to identifying too closely to my character, and being too defensive in some interactions with her. No, in retrospect, I do NOT agree that I was manipulating anyone, deliberately or no. Since that argument I have come to realize that at best they misunderstood my actions and at worst were trying to gaslight me into feeling guilty for having differences of opinion with them or making any kind of negative metacommentary on the events of the plot/my character's motivation. Which is what the two examples they gave were about, btw. The second one is taken very much out of context- their characters had said and done some cruel things to my character at an emotionally vulnerable time, and so she reacted accordingly. They felt her reaction (to run away, angry and crying, to someone else she thought would be more understanding) made her a whiny brat. To me that seemed wrong and I said so. It was a small part of the series of events I apologized for later. As for "forcing" a character to come apologize to her, we were trying to figure out a way to reintegrate her with her adopted family. I said the only way I could see was if one of them apologized for hurting her. We spent some time trying to figure out what to do, until one of the players VOLUNTEERED to send their character to apologize to her. I didn't "force" the player to do so and was actively to think of something else to resolve the situation that everyone could be happy with.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 3 continued- For most of it you can apply my response above. As for stealing people, NO. I was not trying to poach from her server. I asked some of the people I had played with there and meshed better with if they would to to be invited to my server also, because I enjoyed interacting with them and wanted to still be friends. It was never conditional on them leaving the other one. The only user I asked to leave with me in solidarity was my best friend. No one else.

I'll admit to the map thing. In my defense, I didn't realize it would upset them at first. After using that map for my time in their server it was where everything was in my head. From my perspective, it was sharing fanart with other fans. I never took credit for it as my own, in fact I said upfront someone else made it. The spraypaint-angel account was the one they set up to spy on me and undermine my server with, something I may never be able to fully forgive. However, I'll sincerely apologize for DMing it after. At that point I was feeling spiteful, after all they'd said and done. They didn't bother to cap and share any of the cruel messages they sent me over Tumblr DMs, I notice, or after the part of my ban discussion that made them look good, and those had made me feel pretty salty. Still, it was a messed up thing to do and whatever my reasons, it was wrong.

[kjrp-anon]

this will be a big post. bear with me please.

there are various sources.

source 1

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 - was scared into not coming forward about what transpired between them and grreengrrl.

[kjrp-anon]

source 3 - runs a server grreengrrl was a member of before she was banned.

"Grreengrrl shared a lot (a few handfuls of screenshots worth) of personal information, painting herself as an innocent victim of a very traumatic life. I am not sharing these because of their personal nature, regardless if it is fabricated, embellished, or true. We felt bad for her and offered our support and help. She then knew she had us where she wanted us, to try and control us into doing what she wanted. It is important to note that she cannot seem to separate RP from real life. One thing she made clear in her RP interactions was that she wanted her underage character to start dating our adult characters, which we were not going to do. Things happened in the RP involving her character that she was not happy with. She tried very hard to manipulate us into giving her what she wanted. This is all out of character chat. "

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont - "Tensions were really high, grreengrrl wouldn't give up on trying to get what she wanted. Things got heated. It was a bad time in the server."

"And here she is trying to guilt trip us. She says here that she is sorry, but continues the same behavior in and out of character."

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont

"So, we eventually had to ban her because this kept repeating. She created her own server and started to harass the others on my server to leave and join hers instead. She also took a map I had created and used it for her server, without my permission. Someone told me about this and I confronted her saying it was not for her to use. She told me she took it down. Instead, she told people to DM her for a map. I found out that she was sending them copies of my map again even though she knew I did not want it distributed."

[kjrp-anon]

source 4 - a group chat on tumblr where she argues with minors and they beg her to stop and leave

[grayrockheartbreak]

So much of this is taken out of context, twisted around, or straight up lies I hardly know where to begin.

Let's take it from the top.

I know who all these people are (I think) but I'm not going to name names or even try to contact them directly because 1) I know it's a lost cause even trying to mend things with them and 2) they'd probably construe it as another "attack".

Source 1

There had recently been drama with another user on the server about pronoun use. I accidentally (repeat, ACCIDENTALLY) misgendered someone and that other user blew up at me. I apologized and promised to do better but they wouldn't hear me and left the server. So when Source 1 started vague-posting about taking a break from all their servers because of transphobia, naturally I was under the impression they were referring to that.

