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she/her

[greeney3db1tch]

welcome 🥀 intro ⛓️

Hello! I thought I should introduce myself :)

about me:

I am 19 years old

I am a Taurus

My MBTI is ISFP

I will be a sophomore in college - fall 2024. I just transferred.

I am majoring in Sociology with a concentration in Pre-Law

my interests:

My favorite musical artists/bands are Lorde, Mitski, Pantera, Type O Negative, and Korn.

I really love leopard print — my phone case is leopard print, wallpaper, widgets, shoes, outfits, bedding, bags, etc.

I love Studio Ghibli films, my favorite is The Cat Returns.

I love wedding dresses, I can name a few designers, I know silhouette names. I have always thought about being a bridal consultant or work in the wedding field. My pinterest board goes brrr. I also love engagement rings and I know certain cuts and know of some designers as well :).

Thank you for your time!

<3 E

[greeney3db1tch]

it is so exhausting living, creating characters, locations, plots, acting things out and physically aching afterwards, in my own head

i do have friends in real life and i’m so grateful for them. i also realize i take their personality for my side para’s to fit my main para’s story.

idk bro

[greeney3db1tch]

❣️❣️decor/recs help❣️❣️

Hello! I moved back in March and I haven’t decided on what I want to do as my style is constantly changing. I personally am not a minimalist if that helps. I would like a moody maximalist approach. I did get a side table lamp for the nightstand to clarify as it’s not pictured. I am open to recommendations, style tips, or what you guys think will work well with the bedroom furniture! Thank you for your time ❤️❤️

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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im in love with someone who doesn’t exist

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my maladaptive daydreaming is becoming really unbearable and exhausting :/ i really wanna d13!!! its so hard to talk about it to other people because they’re unfamiliar with the term and what a toll it takes on me

[greeney3db1tch]

🕯️ 🫧 WEEKLY R.E.P.O.R.T 🕯️ 🕰️

R - reading

📖 Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros (long book might show up again next week)

E - Eating (( MISO SOUP! ))

P - playing

🎶 Within You - David Bowie/Labyrinth Sountrack 🎶

O - Obsessing

This 7 minute drawing of me at a market and my miffy and plant figurines I got from B&N

R - Recommeding

To walk around neighborhood/community markets!!

T - Treating ((matcha,, it was gross))

Until next week!!

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[greeney3db1tch]

ʕ⁎̯͡⁎ʔ༄WEEKLY R.E.P.O.R.Tʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

i haven’t done one of these in ages

R - reading

Thought it was pretty fitting to reread this book hence everything that’s going on America.

E - Eating

avocado cucumber roll 😈

P - playing

O - Obsessing

This picture I took in my backyard cuz the sky was purple

R - Recommending

creating a letterboxd account because this is my holy grail and it helped me develop a hobby - watching movies and rating them. user is esmer3lk

T - Treating

I went thrifting and omg the finds were divine.

thank you for tuning in :)

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[academic-vampire]

I’m not even kidding when I say that I could keep myself occupied by daydreaming for (probably) months, if not years. I have a list on my phone for all of the “daydreaming scenarios” I like to escape into whenever I desire. Anyway, there’s that…

[greeney3db1tch]

i feel like i don’t fit in anywhere. i went to an out of state four year university my freshman year, then i transferred to another out of state four year university for fall 2024, then transferred to a local community college for this spring semester. i love my hometown desperately but i can’t help but feel regret and think of the “what ifs”. like if i had stayed here from the start, rather at a four year institution in my home state rather than going to CC. or not going to college i went to for my freshman year. i am terrified for the future because i feel like i am going to fuck it up AGAIN by choosing the school i thought was for me then resent it and wanting to come back and continue the cycle. i don’t want to waste time or money. i can’t help but wonder what life would’ve been like if i had picked a different school from the start. i feel like i have fucked up my future. my madd scenarios/paras always took place in the DMV area and it’s just so hard to explain to my friends and family about my daydreams. i just feel like i am not meeting them faster. i always spiral about this.

[greeney3db1tch]

nov 6 thoughts-update-crash out

hello.

it’s been awhile since I have posted, I apologize for oversharing and dumping i just don’t know where else to rant.

I genuinely have no idea what to think or say. I have been thinking about moving back to florida and taking a gap semester to work and actually get my driver’s license and to really figure things out. however I fear differently. Something just feels entirely different regardless of this election. I fear I cant win against the war in my head while also grieving this election. I grieve the “what ifs” and I regret so damn easily. I regret going to the college I went to as freshman first. I regret not staying in florida. I also regret wasting so much time during high school. I wish I never left. I keep telling myself that I always have a plan b, but I fear I will regret and waste time yet again and I fear that I will never be successful or content with myself, especially after january 20th. Either way I feel like I can’t win. I don’t have an escape and I feel like I am going backwards.

anyways fuck trump and lock tf in

[greeney3db1tch]

having your parents walk in on you mid daydream is more embarrassing than breaking something at a home goods

[greeney3db1tch]

this kind of pissed me off because some people who are responding to this is making it seem like maladaptive daydreaming is some whimsical nonsense and coming up with fake scenarios in order to sleep at night. while that can be true, MALADAPTIVE means negatively affecting to function daily.

like it is NOT normal.

no hate to OP! just to give my two cents

[greeney3db1tch]

tw. su!c!de

fomo is what’s keeping me alive right now. i want to know how far i will go and where i end up. i want to see my life when college is over, where i will be living and working, etc.

some days the daydreams become to excessive where i would rather want to be dead than to keep pacing and mentally exhausting myself constantly. but i am also thankful for my daydreams for helping me cope and to be optimistic that these people i created will come into my life for real someday soon.

i feel like i am self harming myself mentally by daydreaming crazy ass and hurtful scenarios to the point i sob on my bedroom floor. but i also daydream nurturing love and exciting adventures, lowkey manifesting shit.

i am just so impatient but i know my life hasn’t fully started yet. we shall see.

thank you for your time.

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i have never wanted to have sex with a man, only with the one i created in my head 🤨

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this summer has def been the loneliest. i’ve been constantly bored and my screen time has gone up a bunch. i don’t have many people to talk to as much as i did in high school.

i’ve been cleaning out my closet and listening to music to distract myself from the boredom and loneliness.

otherwise, i spend most of my time daydreaming. i’m sort of in a slump, i keep replaying the same scene in my head over and over, nothing new for my brain/entertainment.

[magpie-misfortunes]

the 'having a fun little daydream world as a child' to "i rely so much upon escapism to escape from the monotony of life that days seem to pass too quickly and sometimes i don't feel real" pipeline