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Its been a rough few weeks

The past 2 months have been hard. I don’t feel hard is a big enough word for how hard it has been. I wrote a whole new research paper hoping that it would please my advisor. It did the opposite. She was angry that I wrote a new paper and told me to go back to my original manuscript. I did that. I’ve now completed the 6th draft and it is off to my advisor for her final read through before I…

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Lets Talk About Failure

Failure is a word that has so much negativity to it. In my mind it means incompetent. It shouldn’t be such abad thing, because no one succeeds at everything at the first try. In realty we face failure every day, in small doses. You failed to get up on time, failed to grab the right item from the cupboard on the first try. So I failed my research project paper. In order to graduate from RVC, you…

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"Mother, i crave Violence"

“Mother, i crave Violence”

Its 9:05 in the morning and I’m sitting in my car with the heat blasting waiting for practice to start at the vets I’m working with this week. Its been incredibly slow for the past few days so I have little hope for seeing much today as usual. Yesterday I spent pretty much the whole day in my car. I’ve got a nice setup going for me though. I’ve got my mini iPad to watch a show on, and I’ve got…

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#cold #irratable #mental health

Feeling a bit better

I’m still lonely, and it’s still a bit difficult to do things. But I’m feeling better than this morning. I can find the energy to actually do things. My focus is off, and I can’t focus on one thing for a a very long time, but I’m getting things done. I’m revising for my finals in June, which is like 5 months away, but I’m already nervous about it. I really struggle to be able to write out my…

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#anxiety #depression #mental health #recovery #rvc #study #studying

Its a low weekend

I’m having a pretty low weekend. As per usually I don’t know why my mental health has dipped. But I’m feeling very low. I’m really lonely. With the pandemic, socialisation as gone down to nothing. So my normal like where I’d regularly be seeing people I know and even being forced into situations that I might not want to be in, don’t happen. So I’m alone. A lot. I think I’ve been handling this…

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#anxiety #depression #low period #mental health #sad

10 Jan Weekly Calorie Check in

Since I’m on a diet I wanted to make a way for me more accountable for my diet. 10 Jan – I have that I only at 706 calories, but I think I forgot to log my dinner 11 Jan – 748 Calories (this one I fell asleep before dinner and slept through) 12 Jan – 1036 calories 13 Jan – 1212 calories 14 Jan – 1177 Calories 15 Jan – 1293 calories 16 Jan – 1447 Calories That would mean for this week I…

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new year... Same me

New year... Same me

So here’s an update on how 2021 is going for me. I was doing EMS in our Equine hospital at RVC during Christmas and over the new year. It was a good experience in that I saw a lot of cases. But it was honestly quite sad because we had 5 animals in the first 7 days that needed to be euthanised. And while it was for a good reason, and it was better for the animals, it does start to weigh on you. I…

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Bell Equine Veterinary Clinic

For the just past two weeks I’ve been at Bell Equine in Kent. This placement was originally one of the tracking options before COVID-19 changed all the schedules. But I was lucky enough to be allocated these weeks for my extra mural weeks that I need. Over all it was a super lovely placement. The first week, I was the only student there so I did a lot of work. I was able to do loads of blood…

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Long time no type

I did it again. I started a blog and then ignored it lol. Well here’s the life update. The Brazilian and I did not work out. He ended up deciding he missed his ex wife and then drifted off. I think he started to get feelings for me, as we had sex a few times and it was getting more intimate rather than just fucking. And then the pandemic started. After going to Italy, I became super super…

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SO many things have happened!!

I need to get better about writing blog posts more often. This keep happening and I keep forgetting to write about.

Last week I got my drivers license for the United Kingdom. I took my theory test on Monday, passed that. Got home and then looked online to schedule my driving test. There was magically a test slot open for Friday at 9am. Most people have to wait for months in order to get a…

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is he my Boyfriend???

I met up with Eduardo for the third time. It was super nice and low key! He just took me back to his shared house and we hung out with his one flat mate. I watched him play video games for a while. His flatmate is a doctor from Romania and he studied in china about cupping, acupuncture, massage techniques. He does quite a bit of work Eduardo, as he has quite a lot of problems with his back. So he…

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Thoughts on a Plane

At the moment I sit on the plane back to London. It’s often when I’m on routes of public transportation that I have some of my most profound thoughts. I think maybe it happens because I don’t have to worry. There is nothing else I could possibly be doing in that moment… except to just be. It is a refreshing feeling that doesn’t come often.

I’m currently reading a book series about a young…

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23 years later and I’ve certainly come so far from the weird Goth Girl to an expat veterinary student. I couldn’t be more grateful for where I’ve come from and all I’ve gone through!