I'm going to reblog this for every source because scrolling up and down in the tiny reading window on mobile is pure hell, so bear with me.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 2- This person was making assumptions about the lore of the RP's verse that directly contradicted re-established interactions, and raising a stink because I didn't agree with their interpretation of canon. A few replies later they assumed my character did something in reaction to theirs without my input, which is the definition of godmodding. Also, Sources 1 and 2 are the same person.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 3- I shared my personal life because I thought they were friends I could trust enough to vent to. Yes, I admit to identifying too closely to my character, and being too defensive in some interactions with her. No, in retrospect, I do NOT agree that I was manipulating anyone, deliberately or no. Since that argument I have come to realize that at best they misunderstood my actions and at worst were trying to gaslight me into feeling guilty for having differences of opinion with them or making any kind of negative metacommentary on the events of the plot/my character's motivation. Which is what the two examples they gave were about, btw. The second one is taken very much out of context- their characters had said and done some cruel things to my character at an emotionally vulnerable time, and so she reacted accordingly. They felt her reaction (to run away, angry and crying, to someone else she thought would be more understanding) made her a whiny brat. To me that seemed wrong and I said so. It was a small part of the series of events I apologized for later. As for "forcing" a character to come apologize to her, we were trying to figure out a way to reintegrate her with her adopted family. I said the only way I could see was if one of them apologized for hurting her. We spent some time trying to figure out what to do, until one of the players VOLUNTEERED to send their character to apologize to her. I didn't "force" the player to do so and was actively to think of something else to resolve the situation that everyone could be happy with.

[kjrp-anon]

this will be a big post. bear with me please.

there are various sources.

source 1

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 - was scared into not coming forward about what transpired between them and grreengrrl.

[kjrp-anon]

source 3 - runs a server grreengrrl was a member of before she was banned.

"Grreengrrl shared a lot (a few handfuls of screenshots worth) of personal information, painting herself as an innocent victim of a very traumatic life. I am not sharing these because of their personal nature, regardless if it is fabricated, embellished, or true. We felt bad for her and offered our support and help. She then knew she had us where she wanted us, to try and control us into doing what she wanted. It is important to note that she cannot seem to separate RP from real life. One thing she made clear in her RP interactions was that she wanted her underage character to start dating our adult characters, which we were not going to do. Things happened in the RP involving her character that she was not happy with. She tried very hard to manipulate us into giving her what she wanted. This is all out of character chat. "

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont - "Tensions were really high, grreengrrl wouldn't give up on trying to get what she wanted. Things got heated. It was a bad time in the server."

"And here she is trying to guilt trip us. She says here that she is sorry, but continues the same behavior in and out of character."

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont

"So, we eventually had to ban her because this kept repeating. She created her own server and started to harass the others on my server to leave and join hers instead. She also took a map I had created and used it for her server, without my permission. Someone told me about this and I confronted her saying it was not for her to use. She told me she took it down. Instead, she told people to DM her for a map. I found out that she was sending them copies of my map again even though she knew I did not want it distributed."

[kjrp-anon]

source 4 - a group chat on tumblr where she argues with minors and they beg her to stop and leave

[grayrockheartbreak]

So much of this is taken out of context, twisted around, or straight up lies I hardly know where to begin.

Let's take it from the top.

I know who all these people are (I think) but I'm not going to name names or even try to contact them directly because 1) I know it's a lost cause even trying to mend things with them and 2) they'd probably construe it as another "attack".

Source 1

There had recently been drama with another user on the server about pronoun use. I accidentally (repeat, ACCIDENTALLY) misgendered someone and that other user blew up at me. I apologized and promised to do better but they wouldn't hear me and left the server. So when Source 1 started vague-posting about taking a break from all their servers because of transphobia, naturally I was under the impression they were referring to that.

I'm going to reblog this for every source because scrolling up and down in the tiny reading window on mobile is pure hell, so bear with me.

[grayrockheartbreak]

Source 2- This person was making assumptions about the lore of the RP's verse that directly contradicted re-established interactions, and raising a stink because I didn't agree with their interpretation of canon. A few replies later they assumed my character did something in reaction to theirs without my input, which is the definition of godmodding. Also, Sources 1 and 2 are the same person.

[kjrp-anon]

this will be a big post. bear with me please.

there are various sources.

source 1

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 - was scared into not coming forward about what transpired between them and grreengrrl.

[kjrp-anon]

source 3 - runs a server grreengrrl was a member of before she was banned.

"Grreengrrl shared a lot (a few handfuls of screenshots worth) of personal information, painting herself as an innocent victim of a very traumatic life. I am not sharing these because of their personal nature, regardless if it is fabricated, embellished, or true. We felt bad for her and offered our support and help. She then knew she had us where she wanted us, to try and control us into doing what she wanted. It is important to note that she cannot seem to separate RP from real life. One thing she made clear in her RP interactions was that she wanted her underage character to start dating our adult characters, which we were not going to do. Things happened in the RP involving her character that she was not happy with. She tried very hard to manipulate us into giving her what she wanted. This is all out of character chat. "

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont - "Tensions were really high, grreengrrl wouldn't give up on trying to get what she wanted. Things got heated. It was a bad time in the server."

"And here she is trying to guilt trip us. She says here that she is sorry, but continues the same behavior in and out of character."

[kjrp-anon]

source 2 cont

"So, we eventually had to ban her because this kept repeating. She created her own server and started to harass the others on my server to leave and join hers instead. She also took a map I had created and used it for her server, without my permission. Someone told me about this and I confronted her saying it was not for her to use. She told me she took it down. Instead, she told people to DM her for a map. I found out that she was sending them copies of my map again even though she knew I did not want it distributed."

[kjrp-anon]

source 4 - a group chat on tumblr where she argues with minors and they beg her to stop and leave

[grayrockheartbreak]

So much of this is taken out of context, twisted around, or straight up lies I hardly know where to begin.

Let's take it from the top.

I know who all these people are (I think) but I'm not going to name names or even try to contact them directly because 1) I know it's a lost cause even trying to mend things with them and 2) they'd probably construe it as another "attack".

Source 1

There had recently been drama with another user on the server about pronoun use. I accidentally (repeat, ACCIDENTALLY) misgendered someone and that other user blew up at me. I apologized and promised to do better but they wouldn't hear me and left the server. So when Source 1 started vague-posting about taking a break from all their servers because of transphobia, naturally I was under the impression they were referring to that. EDIT: Also, it occurs to me I forgot to address the “pair a minor with an adult” thing. Uh, FUCK NO, GROSS, WHAT THE FUCK. I wrote her as a starstruck teenager with a crush, I didn’t actually want them to be together, OMG EW.

I'm going to reblog this for every source because scrolling up and down in the tiny reading window on mobile is pure hell, so bear with me.

[grayrockheartbreak]

So ttoxic--rose is refusing to continue speaking to me- she says "because she reminds me of my dad and my mental health and"- yeah, yeah, sure. Is it possible arguing with me brought back bad memories? Maybe, I'll grant that. A trigger is a trigger. But the far more likely explanation is, I pressed her to show actual evidence to back up the claims she was making and she didn't. She couldn't. Because it doesn't exist. Because, as I've been saying all along, I'M INNOCENT. I am the target of a smear campaign facilitated by a bunch of petty, immature adults who really ought to know better, and she was duped into buying it. She couldn't admit that without losing face so she says she can't deal with me anymore.

Whatever- I barely even know why we're still fighting. Yeah, I'm trying to maintain my innocence here, but I know I'm never gonna convince her, or anybody else over in Camp Projection. I left the chat she was so upset I was in, which I shouldn't have had to because I didn't break their rules and wasn't guilty of the accusations being leveled at me. So what's even the point?

If she never speaks to me again, good. I want to be shut of all these people who carried out this scorched-earth campaign against me and everyone they brainwashed into helping them. I've found better and healthier communities to be part of and I'd be happy if I never heard from any of these sick, sadistic creeps for the rest of my life. But, if she does decide to start shit again, I'll be right here, secure in the knowledge that I'm telling the truth.

[milligramspoison]

I’m not even going to get into the other shit about you right now, because that isn’t the problem right now.

The problem is you not even apologizing to her for causing her to have bad memories of her father, who only god knows what he did to her. That is something you should apologize for. She had fucking nightmares for crying out loud, and you have the audacity to not even apologize?

But no, all you care about is yourself and these very true accusations about you. If you want to stop dealing with this shit, then fucking leave tumblr and leave ALL of us alone. You’re wasting your breath on this.

And besides, why would a group of adults and minors come together and make up these accusations about you? That doesn’t even make any sense.

So, get pissed all you want like a fucking 5 year old, but this was the wrong thing to do.

Mental health matters, it matters a lot.

[grayrockheartbreak]

If you don’t like me being here, then just IGNORE ME AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I left your chat because somebody finally asked me nicely, instead of lashing out at me over nothing, but you can’t force me to delete my own blog.  Also, apologize? The wrong thing to do? I had a fair debate with her, which she agreed to have. How was I to know that was going to trigger her? For the sake of argument, I’ll assume she’s telling the truth, in which case I’m sorry our discussion caused her to relive those painful memories. But there was no deliberate intent to cause harm or pain on my part, only to defend myself.  Of COURSE I care a lot about these accusations. They’re horrifying and they’re untrue. That doesn’t make me selfish or immature, that makes me NORMAL. My mental health matters, too, and knowing these rumors are floating around out there has done a real number on it. You want to talk about triggers? I HAVE been actually manipulated, abused, and preyed upon, as a minor AND an adult. To be accused of doing those things myself makes my stomach turn. You have no idea how profoundly all this has affected me. So go ahead, pass around everything I say and do as more “proof” that I’m a bad person. I can’t stop you. But LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

[grayrockheartbreak]

So ttoxic--rose is refusing to continue speaking to me- she says "because she reminds me of my dad and my mental health and"- yeah, yeah, sure. Is it possible arguing with me brought back bad memories? Maybe, I'll grant that. A trigger is a trigger. But the far more likely explanation is, I pressed her to show actual evidence to back up the claims she was making and she didn't. She couldn't. Because it doesn't exist. Because, as I've been saying all along, I'M INNOCENT. I am the target of a smear campaign facilitated by a bunch of petty, immature adults who really ought to know better, and she was duped into buying it. She couldn't admit that without losing face so she says she can't deal with me anymore.

Whatever- I barely even know why we're still fighting. Yeah, I'm trying to maintain my innocence here, but I know I'm never gonna convince her, or anybody else over in Camp Projection. I left the chat she was so upset I was in, which I shouldn't have had to because I didn't break their rules and wasn't guilty of the accusations being leveled at me. So what's even the point?

If she never speaks to me again, good. I want to be shut of all these people who carried out this scorched-earth campaign against me and everyone they brainwashed into helping them. I've found better and healthier communities to be part of and I'd be happy if I never heard from any of these sick, sadistic creeps for the rest of my life. But, if she does decide to start shit again, I'll be right here, secure in the knowledge that I'm telling the truth.

[ttoxic--rose]

@grreengrrl-reactivated

Alright, let’s talk.

[ttoxic--rose]

From what I saw, you did. By posting what you said. That started it all. And when someone says stop doing something. You stop. They were begging you in that chat to just leave. You finally did but you had done some damage. In my book, that’s bullying.

You are just digging that grave deeper and deeper. Again...change the course of how you do things and I betcha you’ll get better results.

[grayrockheartbreak]

I posted what I did to protest my innocence. I didn't pick any fights. They were attacking me just for BEING there. I didn't do anything to provoke them.

Also, doing something someone doesn't want you to do is bullying? The hell? Do you have any idea how absurdly broad that premise is?

I stayed put because I had every right to be there. I hadn't done anything wrong and they piled on, trying to drive me out, over nothing. There is a big fat line between bullying and standing up for yourself.

I notice you completely sidestepped the question of where that so-called "proof" is. Namely, those screenshots everybody's talking about and nobody seems to actually have. Without them, all this is just talk and talk is cheap.

[babyanimalgifs]

“it’s that time of the year for butterflies in Mexico” 

(Source)

[doomhope]

[video description:

Thousands of orange monarch butterflies fly quickly across a sunny field near an evergreen forest and a few houses. There is no audio.

End description.]

[ttoxic--rose]

@grreengrrl-reactivated

Alright, let’s talk.

[grayrockheartbreak]

There are a lot of ugly rumors about me flying around out there and none of it is true. It's largely based on things exaggerated, taken out of context, or made up whole cloth. I made some enemies among some influential people in this fandom and they have been hounding me ever since, spreading lies, using sockpuppet accounts, and bringing on board anyone I have ever had a misunderstanding or disagreement with. They keep insisting they have proof to support their claims but I have yet to see any that isn't pure hearsay. At this point, this isn't even about roleplay anymore, it's about clearing my name. That's why I haven't backed down or given up- I will NOT let these sickening accusations stand, no matter how old the person making them happens to be. I'm not evil, I'm not dangerous, and I'm not a monster. I'm sick of this adolescent high school rumor mill crap that's destroying my ability to even enjoy this fandom anymore. That's the honest truth, on everything I hold sacred.

[ttoxic--rose]

First off, you arguing in the group chats and refusing to leave is not helping your case. It’s making us all believe that stuff even more. Because you are being a bully, The best thing for you to do is stop your current course of action...because it’s staining your rep even more. 

I’ve read the post and have spoken to people. I have seen the screenshots. It all seems pretty legit dude. 

[grayrockheartbreak]

Sigh... would you mind showing me these alleged screenshots? People keep mentioning them and they never seem to materialize.

Also, I'm being a bully? I was minding my own business when the others attacked ME.

I am nothing like these people say and I have every right to occupy space in this fandom.

[queermachmir]

“What is it that the child has to teach?

The child naively believes that everything should be fair and everyone should be honest, that only good should prevail, that everybody should have what they want and there should be no pain or sadness. The child believes the world should be perfect and is outraged to discover it is not.

And the child is right.”

— Rabbi Tzvi Freeman

[spaceraptor]

“Westerners are fond of the saying ‘Life isn’t fair.’ Then, they end in snide triumphant: ‘So get used to it!’ What a cruel, sadistic notion to revel in! What a terrible, patriarchal response to a child’s budding sense of ethics. Announce to an Iroquois, ‘Life isn’t fair,’ and her response will be: ‘Then make it fair!’” –Barbara Alice Mann